Amami-kun and I were classmates in our other school, but there were definitely people who were closer to him than me. I'm not really sure what else to say, though...
[she thinks she got everything out. maybe. except maybe how much she misses him, it isn't the same opening her door and knowing the people who stay in the room across from her own now aren't the ones she wants to see. the time they spent together was more than they had before, and yet...
she turns the cup around in her hand, staring at the lovely orange tea.]
Rather than what I think, [because what is there to say,] can I tell you what I'm gonna miss instead?
( maple nods along with the words, soft but attentive all the same as she watches the other girl gaze into her cup.
it's a strange and distant feeling from her; maple had been lucky, in that she had never been separated from hiyori for too long. never for long enough to mourn his absence in a way like this. though it was a constant source of worry for her—enough that she can only imagine what kaede must be going through now. if there's something she can do to support her, maple will, and so she smiles at the question. )
... Truthfully, we didn't get to spend much time together back in our other school before Amami-kun befell a similar fate -- a little more violently, though.
[not half as peaceful. she smiles a little, tinged with sadness.]
We got to spend a little bit of time together then. I always thought he was kind of a puzzle, but I didn't really mind that? He was a good person, even if he hid his hand. That's what I thought, and... what I still think. Anyway, [because it's supposed to be what she misses,] we got to spend a lot of time together here. He took lunch more with the lower years, but it was still nice being in the same classroom at the time -- walking together to class when we could, playing piano, knowing that he was just across the way if I needed anything at all... and the same for him, of course.
[not that he could have come to her about this. kaede wouldn't have let him do it, and it wasn't her business anyway. she turns the cup around in her hand idly.]
It's a lot of simple, mundane sort of things... Things you'd take for granted, [her voice breaks a little and she exhales before she continues,] but you don't realize were so important to you until they're gone. Like studying together, or even just... being in the same space. Having the chance to hang out, even if you don't end up doing that. It isn't anything grand, not like... some people's... but...
[but they're small, important things. mundane things two normal high schoolers could do. a life she'd dreamed about with everyone back home, after they'd escaped -- and now she was the only one of them that was left. kaede pulls her lips against her teeth and wipes her eyes with the inside of her wrist, smile shaky.]
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Amami-kun and I were classmates in our other school, but there were definitely people who were closer to him than me. I'm not really sure what else to say, though...
[she thinks she got everything out. maybe. except maybe how much she misses him, it isn't the same opening her door and knowing the people who stay in the room across from her own now aren't the ones she wants to see. the time they spent together was more than they had before, and yet...
she turns the cup around in her hand, staring at the lovely orange tea.]
Rather than what I think, [because what is there to say,] can I tell you what I'm gonna miss instead?
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it's a strange and distant feeling from her; maple had been lucky, in that she had never been separated from hiyori for too long. never for long enough to mourn his absence in a way like this. though it was a constant source of worry for her—enough that she can only imagine what kaede must be going through now. if there's something she can do to support her, maple will, and so she smiles at the question. )
Of course. I'd be happy to hear about it, Kaede.
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[not half as peaceful. she smiles a little, tinged with sadness.]
We got to spend a little bit of time together then. I always thought he was kind of a puzzle, but I didn't really mind that? He was a good person, even if he hid his hand. That's what I thought, and... what I still think. Anyway, [because it's supposed to be what she misses,] we got to spend a lot of time together here. He took lunch more with the lower years, but it was still nice being in the same classroom at the time -- walking together to class when we could, playing piano, knowing that he was just across the way if I needed anything at all... and the same for him, of course.
[not that he could have come to her about this. kaede wouldn't have let him do it, and it wasn't her business anyway. she turns the cup around in her hand idly.]
It's a lot of simple, mundane sort of things... Things you'd take for granted, [her voice breaks a little and she exhales before she continues,] but you don't realize were so important to you until they're gone. Like studying together, or even just... being in the same space. Having the chance to hang out, even if you don't end up doing that. It isn't anything grand, not like... some people's... but...
[but they're small, important things. mundane things two normal high schoolers could do. a life she'd dreamed about with everyone back home, after they'd escaped -- and now she was the only one of them that was left. kaede pulls her lips against her teeth and wipes her eyes with the inside of her wrist, smile shaky.]
But they're still important to me.