My old life...? [ How long has it been since she thought about that, beyond missing restaurants. ]
Huh? What? Nobody needs to die! [ Why would she want them dead, she's not that selfish!?!? She has plenty of dead friends here! ]
My family is fine! [ Her parents will move on eventually...they'd been wonderful if a bit overprotective. She didn't want them to see her here, she wanted to go back to them when she'd improved. ] And who says I'm staying dead forever! Of course we're working on an escape.
[ if he can so boldly ask, and hopefully she won't take it offensive.
...what came after his death?
it infuriates him to no end, annoying that sara didn't take his bargain, that she didn't sacrifice gin to save keiji. why wasn't he here, he should have died as well, unless meister was on some bullshit again, then midori isn't pleased at all. ]
I hope it's something fun! What if you're dead because you allowed someone else to live, and if you escape... [ drumroll ] The person close to you dies in your stead!
[ She had years left to live and dreams to fufill... She needs to find the Kazuchi's and apologize for Kanna and Kugie, she needs to make sure Q-taro's orphanage is okay. She needs to fix Ranger. Gin should be reunited with his mother, Shin should find something to do with his life...and Keiji...she would be happy to get drinks with him when she got old enough. ]
That's dumb, the real world doesn't work like that. [ She didn't take your deal because it was terrible and she wanted to kill you! If she was tempted...shes not telling him now. ] I'd save my life and that persons, obviously.
[ how bold, asunaro has wove into the world's seams, it's manipulated everyone and everything. returning back home is just returning to asunaro.
...
midori smiles. ]
What is the real world, I wonder. Did you truly believe there's life after death?
[ not to sound like a flateather, but, coming here is already strange— had there been a "life" after "death", no one would need to fear death. they could come here, reincarnate, and return to their happy life. ]
I don't think you can do it, for you are here, you see...
[ if she failed once, won't she fail twice, and again? if only she'd let them die in her place. ]
[ According to a brief google search japanese high school education doesn't really focus on reading novels but rather short stories or poems...So she's read like Moon Over Mountain? ]
If the option to take is reading more books, then I'm sorry to disappoint you.
[ Making a joke now makes whatever terrible thing he says next hit lighter. ]
Of course not...people depend on me. I can't just do whatever I'd like.
[ You can't free wheel with the absurd when you look back and see people are holding onto you by their fingertips. It's cruel. Its inhuman. Even if you wanted to push them away and let go, thats not the right thing to do. ]
You even had a line about it when we talked in that classroom [ Right before he... ] ...something about being "an adult after all" so you couldn't do what you wanted to me... Not even you live freely, Midori. Why is it so strange that I don't?
[ it's because he wouldn't know, not when he has a role to play, but he does sound curious as he says that. a brow raised, he thinks over her words, contemplating everything. he knows what he said...
he would do certain things to her if he wasn't tied to his job, but he's an adult after all, and what the job says, he must do. ]
I'm sorry... I don't remember anything like that. I've lived my life as Sou Hiyori, I've always been happy, and free... [ he didn't expect that from sara, it almost sounds like she's saying he was bound by rules, and that he had no choice but to act the way he did. is she becoming an apologist? ] That Midori person that you see me as sounds like he was a stickler for the rules!
Ah... I don't know? The group, everyone? There's a real group of idiots here you can't take your eyes off!
[ She says it, but it rings a little false when she says it. The people here...it really isn't the same as it was back in the game. There isn't that same heavy weight of everyone's lives, the heavy tar of her own resentful thoughts that its always her who has to suffer. Yogen might not be nice...but people her have protected her without anything she had to offer. She wants to protect them, but people like Noah, Add and Nene...they aren't burdens on her. She's never once thought of them that way. ]
Sure, sure...you don't remember... [ Is she an apologist? She doesn't understand this guy enough to apologize for him....where can she get an apology for his behavior? ] Mhm. He seemed very loyal to his ideals. Even when it cost him something he held dearly, he couldn't disobey a direct order...
...He was still a cheater! I guess even people with strong ideals want to win! It's kind of gross if you think about it!
[ marvel in what she can do, learn the true sara that she keeps hidden inside of her. it's the fight, and everyone gets tired, maybe one day sara will want to be cared for too. she'll lose herself if she keeps protecting everyone, then what will be left?
though, it's not like there weren't cheaters aside from him on his floor either. ]
You must miss him considering you want me to be him very badly...
