Ah, I'm pretty sure you hate me too much to do that... use another threat!
( the faint brush of hinata's fingers sends a shiver down his spine from the still healing wound in his right arm, and he welcomes it because who is komaeda if not a glutton for pain. what's unfamiliar is the way he's straddled by him, confined by his legs that's probably to prevent him from getting up — is this how he wants to search for answers? to be as close as possible? it was a mistake on his behalf, thinking that this would do anything for them, anything for him — it just hurts hinata more, and he probably doesn't understand that.
he wouldn't say his feelings are worthless, there's a lot komaeda wouldn't say, but it's hinata who chooses to fester in his own negative emotions. it'll help him, he knows, this is nothing more than a stepping stone to pull himself together. while komaeda knows the half truth, not the whole of how hinata became who he was then, he knows enough to wipe away his worries, to calm him down. he could admit that he has a talent, he could admit that he cares about him, he could admit a lot, but that's not komaeda's role — he's held his hand by not making hinata commit to him.
things like he won't let komaeda die, things like wanting komaeda by his side... komaeda never agreed to any of it, it was probably the right choice seeing that hinata is throwing everything away over lacking talent at the moment. wouldn't it be too easy to tell him everything, things he should find out himself? unlike nanami, nothing is stopping him, telling hinata the truth as he sees it, things like how in a world that lacked hope, and talent wasn't everything... how hinata didn't exist, because he has both those things. yet, it's a disgusting thought that makes him shudder, and it's not a conversation he wants to have. )
The way you think, how you're acting... it's all misplaced, and it's annoying me. You'll annoy everyone else too by being reckless, Hinata-kun.
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( the faint brush of hinata's fingers sends a shiver down his spine from the still healing wound in his right arm, and he welcomes it because who is komaeda if not a glutton for pain. what's unfamiliar is the way he's straddled by him, confined by his legs that's probably to prevent him from getting up — is this how he wants to search for answers? to be as close as possible? it was a mistake on his behalf, thinking that this would do anything for them, anything for him — it just hurts hinata more, and he probably doesn't understand that.
he wouldn't say his feelings are worthless, there's a lot komaeda wouldn't say, but it's hinata who chooses to fester in his own negative emotions. it'll help him, he knows, this is nothing more than a stepping stone to pull himself together. while komaeda knows the half truth, not the whole of how hinata became who he was then, he knows enough to wipe away his worries, to calm him down. he could admit that he has a talent, he could admit that he cares about him, he could admit a lot, but that's not komaeda's role — he's held his hand by not making hinata commit to him.
things like he won't let komaeda die, things like wanting komaeda by his side... komaeda never agreed to any of it, it was probably the right choice seeing that hinata is throwing everything away over lacking talent at the moment. wouldn't it be too easy to tell him everything, things he should find out himself? unlike nanami, nothing is stopping him, telling hinata the truth as he sees it, things like how in a world that lacked hope, and talent wasn't everything... how hinata didn't exist, because he has both those things. yet, it's a disgusting thought that makes him shudder, and it's not a conversation he wants to have. )
The way you think, how you're acting... it's all misplaced, and it's annoying me. You'll annoy everyone else too by being reckless, Hinata-kun.