Ah.. the burden you carry will be immense, I know.
( if someone had to die for the sake of saving others, the group who were given that luxury would have that weight on their shoulders forever. it makes sense to komaeda why they would try to find different options to spare their martyr, but to him that's just running away. that isn't hope at all. he doesn't want the people that he's supporting to be cowards, and so, he feels troubled by noah's words. a hand raises to his chin in thought, and in three slow strokes will his eyes glance up at the body within the case, and the black cat sitting atop of it. )
What about the person you're trying to protect? Wouldn't they have a hard time just waiting as everyone suffers...
( he wonders if the body was in the same position, if she didn't want to do it, it could have been the only way. though, there are chances she wanted to do it, and this was the only option exhausted to her. either way, there are possibilities that made everything comes down to this, and this was her hope for the future. this is why komaeda's able to smile towards the body despite the fact he's unable to tell what hope or despair may be coming off of it. if he was able to do that, then he'd be able to say for sure what the conclusion is towards their death. )
Such despair... I would never be able to deal with it! ( clenching his teeth and curling one hand into a fist, his eyes swirl a mix between black and white, until it's gone with a few blinks as he turns away. his breathing is slow as he tries to catch his breath, but more specifically calm himself down. it takes a few moments, but once he's swallowed down the saliva lodged in his throat and with one more slow breath, komaeda turns back towards noah. his eyes are normal, the same pale green as before as he shakes his head. ) If you're pushed into that position, self-sacrifice is all you have, and that will become their hope. If they died... you'd use it to grow stronger, wouldn't you?
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( if someone had to die for the sake of saving others, the group who were given that luxury would have that weight on their shoulders forever. it makes sense to komaeda why they would try to find different options to spare their martyr, but to him that's just running away. that isn't hope at all. he doesn't want the people that he's supporting to be cowards, and so, he feels troubled by noah's words. a hand raises to his chin in thought, and in three slow strokes will his eyes glance up at the body within the case, and the black cat sitting atop of it. )
What about the person you're trying to protect? Wouldn't they have a hard time just waiting as everyone suffers...
( he wonders if the body was in the same position, if she didn't want to do it, it could have been the only way. though, there are chances she wanted to do it, and this was the only option exhausted to her. either way, there are possibilities that made everything comes down to this, and this was her hope for the future. this is why komaeda's able to smile towards the body despite the fact he's unable to tell what hope or despair may be coming off of it. if he was able to do that, then he'd be able to say for sure what the conclusion is towards their death. )
Such despair... I would never be able to deal with it! ( clenching his teeth and curling one hand into a fist, his eyes swirl a mix between black and white, until it's gone with a few blinks as he turns away. his breathing is slow as he tries to catch his breath, but more specifically calm himself down. it takes a few moments, but once he's swallowed down the saliva lodged in his throat and with one more slow breath, komaeda turns back towards noah. his eyes are normal, the same pale green as before as he shakes his head. ) If you're pushed into that position, self-sacrifice is all you have, and that will become their hope. If they died... you'd use it to grow stronger, wouldn't you?
( his arms cross as he continues. )
Or will you let it all be in vain?