(semi closed) and if you should call

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Who: Helena Adams and etc.
What: Catch all log!
When: November
Where: All over.
Warnings: Will edit if needed.

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[notsosou]

[Ah, yeah, it was going to come down to this, wasn't it. He's taken a chance here, a dizzying, terrifying chance, but...]

Well, I said it before didn't I? You can't take it out of this room.

[Physically, in the sense of the red paper and paint, and metaphorically, in that he's telling her and her only.]

You're the only one I've told. [Not the only one who knows, but she doesn't need to know that. He knows who knows but... not for sure. It's an icy thing to think about, so he usually puts it away so as to be able to think other thoughts.] So if this gets out... I'll know who did it.

[A warning, a handcarved threat. It's the tone that in another place and time said 'don't betray me', all but a fevered grip hard enough to hurt. There's the sense of something receding back, the rest closing back in to take it's place.]

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[it might be meant as a threat, but it draws something else out of her - a laugh, simple and unpretentious. a laugh that says the idea of her letting his secret loose is unthinkable, so far fetched as to be unimaginable.]

You've been "Sou" to me for this long already. It won't be a stretch to keep the name in use for company.

[so, she understands. he is Shin only when they are truly safe and alone, when he can wear his own skin.]

I'll keep it quiet. Don't worry.

[notsosou]

[The laugh hurts, in different ways. He can't help but be stung, just a little. But also...

Sometimes him and Helena feel like they're on different worlds, despite everything.]

See that you do...

[A bit of a futile scrambling to maintain the mood, that one, his hand goes to his scarf as he gives up on it. It's kind of strange really as well... he's been Sou for months now, like a broken-in pair of shoes worn to the shape of his feet.]

...Ah, that's bad manners. I-I appreciate it, Helena.

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I get it. It's information you don't want running around out there. Something you want to safeguard as much as you can.

[she's unbothered by his words, the ominous air they might carry, because she feels that she knows him enough that this is more....self defense, and not directed at her. that he needs to keep that fact secret for reasons she doesn't know yet. if ever Shin feels comfortable enough to tell her, he will - but Helena will not have him bleed more at the moment.]

...Thank you, Shin.