...Hm. I was in love. ( this comes out easily, but he doesn't know when his heart made that drastic decision, maybe it was when they first met. ) I love Ultimates with all my heart, so think of my actions as a love letter for a moment — I didn't like the way he put himself down, and so I wanted him to make use out of his talents, show everyone how reliable he was... I wanted to give him stepping stones so he saw himself in a brighter light.
( explaining his feelings are hard when he hardly has any, and so he speaks from what he knows, or how he believes he felt. he just wanted to see that person at their best, and what better way was there then giving them something that they were talented in the field of. )
That's why I dropped the first clue to him. Perhaps, he could have stopped my evil deeds...
( komaeda closes his eyes, placing a hand over his stomach as he thinks on how to continue, )
Now I only said for a moment, which admits that... there's other reasons. Everyone stuck in place like they were frozen in time, I wanted to give them a little push, help them find a direction... the deceased can become stepping stones, giving others the need to learn from their mistakes so they aren't next, or remain stronger so they can survive... I wanted them to keep their eyes faced forward, and to never look back, there was already one body, so I added another. They worked real hard — together — that's what mattered! I wanted to see then unite and no long distrust one another... why live distrusting when we can all die trusting each other to kill one another!
( he stops to inhale, catching his breath as he listens to himself too, to others he may sound crazy, and he feels as if he might get the same response as always. that he was insane, or something was wrong with him, or his methods were entirely wrong — though, ranger's slightly different from the norm, but he does have his own thoughts depending on the subject. ranger's honest though, and komaeda doesn't really listen to others so even if it's the same thing — it won't hurt him too much. )
...Ranger-kun, I wondered if the body in the glass case was special, why hadn't she decayed, why was her body like she was sleeping...? A deceased body for auction during Golden Week that we couldn't get inside unless it was won through merit points... I wondered if other natives could stay preserved like her. ...I went out my way to figure out a few answers, and I even learned that killing someone gives you a tally. Ahaha...
( he leans up properly now, turning forward so that he can see the tv, and he doesn't watch ranger at all as he does this. it's not like komaeda has to see someone looks disappointed at him, especially with the expression that's hidden behind those cards. )
The results are that... I saw the hope of people come together, friends being made... It's what I wanted to see, and even helped a few things in the future... I love hope, I love the hope that these underdogs try to replicate from Ultimates, I wanted to help them even if it meant at the cost of my own life... That's why they're terrified of my existence and hate me, but it was worth it for their hope.
ARE U SURE HES INDEPENDENT I mean look at him with komaeda what's that
( explaining his feelings are hard when he hardly has any, and so he speaks from what he knows, or how he believes he felt. he just wanted to see that person at their best, and what better way was there then giving them something that they were talented in the field of. )
That's why I dropped the first clue to him. Perhaps, he could have stopped my evil deeds...
( komaeda closes his eyes, placing a hand over his stomach as he thinks on how to continue, )
Now I only said for a moment, which admits that... there's other reasons. Everyone stuck in place like they were frozen in time, I wanted to give them a little push, help them find a direction... the deceased can become stepping stones, giving others the need to learn from their mistakes so they aren't next, or remain stronger so they can survive... I wanted them to keep their eyes faced forward, and to never look back, there was already one body, so I added another. They worked real hard — together — that's what mattered! I wanted to see then unite and no long distrust one another... why live distrusting when we can all die trusting each other to kill one another!
( he stops to inhale, catching his breath as he listens to himself too, to others he may sound crazy, and he feels as if he might get the same response as always. that he was insane, or something was wrong with him, or his methods were entirely wrong — though, ranger's slightly different from the norm, but he does have his own thoughts depending on the subject. ranger's honest though, and komaeda doesn't really listen to others so even if it's the same thing — it won't hurt him too much. )
...Ranger-kun, I wondered if the body in the glass case was special, why hadn't she decayed, why was her body like she was sleeping...? A deceased body for auction during Golden Week that we couldn't get inside unless it was won through merit points... I wondered if other natives could stay preserved like her. ...I went out my way to figure out a few answers, and I even learned that killing someone gives you a tally. Ahaha...
( he leans up properly now, turning forward so that he can see the tv, and he doesn't watch ranger at all as he does this. it's not like komaeda has to see someone looks disappointed at him, especially with the expression that's hidden behind those cards. )
The results are that... I saw the hope of people come together, friends being made... It's what I wanted to see, and even helped a few things in the future... I love hope, I love the hope that these underdogs try to replicate from Ultimates, I wanted to help them even if it meant at the cost of my own life... That's why they're terrified of my existence and hate me, but it was worth it for their hope.