[ with these dashing good looks, who wouldn't. ]
Is that it?
[ he doesn't sound beat up, rather he finds it funny as he follows wherever sara goes. it's not like she's going to attack him. ]
[ looks at shin, looks away. there's something about that one. ]
I'd miss talking to you, Miss Namida. You're the first person here to look at me with ill intent.
[ as if that makes this special, but no... it doesn't, he was happy to see that her anger took over, that she felt pleased by the idea of aggression towards him.
...
he smiles.
WHAT DO U MEAN!! LOOKS @ RANMARU? He's a psychopath. ]
Rely on me..? So I should take responsibility for you?
[ Like an apologist?? Does she have to say sorry every time he's weird like she does with Add, oh god. ]
I don't think I can take the workload...
[ He knows she doesn't like him but he keeps trying to get closer...its a bit freaky. She already knows the punchline to this joke, but it should be pretty clear she's not going to just become the person he wants if he talks to her long enough.
Well, she already is, kind of...but she's not going to be that bad. ]
If you want to tell me your troubles, go ahead, but don't expect anything from me. If we're strangers, that should be normal.
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Huh? What? Nobody needs to die! [ Why would she want them dead, she's not that selfish!?!? She has plenty of dead friends here! ]
My family is fine! [ Her parents will move on eventually...they'd been wonderful if a bit overprotective. She didn't want them to see her here, she wanted to go back to them when she'd improved. ] And who says I'm staying dead forever! Of course we're working on an escape.
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[ if he can so boldly ask, and hopefully she won't take it offensive.
...what came after his death?
it infuriates him to no end, annoying that sara didn't take his bargain, that she didn't sacrifice gin to save keiji. why wasn't he here, he should have died as well, unless meister was on some bullshit again, then midori isn't pleased at all. ]
I hope it's something fun! What if you're dead because you allowed someone else to live, and if you escape... [ drumroll ] The person close to you dies in your stead!
[ ... ]
My poor coworkers...
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[ She had years left to live and dreams to fufill... She needs to find the Kazuchi's and apologize for Kanna and Kugie, she needs to make sure Q-taro's orphanage is okay. She needs to fix Ranger. Gin should be reunited with his mother, Shin should find something to do with his life...and Keiji...she would be happy to get drinks with him when she got old enough. ]
That's dumb, the real world doesn't work like that. [ She didn't take your deal because it was terrible and she wanted to kill you! If she was tempted...shes not telling him now. ] I'd save my life and that persons, obviously.
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...
midori smiles. ]
What is the real world, I wonder. Did you truly believe there's life after death?
[ not to sound like a flateather, but, coming here is already strange— had there been a "life" after "death", no one would need to fear death. they could come here, reincarnate, and return to their happy life. ]
I don't think you can do it, for you are here, you see...
[ if she failed once, won't she fail twice, and again? if only she'd let them die in her place. ]
There's a third option.
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Before this? I liked to imagine it, but thats not the same as believing.
[ Not that she can recall at this very moment her own elaborate fantasies of Joe come back to life to haunt and hate her. ]
I want it to be true, so I'd try. But fine, you have a point, so make it. What is the third option?
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[ with a thoughtful hum, he drops his hands down by his side, placing them behind him in a gentlemanly manner, and takes a step closer to sara.
he's bridging the gap, more than he can say with her response. ]
How good are you with literature?
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[ According to a brief google search japanese high school education doesn't really focus on reading novels but rather short stories or poems...So she's read like Moon Over Mountain? ]
If the option to take is reading more books, then I'm sorry to disappoint you.
[ Making a joke now makes whatever terrible thing he says next hit lighter. ]
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"Happiness and the absurd are two sons of the same earth. They are inseparable."
[ ... ]
Do you understand its meaning?
he want her to be the joker for women fr
Life sucks, so even being happy is absurd?
[ Depressing... ]
I know what you're trying to say. Take everything less seriously, and do what I want.
but is it working that's what matters
If that's how you see it...
[ something like that, but close enough for a high school deadout. ]
So can you?
[ he won't say it aloud, but it's almost like she holds herself back... ]
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[ You can't free wheel with the absurd when you look back and see people are holding onto you by their fingertips. It's cruel. Its inhuman. Even if you wanted to push them away and let go, thats not the right thing to do. ]
You even had a line about it when we talked in that classroom [ Right before he... ] ...something about being "an adult after all" so you couldn't do what you wanted to me... Not even you live freely, Midori. Why is it so strange that I don't?
