( there's a lot to unpack here from the way hinata speaks to him, and it is because he doesn't know. the male isn't aware of the truth so that's why he reacts that way, that's the proper response to everything komaeda says, really. it also should have been expected that the other would get in the way by responding to his show of weakness. it makes komaeda feel sick in a way, he feels like he's going to die. )
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( what is komaeda trying to accomplish here? what does he want out of this? he's unable to sincerely think with hinata actually touching him, and his mind feels too hazy to understand. clearly there wasn't meant to be an understanding because the other doesn't know, he's ignorant, and yet... it's not like he can help it. he can't tell between the truth or the lies, it's all blurred to him and while komaeda knows every single thing to tear him apart. )
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( despite his better judgement, he manages to remove his hands from hinata's body, and use them to peel the other's own off. it bothers him, someone with lack of talent touching him, a reserve course student no less — those feelings are still enough to overwhelm komaeda's way of life, and it's that reason why he puts a wall up between he and himself. )
say it right... he's the.... ULTIMATE hope.......
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( what is komaeda trying to accomplish here? what does he want out of this? he's unable to sincerely think with hinata actually touching him, and his mind feels too hazy to understand. clearly there wasn't meant to be an understanding because the other doesn't know, he's ignorant, and yet... it's not like he can help it. he can't tell between the truth or the lies, it's all blurred to him and while komaeda knows every single thing to tear him apart. )
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( despite his better judgement, he manages to remove his hands from hinata's body, and use them to peel the other's own off. it bothers him, someone with lack of talent touching him, a reserve course student no less — those feelings are still enough to overwhelm komaeda's way of life, and it's that reason why he puts a wall up between he and himself. )
I'm leaving.