It's not like it's all or nothing. ... Forget it, why am I even bothering?
[He tugs up a collar-side with a free hand. What's he doing. Komaeda's the sort who'll hear what he wants to. Telling him things in even a little good faith... isn't ever going to work. (He's surprised Komaeda hasn't commented on the handprint at this point, but maybe he's biding his time.)
I'm crying he was so smug about it, he'll be kicking himself when he realizes but... that's what happens with vague specifications. A few hours is an achievement in it's own right, so who ends up winning in the end?]
What kind of wish is that?
[He looks that gloomy, huh? People have been checking in on him... He smiles, fairly often, as much of a defense as and part of his Hiyori persona. That side of him... at the end of the day it wants to keep him alive, even if that means killing him. Try hard because the odds feel so stacked... and also honestly, inexperience. Hope the way he sees it feels dangerous as far as it's concerned, something to seal away and thereby stifle, and the rest of him resents it. Hope the way Komaeda describes it... fits easily into it's worldview after the filter of his own perception. There's nothing unusual about him smiling within the span of a few hours, such that it would require a wish, because it would happen anyway.
...a genuine, happy one, fully from the heart, from Shin Tsukimi? No. He doesn't do those on command anymore. Even his own, really; they take him by as much surprise as anyone when they happen. Somehow he gets the strangest feeling there won't be one today.
He'll take a page out of Komaeda's own book and just stare at him with dead eyes and, yes, a smile. Go on. There's no reason for him to participate in this. He can pretend he can't tell it's meant to be a joint thing, even as Komaeda'll make a thing of it as he does every time Shin feigns ignorance.]
no subject
[He tugs up a collar-side with a free hand. What's he doing. Komaeda's the sort who'll hear what he wants to. Telling him things in even a little good faith... isn't ever going to work. (He's surprised Komaeda hasn't commented on the handprint at this point, but maybe he's biding his time.)
I'm crying he was so smug about it, he'll be kicking himself when he realizes but... that's what happens with vague specifications. A few hours is an achievement in it's own right, so who ends up winning in the end?]
What kind of wish is that?
[He looks that gloomy, huh? People have been checking in on him... He smiles, fairly often, as much of a defense as and part of his Hiyori persona. That side of him... at the end of the day it wants to keep him alive, even if that means killing him. Try hard because the odds feel so stacked... and also honestly, inexperience. Hope the way he sees it feels dangerous as far as it's concerned, something to seal away and thereby stifle, and the rest of him resents it. Hope the way Komaeda describes it... fits easily into it's worldview after the filter of his own perception. There's nothing unusual about him smiling within the span of a few hours, such that it would require a wish, because it would happen anyway.
...a genuine, happy one, fully from the heart, from Shin Tsukimi? No. He doesn't do those on command anymore. Even his own, really; they take him by as much surprise as anyone when they happen. Somehow he gets the strangest feeling there won't be one today.
He'll take a page out of Komaeda's own book and just stare at him with dead eyes and, yes, a smile. Go on. There's no reason for him to participate in this. He can pretend he can't tell it's meant to be a joint thing, even as Komaeda'll make a thing of it as he does every time Shin feigns ignorance.]