No. He had every right to speak his mind, actually - and on some points, I agree with him. '
[it was why she intended to find him, to thank him later for his arguments and to let him know he has support.
she can see where Maple is going, and it makes her uncomfortable, because there's a gap she can't reconcile, other than to say this is me, that is them. it twists, even as she sips the tea. it makes her feel more hollow. like something is wrong, only she can't name it.]
Even though Sara and the others didn't listen to him. They thought he was being cruel, but it must have been reassuring to hear someone else who understood your feelings. Am I wrong?
( because there were only so many people there who were willing to understand the lengths that their friend had gone to. while maple finds the whole ordeal quite sad... she has faith in ranger and his judgements. she understands how cruel sara can be. she believes in helena too, and how she wanted better for her friends—a better path, and kinder considerations of why they did what they did. that's why maple is on her side. why she wants to reassure her somehow that her actions were correct. )
The two of you, and Nagito... You wanted to believe in your friend. To hear the others saying such terrible things about them, I wonder if your anger might have been reassuring for Nagito or Ranger in the same way.
[reassuring? there's a word she hadn't thought to ascribe to her actions. her face shows her pause, her consideration, because it's true - she had found his anger a comfort. his words, Nagito's pushing people to see the hope in the situation - they had been bracing, even if people weren't entirely agreeing with them at the moment.]
There's no way to know that, unless I asked them.
[but she could. she knows the both of them well enough for that.]
...It's just...not expected, if I'm upset like that in front of everyone. I don't want to apologize for what I said, but another part of me feels terrible that they saw it. That's where I am.
If others are being cruel, then they should expect you to get upset. Your emotions are one way to show that you care about something.
( for the people, too. maple knows that she wouldn't stand for the slander of hiyori, or ranger, but perhaps her bias is here, because she knows exactly what to expect from those who were arguing against the three of them. they're mean and cruel people... underhanded and selfish. helena, on the other hand, has been nothing but kind—that's why her feelings are valid, and she has every right to express them if she so chooses. )
Your friends should believe in you even if they don't understand at first, and listen to you when you're upset so that they can. Even you want to apologize when you didn't do anything wrong, Helena, so if they can't apologize for saying hurtful things that made you feel that way, then they must not be very good friends. Don't you agree?
[sipping her tea again, she wishes she understood this feeling, this mismatched wrongness in her chest. if what Maple's saying is true, why can't she accept it? why is it difficult to think that there's more logic in expressing one's emotions, when she would certainly tell anyone else they can do the same?
she probably looks vaguely sorrowful, or thinking far too hard.]
Miss Furude isn't my friend.
[a gentle correction, instead of answering the question.]
Miss Furude isn't the only one who was saying hurtful things.
( echoing miss furude because maple doesn't know her name, actually. )
If others don't want to hear how you feel, it isn't your fault for feeling it. Just like you worry about the emotions of the people around you, I think that they should be aware of how their words affect others as well. Isn't that too big of a responsibility for you to bear alone?
honestly, she doesn't know how she feels about hearing that said so plainly. that candid statement, and she closes her eyes, her signal that she wants to conceal her emotions a little more from someone. how to extract herself from this without saying the wrong thing. the wheels in her head can practically be heard, they're spinning so loud, and she wishes Maple had asked her something easier.
of course it's big. but she's used to it, she has been for so long.]
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[it was why she intended to find him, to thank him later for his arguments and to let him know he has support.
she can see where Maple is going, and it makes her uncomfortable, because there's a gap she can't reconcile, other than to say this is me, that is them. it twists, even as she sips the tea. it makes her feel more hollow. like something is wrong, only she can't name it.]
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( because there were only so many people there who were willing to understand the lengths that their friend had gone to. while maple finds the whole ordeal quite sad... she has faith in ranger and his judgements. she understands how cruel sara can be. she believes in helena too, and how she wanted better for her friends—a better path, and kinder considerations of why they did what they did. that's why maple is on her side. why she wants to reassure her somehow that her actions were correct. )
The two of you, and Nagito... You wanted to believe in your friend. To hear the others saying such terrible things about them, I wonder if your anger might have been reassuring for Nagito or Ranger in the same way.
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There's no way to know that, unless I asked them.
[but she could. she knows the both of them well enough for that.]
...It's just...not expected, if I'm upset like that in front of everyone. I don't want to apologize for what I said, but another part of me feels terrible that they saw it. That's where I am.
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( for the people, too. maple knows that she wouldn't stand for the slander of hiyori, or ranger, but perhaps her bias is here, because she knows exactly what to expect from those who were arguing against the three of them. they're mean and cruel people... underhanded and selfish. helena, on the other hand, has been nothing but kind—that's why her feelings are valid, and she has every right to express them if she so chooses. )
Your friends should believe in you even if they don't understand at first, and listen to you when you're upset so that they can. Even you want to apologize when you didn't do anything wrong, Helena, so if they can't apologize for saying hurtful things that made you feel that way, then they must not be very good friends. Don't you agree?
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she probably looks vaguely sorrowful, or thinking far too hard.]
Miss Furude isn't my friend.
[a gentle correction, instead of answering the question.]
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( echoing miss furude because maple doesn't know her name, actually. )
If others don't want to hear how you feel, it isn't your fault for feeling it. Just like you worry about the emotions of the people around you, I think that they should be aware of how their words affect others as well. Isn't that too big of a responsibility for you to bear alone?
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honestly, she doesn't know how she feels about hearing that said so plainly. that candid statement, and she closes her eyes, her signal that she wants to conceal her emotions a little more from someone. how to extract herself from this without saying the wrong thing. the wheels in her head can practically be heard, they're spinning so loud, and she wishes Maple had asked her something easier.
of course it's big. but she's used to it, she has been for so long.]