( all he's ever loved is... hope, and maybe someone else, but to apply that to others — it feels so foreign, a concept he doesn't believe he should indulge in. if he loves something, then he knows in the end that an unfortunate event will turn and take them away. he's seen it many times, and he could use his dog for example, that was the only creature that loved him, and he felt loved back.
to love other people... to want to be near them... he does, he likes attention, wants to be covered in it if he just wasn't so unhealthy for them. well, in the end... love comes down to the ultimates because... he looks up to them, he wants to o his best... he'd wish the world for them so... )
...What if—-
( he lets npckun hug him, and he doesn't draw away from them at all, instead he stands there thinking about what warm feeling he's supposed to have. he wraps his arms around them, but from behind his fingers press against the back of his hand to see... if he's any warmer. he's still cool, the same as always, so he hugs a little tighter waiting for the effect to start. he hums, leaning just a bit to rest his chin on the top of npckun's head as he listens. )
...being around them is bad? ...What do you do when that love will be short-lived? Is it worth it?
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to love other people... to want to be near them... he does, he likes attention, wants to be covered in it if he just wasn't so unhealthy for them. well, in the end... love comes down to the ultimates because... he looks up to them, he wants to o his best... he'd wish the world for them so... )
...What if—-
( he lets npckun hug him, and he doesn't draw away from them at all, instead he stands there thinking about what warm feeling he's supposed to have. he wraps his arms around them, but from behind his fingers press against the back of his hand to see... if he's any warmer. he's still cool, the same as always, so he hugs a little tighter waiting for the effect to start. he hums, leaning just a bit to rest his chin on the top of npckun's head as he listens. )
...being around them is bad? ...What do you do when that love will be short-lived? Is it worth it?