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[CLOSED] everybody knows that

Who: Add & others
When: April
What: catch all for the month!! giving out apologuns, the end of divorce era.... etc
Warnings: slightly less depression than last month



((Closed prompts only for this month!! please i'm drowning in march tags still. If you'd like to do something with Add, feel free to hit me up on plurk at [plurk.com profile] BlueFlewFedUQueen, ping me through the game discord, or comment to my plotting thread!))
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-03 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[Noah is genuinely having a good time being engrossed in his reading, and he just so happens to be reading an old novel about vampires β€” spooky, creepy, people drink blood, par for the course for every teeth-stealing blood-drinking bastard in this school honestly β€” and because of the source material, the hand reaching through the wall scares him more than it would otherwise.

He lets out a piercing shriek that can probably be heard down the hallway for anyone nearby, jolting and nearly throwing the book β€” were it not for the hand holding it anyway.]


Hi?! Could you use the door next time?!
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-04 04:21 am (UTC)(link)
[Noah just makes a face at that. Yeah, okay, sure, "don't make so much noise". Assholeβ€”]

Not... more than usual? [??] He and I usually talk, yeah, but I guess I haven't spoken to him in a few days...? Why? Did something happen to him?
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-04 10:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[...oh. Noah has a sinking feeling he knows what this is about, only confirmed after Add says that last thing. That's right... he watched that whole scene go down while he was in the middle of his own fit.

So they haven't made up, then? Oooooh...]


Komaeda is... Komaeda. He switches his thoughts and actions at the drop of a hat sometimes β€” how he'll be on about hope one day and lock himself in his room the next. So... I guess he hasn't done anything I consider out of the ordinary, but it's not like I can read his mind.

[It's not really an answer to the question, but it's not Noah's place to put Komaeda on the spot when he really doesn't have a single idea what the guy's up to.]

I thought you guys would've talked by now. [You know, like adults? ...thought Noah Ebalon, Guy Who Doesn't Talk About His Problems.] Sorry. Butβ€” if you get in a fight with someone, you're supposed to go talk to them. Even if he forgave you, maybe he thinks you want space still. Or maybe he's still mad and he's just not showing it, which is all the more reason to go say hi.
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-05 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Come out of the hole, Add.

[It's Noah's best attempt at a mom voice and he realises a second too late that he's seriously starting to sound like Clamor. Uh. Like father like son?]

The most I'm willing to do is go with you to mediate, but... if I learned anything while I was here, it's that you have to talk to people yourself when there's an issue. Wouldn't you have thought I was stupid if I came to you and asked you to talk to Yukio for me and see if he was interested in me? Him or Nene?

[He shakes his head to himself like, not quite the point, but the anecdote might get it across.]

...are you scared to talk to him? Is that it?
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-06 04:49 pm (UTC)(link)
If he's still mad, then you have to talk to him so you can find out how you can make stuff better. But, how are you supposed to know if he's still mad if you won't even go do that much?

[Noah puts his chin in his hand and props his elbow up against his knee, trying to gaze into the portal to see where Add is, exactly, since all he got earlier was an arm.]

...Clamor and I got into a fight of... some sort, a while back. It was all because of communication errors, though. We weren't on the same page about things at all β€” we both had to listen to each other and talk to solve the problems. [And then Noah cried and hugged the sickle but he leaves that part out.] So, you and Komaeda have to do the same thing.
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-08 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
You know... the point of talking to people is supposed to be the mystery. Isn't it boring if you know everything someone will say or do before they even get to that point?

[Noah, who usually has no will to live, thinks that the fun of life is in the mystery. If he'd known everything Clamor would've done or said after they discovered the remnants of House Rosso's manor and all the experiments, of the incubator spell that led up to Clamor's demise, then they wouldn't have been as close as they are now β€” Noah wouldn't have learnt from his outbursts and ire because he would've already known the explanation.

Knowing everything slots into some kind of perfection that he's genuinely not interested in.]


Please don't drug Komaeda and make him lose his memories. As someone who spent his entire youth being drugged and having his memories altered, it sucks.

[What the fuck is wrong with you Add.]
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-09 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
You can "maximize success rate" or whatever by being honest.

[Noah just shakes his head. He's one to talk about all of this, but you know what, he'll be damned if he doesn't try and teach Add something he learnt in the course of being a massive fuckup for his whole life.]

