[semi-open] fourth truth bullet: kogamo

[futurebullets]

Who: Hajime Hinata and YOU
What: A catch-all log for Hinata throughout the month! Closed things will added by request, open things for stuff outside of event top-levels
Where: Various
When: Mostly September, may also include some backdated threads
Warnings: none at the moment

Notes: feel free to hit me up at Yamadori for any plotting!

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[mermaidcursed]

( she's almost about to start babbling questions and concerns and what happeneds but- there's something in the way he looks at her, the stunned awe in his voice-

she's heard it before. when he thought she was dead. her hands are reaching for him from where she stands at the bed's edge where she freezes, not because it occurs to her that hugging an injured person so suddenly and strongly might be a bad idea, but because a cold shock is taking her from the heart outwards. )

W-what do you mean...?

[futurebullets]

[It makes his heart ache, seeing the shock wash over her face, because he should never allow anything to make her make that expression - but it's even worse, being the cause of it.]

I'm not... really sure why... [He holds his head, trying to force himself to remember but only getting pain for his troubles.] It's... confusing, trying to place everything when I think about the Island and being here. But I know I used to tutor you, I can remember it clearly. Even if I couldn't say your name back then for some reason, either... The last thing I remember of us is helping you with math one day and then-

[Hinata breaks off, almost bites his lip as he cuts himself off as swiftly as possible. He can't say that to her. There's no way he can say that.]

...That isn't important now. [He settles on that, eyes searching her carefully.] Are you hurt?

[If she's okay, then... Then maybe it was just a bad dream. She's obviously, clearly here and alive, so...]

[mermaidcursed]

I- Hajime-nii...

( that was months ago.

nene remembers a reunion by the lockers, studying in an empty classroom, comfort during the fumigations- her chest hurts. she remembers holding him in tears on her birthday, asking to find each other, raising a flytrap further, being together-

"if we're sent back to our homes, will you search for me?"

"yeah, i'll look for you."

"no matter how far, no matter how long it takes. i'll make sure we see each other again."

her stomach twists, and she thinks she's shaking. )

Do- do you... not... remember the past few months? I- we were raising your flytrap together...

[futurebullets]

[He doesn't want to say it. Hinata can see the way she shakes, and he does not want to say it.

How can he put her through more pain, when she's already been through so much? How can he live with himself, knowing he made things even worse for her?

But the truth is the truth, and he will not lie to her. Hinata can't live and try to pretend that he has memories he doesn't have. And beyond that, even though he doesn't know it yet - Hinata Hajime is a person who must always face the truth.]

...No, I don't. I didn't even realize I'd forgotten, let alone that much. [He balls up the sheet in his fist.] I'm sorry- [Tries to say her name. Can't, and hates himself for it.] I'm sorry...

[mermaidcursed]

( he didn't know her name the first time, either. how much has been lost? maybe he catches how she pales, reaches for a chair to stumble into before she falls onto the floor, dizzy with anxiety and confusion as tears well up in her eyes. eventually, voice breaking, she speaks. )

N-Nene Yashiro. My name's Nene Yashiro. We- we've been here, together, since- since March.

( her throat feels dry. )