Noah Ebalon (𝕷𝖎𝖇𝖊𝖗𝖆𝖙𝖔𝖗) (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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yogen2022-02-07 12:25 am
silentabyss) wrote in yogen2022-02-07 12:25 am
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[CLOSED] sing for the damage we've done
who: Noah & Childe
what: Post-Disney murder :)
when: Last day of the field trip
where: Didney worl, specifically Noah's hotel room
warnings: This is an unfun post. Discussions of trauma & suicide, mercy killings, uhh... yeah, just don't go here
[Noah has been looking at the knife he was given way too long for it to be healthy.
The thing about this whole "die to get back to the school" thing is that he doesn't want to kill himself, because he'd tried so many times before in the clocktower in September and that wound up with him living through something like thirty attempts and getting into a suicide pact with Nene, which is the last thing he wanted. The sensation of dying, too, is not something that's ever pleasant.
He swore he'd get better. He has gotten better since then, so why does he have to regress like this?
Still, the number of students here is thinning out little by little. People are dying some way or another to return to the school, and Noah knows he has to suck it up...
His hotel room door is open and he's just sort of sitting on the bed, holding the dagger, debating what to do with it. Where to hit to make it quick, so that he doesn't feel anything, so that he can return to the school and hopefully just... forget.]
what: Post-Disney murder :)
when: Last day of the field trip
where: Didney worl, specifically Noah's hotel room
warnings: This is an unfun post. Discussions of trauma & suicide, mercy killings, uhh... yeah, just don't go here
[Noah has been looking at the knife he was given way too long for it to be healthy.
The thing about this whole "die to get back to the school" thing is that he doesn't want to kill himself, because he'd tried so many times before in the clocktower in September and that wound up with him living through something like thirty attempts and getting into a suicide pact with Nene, which is the last thing he wanted. The sensation of dying, too, is not something that's ever pleasant.
He swore he'd get better. He has gotten better since then, so why does he have to regress like this?
Still, the number of students here is thinning out little by little. People are dying some way or another to return to the school, and Noah knows he has to suck it up...
His hotel room door is open and he's just sort of sitting on the bed, holding the dagger, debating what to do with it. Where to hit to make it quick, so that he doesn't feel anything, so that he can return to the school and hopefully just... forget.]
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He doesn't get up again. His moonstone is back at the school, so there's no chance of that happening, no chance of the deja vu that'll make Childe have to suffer this twice. When he goes down, he barely makes a sound other than his voice croaking and giving out; it really is quite lucky that Childe's there to catch him before he hits the floor. Unfortunate, though, that the man has to be covered in blood moments after, as there's no way a wound of that calibre will end in anything less than a smattering of gore across the sheets and Childe himself.
Somewhere, Noah's soul is travelling the great expanse to get back to the school proper, and he'll wake up wondering when Childe will come back and join him so that he can say thanks. Thanks for saving him the shame of having to regress back into old habits. Thanks for taking pity on him. Thanks for caring enough to talk him down from his anxieties. Just... thanks.]