Everyone's capable of pity, I can look at those unfortunate to not understand hope, and think of how pitiful it must be to exist so naïve.
( he looks down at her, his attention completely hers, and he gives it because he can as he watches helena with a neutral expression at first. yes, komaeda can do something so vile as pity, he can feel sorry for people around him, but not out of kindness, but because he's better, and couldn't imagine being in their shoes. throughout the memory, he doesn't remember a moment his actions were pity, because as vile as he can be — )
I meant every word that I said then, and I mean it now. I'd like it if you had a little more hope in me. ( in him, but he had the audacity to say that about her — they're leaves who don't fall so far from the same tree, just different experiences, some that mold them better than others. )
As despairing as it was, I believe such a scenario was needed to push you further than every before. You said that your ability wasn't meant to do that... but what was so wrong with what happened? Yes, they all died, but at that moment... should I have pitied you or the animals that died by our hands?
( he can remember the moment, how the animals all cracked and twisted, dying right before their hands, their eyes... ) Instead, I was proud of you. Hope comes in all shapes and forms, as unsightly as it was, that was meant to elevate your efforts, put you in an experience that either you can handle or avoid the next time —
( though, avoiding seems like running away. ) The latter doesn't seem like you, seeing how you walked off the edge of the unknown yourself. Rather, it helped them, and now you can use them to continue on, knowing that what you did was right because you did pull them out of their cycle of suffering... Next time, you'll be prepared, your body won't lock up in fear of a disaster. Hm... pitying you because of actions you used to your advantage? ...That's not the type of person I am.
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( he looks down at her, his attention completely hers, and he gives it because he can as he watches helena with a neutral expression at first. yes, komaeda can do something so vile as pity, he can feel sorry for people around him, but not out of kindness, but because he's better, and couldn't imagine being in their shoes. throughout the memory, he doesn't remember a moment his actions were pity, because as vile as he can be — )
I meant every word that I said then, and I mean it now. I'd like it if you had a little more hope in me. ( in him, but he had the audacity to say that about her — they're leaves who don't fall so far from the same tree, just different experiences, some that mold them better than others. )
As despairing as it was, I believe such a scenario was needed to push you further than every before. You said that your ability wasn't meant to do that... but what was so wrong with what happened? Yes, they all died, but at that moment... should I have pitied you or the animals that died by our hands?
( he can remember the moment, how the animals all cracked and twisted, dying right before their hands, their eyes... ) Instead, I was proud of you. Hope comes in all shapes and forms, as unsightly as it was, that was meant to elevate your efforts, put you in an experience that either you can handle or avoid the next time —
( though, avoiding seems like running away. ) The latter doesn't seem like you, seeing how you walked off the edge of the unknown yourself. Rather, it helped them, and now you can use them to continue on, knowing that what you did was right because you did pull them out of their cycle of suffering... Next time, you'll be prepared, your body won't lock up in fear of a disaster. Hm... pitying you because of actions you used to your advantage? ...That's not the type of person I am.