[ He'll look relieved when he still refer to him as he used to, and a little happy.
...Before that faded away. There was something he felt he had to tell Ishimaru.
He planned on never telling him. Not even a hint of it. But he had learned the other had died, from someone else's mouth. That felt like a private piece of information; that being said, he felt it was his turn. But, it was a gamble. He knew Ishimaru still felt a weight against killing in the first place, and so he could view him the same way Nie Mingjue had started to look at him.
However, he wanted to trust in someone, and he was desperate for that. He wanted to help. So, he made that gamble.
Meng Yao got down on his knees, hands balled into fists. Then he moved his fists to rest on his knees as he looked at the other. ]
It hasn't; you're my friend and you were forced to do what you did. If I judged you for that, I would have to be a hypocrite, considering what I've done.
There's...something I have to confess to you. Before all of this, I was involved in a war, and in that war, I killed many people.
Because of that, though, the people I cared about weren't eliminated when someone attempted an all-out extermination campaign against them. Does that make me unjust? Maybe you can think that it was different from your position, but I'll bring up the fact that I ended up killing people who didn't deserve to die. When I was in enemy lines and it was my life against theirs, I chose my own. Time and time again.
I won't go into too much detail, but under enemy surveillance if I didn't kill these people, who were my allies, then I would be killed. I was essentially handed the knife, figuratively, and literally, like you were. Except instead of this school, it was Wen Ruohan who was responsible for that.
The situation you were in is comparable to mine, even if it wasn't on such a grand scale. It was kill or be killed. I don't think killing is always the answer, and I don't think it should be. But just because someone has to kill another person, and they have no other choice but to...it doesn't mean that they're evil.
[ ... ]
I'll understand if you...look at me differently now. Or if you don't want to accept this or if it takes some time, but I believe because of what you went through, if I kept this from you, I would be dishonest.
...In the end, I think now we're similar, and I don't think we should be viewed as lesser for that. None of us wanted to kill anyone, after all.
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...Before that faded away. There was something he felt he had to tell Ishimaru.
He planned on never telling him. Not even a hint of it. But he had learned the other had died, from someone else's mouth. That felt like a private piece of information; that being said, he felt it was his turn. But, it was a gamble. He knew Ishimaru still felt a weight against killing in the first place, and so he could view him the same way Nie Mingjue had started to look at him.
However, he wanted to trust in someone, and he was desperate for that. He wanted to help. So, he made that gamble.
Meng Yao got down on his knees, hands balled into fists. Then he moved his fists to rest on his knees as he looked at the other. ]
It hasn't; you're my friend and you were forced to do what you did. If I judged you for that, I would have to be a hypocrite, considering what I've done.
There's...something I have to confess to you. Before all of this, I was involved in a war, and in that war, I killed many people.
Because of that, though, the people I cared about weren't eliminated when someone attempted an all-out extermination campaign against them. Does that make me unjust? Maybe you can think that it was different from your position, but I'll bring up the fact that I ended up killing people who didn't deserve to die. When I was in enemy lines and it was my life against theirs, I chose my own. Time and time again.
I won't go into too much detail, but under enemy surveillance if I didn't kill these people, who were my allies, then I would be killed. I was essentially handed the knife, figuratively, and literally, like you were. Except instead of this school, it was Wen Ruohan who was responsible for that.
The situation you were in is comparable to mine, even if it wasn't on such a grand scale. It was kill or be killed. I don't think killing is always the answer, and I don't think it should be. But just because someone has to kill another person, and they have no other choice but to...it doesn't mean that they're evil.
[ ... ]
I'll understand if you...look at me differently now. Or if you don't want to accept this or if it takes some time, but I believe because of what you went through, if I kept this from you, I would be dishonest.
...In the end, I think now we're similar, and I don't think we should be viewed as lesser for that. None of us wanted to kill anyone, after all.