You're being too much of a perfectionist. Most people don't want that β€” what's more meaningful to me is an honest attempt to make things right rather than being so exact that it's surgical in precision. I'm sure Komaeda and any other person is the same way. I mean... most people consider honesty and legitimate attempts to be better than saying what the hurt person wants to hear.

[Maybe he should tell Add about the incident with Clamor in the manor... maybe that would help, he thinks, but then he considers the fact that it's Add and Add doesn't quite think like him. An anecdote that's unrelated to him personally might not be helpful.

Noah shoots for a different one instead.]


Do you remember when we weren't getting along, and I kept trying to get your attention? Do you think I was just saying what you wanted to hear? Making you pancakes because I thought you might want them? I was just trying to apologise in the way that I know how to apologise β€” being honest even though I thought you might never want to talk to me again. I didn't think I'd try and alter your memory or "maximize success rate" or anything like that. That kind of thing doesn't come from the heart.
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-10 05:30 am (UTC)(link)
Uh-huh. I'm glad you remembered.

[It's a long, arduous journey to get to a point of learning that one is worthy of love and attention, of being forgiven for things even if those things are heinous β€” a path that Noah's tried to set himself down on and, though there are several moments where he's failed, he'd like to think he's improved.

To forgive, to be forgiven, to love and trust without borders, to be able to atone for mistakes β€” they're the hardest things in the world to him.]


Ideally, if you apologise and he forgives you, or if he's really not mad after all... "the future" would be sort of what it's like now, just with a better understanding of each other. [Like him and Clamor, a thought Noah doesn't bother to voice out loud.] You'd know what hurts and you'd know to avoid doing something like that in the future. That's... kind of the entire point of saying "sorry", really.

...

You're friends. Friends don't just give up on each other after a fight.
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-10 07:20 am (UTC)(link)
Then... why erase it in the first place?

[A genuine question, because at the end of the day Noah wouldn't know what it's like to be able to erase a timeline he didn't agree with; there are times when he wishes he could, and there are times that the moonstone perhaps does that for him β€” but sometimes he truly does want to move forward and not have to atone for his mistakes retroactively. To carry memories with him that others don't have is troublesome.]

In some ways, isn't... isn't everything you do valuable? Even if you got rid of something in the end, you still probably did something you liked, right? Maybe not everything was good, but not everything is... supposed to be. I don't think, anyway. 'Cause it's boring otherwise β€” if there's too much joy, you don't get to experience happiness, and then life gets stagnant.

...

Plus, if I personally could've undone everything I didn't like of my own volition, I'd probably still be... kind of an asshole, honestly.

[He used to be such a little shit to Clamor in specific β€” and he's still kind of that way to others here, to a lesser degree. Character development, maybe?]
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-11 01:13 am (UTC)(link)
Oh... I... I get that.

[Oh boy does he get that, on a level that he should not be getting that β€” but Noah's not going to make this about him. These are Add Hours, this is goth catboy therapy for Add.]

But... you have that now, right? Even if it's kind of ironic in this place. Here, you have friends and people who care for you. I won't try to shove words in your mouth, but I hope you consider that worth it. Something you... you don't need to rewrite.

[He leans a bit to get a better view of Add in the portal. There's the temptation to reach his hand out and pull Add from it, the fleeting thought that maybe Add would accept something like that, but it dies as quick as it came. He has the feeling that Add wants to hide right now β€” it's scary, after all, when your entire world shifts so drastically.]
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-11 06:08 pm (UTC)(link)
[Noah smiles softly, gently. That's... good enough, he supposes. Getting to rewrite the past at all is a little unfair, but Add's trying, and like he said earlier β€” it's the attempt that counts.]

I'm glad to hear it. And... honestly, I'm proud of you.

[Funny that a 17 year old boy is now proud of an Adult Man, but you know what? It's the little things.]

It's scary, apologising to people and talking things out, but I don't think it'll go bad. And you can come back and grab me if you do wind up needing something, too.
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[personal profile] silentabyss 2022-04-13 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
You're welcome, "I guess."

[Gonna throw that attitude right back at ya, bud. But really, he's glad he can help, even if Add's going to be all cagey about it.]

We're friends, so this was the least I could do. I hope it goes well.

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