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[ it's because he wouldn't know, not when he has a role to play, but he does sound curious as he says that. a brow raised, he thinks over her words, contemplating everything. he knows what he said...
he would do certain things to her if he wasn't tied to his job, but he's an adult after all, and what the job says, he must do. ]
I'm sorry... I don't remember anything like that. I've lived my life as Sou Hiyori, I've always been happy, and free... [ he didn't expect that from sara, it almost sounds like she's saying he was bound by rules, and that he had no choice but to act the way he did. is she becoming an apologist? ] That Midori person that you see me as sounds like he was a stickler for the rules!
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[ She says it, but it rings a little false when she says it. The people here...it really isn't the same as it was back in the game. There isn't that same heavy weight of everyone's lives, the heavy tar of her own resentful thoughts that its always her who has to suffer. Yogen might not be nice...but people her have protected her without anything she had to offer. She wants to protect them, but people like Noah, Add and Nene...they aren't burdens on her. She's never once thought of them that way. ]
Sure, sure...you don't remember... [ Is she an apologist? She doesn't understand this guy enough to apologize for him....where can she get an apology for his behavior? ] Mhm. He seemed very loyal to his ideals. Even when it cost him something he held dearly, he couldn't disobey a direct order...
...He was still a cheater! I guess even people with strong ideals want to win! It's kind of gross if you think about it!
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[ marvel in what she can do, learn the true sara that she keeps hidden inside of her. it's the fight, and everyone gets tired, maybe one day sara will want to be cared for too. she'll lose herself if she keeps protecting everyone, then what will be left?
though, it's not like there weren't cheaters aside from him on his floor either. ]
You must miss him considering you want me to be him very badly...
[ with these dashing good looks, who wouldn't. ]
Is that it?
[ he doesn't sound beat up, rather he finds it funny as he follows wherever sara goes. it's not like she's going to attack him. ]
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[ Gotta keep up that trustworthy, leaderly appearance. ]
You're just as annoying, so its a very easy mistake. Maybe if you close your mouth for a reeeeally long time, I won't think you're the same.
[ Dashing good...lose the rattail and maybe we'll talk. She's really not into psychopath like this... Work harder!
...Walking as he follows her. ]
...Of course I don't miss him. I knew him for a day and then I killed him. If I missed someone like that, I'd be as absurd as you want me to be.
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[ looks at shin, looks away. there's something about that one. ]
I'd miss talking to you, Miss Namida. You're the first person here to look at me with ill intent.
[ as if that makes this special, but no... it doesn't, he was happy to see that her anger took over, that she felt pleased by the idea of aggression towards him.
...
he smiles.
WHAT DO U MEAN!! LOOKS @ RANMARU? He's a psychopath. ]
Can I ask a troubling question?
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You...like that..?
[ She gives him a disquieted look, slowing her steps to really look at him. The first...really? Is she the only one who doesn't like him?
...
Ranmaru was a cute little goon who did whatever Sara said...where is that energy in Midori? He just tries to kill her and spins his head around. ]
Why do you keep asking me for permission? Just say what you want, Mr. Live by my own rules.
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It's new. I've never seen anyone look at me that way, normally they're happy to see me.
[ which means yes, so leave him alone.
he'd kill her now if he wasn't a faker, he do miss being on top. ]
Am I not allowed to rely on you like everyone else?
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[ Like an apologist?? Does she have to say sorry every time he's weird like she does with Add, oh god. ]
I don't think I can take the workload...
[ He knows she doesn't like him but he keeps trying to get closer...its a bit freaky. She already knows the punchline to this joke, but it should be pretty clear she's not going to just become the person he wants if he talks to her long enough.
Well, she already is, kind of...but she's not going to be that bad. ]
If you want to tell me your troubles, go ahead, but don't expect anything from me. If we're strangers, that should be normal.
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[ alright, we know she's an add apologist, but listen... midori will never be as cute as add, so he's losing this! ]
If you do, I'll help you find yourself.
[ like always, don't worry. where are they going, are they going to the kitchen? shuffle, shuffle, bouncy bouncy left and right. ]
I have no troubles to tell you. We're not thaaaaaaaaaaaaaat close!