twelve reconnections ➱ username: h. inaba

[dereban]

Just a short PSA: starting any rumors about murders is messed up. Don't do it. 0/10, do not recommend.

Other than that, a few things:

1) I'm a part of the student council now, and while I might be new to the job, if there's any assistance that I can help with, please don't hesitate to let me know.
2) I've finished up a guide draft for most subjects -- if anybody wants to take a look at it for any edits or additions, feel free to give me a heads up.

And with that aside, I suppose I have a personal and admittedly selfish inquiry of my own.

If anybody is willing to hear a girl out on a personal matter regarding relationships, I'd appreciate it. It's something that I'd rather do in person, but I just wanted to put feelers out there.

Anyway, that's it from me!

Comments

[dereban]

Oh, that's... what you meant! Ahahaha, I mean, of course you meant that, what else could you have meant?!

[ She can feel her face burning red and she needs to force herself to not look at him to hide that as she tries her best to cool herself off.

Stupid! How could she be so goddamn stupid!!

Time to change the topic quickly, before he catches on. ]

B-By the way, how old are you, anyway?

[taketori]

Seventeen-- er, wait.

[ Thinking about it... theoretically he would've been here back in September last year, but he's also dead... so...? ]

Maybe eighteen? I probably wouldn't age while I'm here, would I?

[dereban]

I mean... I don't know. We still have to like, eat and sleep while we're here, so why not throw 'physical aging' in the mix?

[taketori]

Then, I guess I could consider myself to be eighteen. Well...

[ Yeah, he might as well be eighteen. But that just causes him to think about something else. While they're talking about this... ]

I can really only hope that the Shirogane Miyuki that continued to live had a better birthday than I did. I can't even remember what I did last year. I wonder if...

[ His sense of time is messed up. He arrived here at the beginning of the school year last year... and a year's passed since then. By this time, if everything had gone as he expected, he'd have already left Japan and would be skipping that final year. By this time...

Did he get Shinomiya to confess? Did he decide to confess to her first? Is she going to go to Stanford with him?

...

No, no no no, let's not do that. Don't think about it. ]

No, never mind. That doesn't really matter.

[dereban]

Don't think too hard on that sort of thing, Miyuki. Parallel universes... mm, let's just say that there's an infinite amount of possibilities.

[ As someone who's basically experienced the life of a 'parallel world' version of herself, she knows it all too well. ]

In any case, you're right. It's not important.... well. Unless you're thinking about graduating and potentially going back to a life where 'Shirogane Miyuki lived'...

[ There's something wistful about the way she says all of this. ]

Ah, but I already told you my thoughts on that sort of thing before, didn't I?

[taketori]

[ Miyuki's quiet, mulling it over. Parallel universes, infinite possibilities... it's all so occult. The concept of knowing about different worlds only increased the amount he didn't know, and if he thinks about it too hard...

...He can't. ]

...you know, I did want to. I figured, there was always a chance. Maybe I would wake up, and this would have been a terrible dream I had. My sister would insult me, I'd get up and be right out the door to return to my normal life.

[ Back to where magic didn't exist, ghosts were only a part of stories, and he didn't have to worry about finding a knife at his throat. He stares down at the table, his two index fingers being pushed together before he splits them apart. ]

All things considered, if I don't remember any of this, then what does become of this Shirogane Miyuki? Am I going to disappear? If that's the case then, what am I still trying so hard for?

If... by any chance, the Shirogane Miyuki that did live was able to have Shinomiya Kaguya fall in love with him, then I should be able to accept that. Even if it's not me.

[ It doesn't even occur to him that he said that out loud, but it's what was weighing him down. In one reality, somewhere out there, if he's happy then this spirit should be able to make peace with that. Shouldn't it? ]

That's... why I think, I have to move on. I can't pine for someone I, for all intents and purposes, don't want to see again. I can't yearn for a life that I no longer have a right to experience. If I can't do that, then I'll be stuck here forever. Then, who will I become?

[ ... ]

Ahh, sorry sorry, I didn't mean to bring the mood down that low. We've had about enough of that.

[ No more existential crises, not when there's work to be done. ]

[dereban]

No, it's fine. I'd rather have a genuine conversation than having people pretend to keep the mood up for false pretenses, anyway.

[ Even if that makes Inaba a hypocrite, wanting to control the conversation and make sure she buries things deep, deep down. ]

Although hearing you say that... really, really pisses me off! I can't believe he was right, that stupid idiot! I feel like I lost a bet.

[taketori]

Eh? Wait, what? Right about what? Did I say something wrong?

[ Lost a bet? Was something hinging on his response to this situation?! ]

[dereban]

Not wrong, but rather... I talked with Subaru early last month and-- he said that you'd understand that value of moving on...

[ And other stuff but she is not going to dig herself in that hole right now, nope. ]

[taketori]

Akehoshi said that, huh? Well, seeing that he's the one who grilled me about Shinomiya, I get why he'd say that. That's surprisingly insightful coming from him.

[dereban]

He's insightful about the oddest sort of things, if I'm going to be honest...but, mm. You're pretty strong for being able to say that.

[taketori]

--Is that strong? I was worried it would come across that I'm giving up in one way or another.

[dereban]

To me, it is. I mean -- that isn't the kind of thing that you'd just outright tell anyone, you know? Sure, 'giving up ' can sound kind of lame under most circumstances, but this is different.

There isn't changing the gap between life and death, and the possibility of seeing that person again is slim at best, and at worst... well, you understand. So I think that was kind of cool, actually.

[taketori]

[ Kind of cool... kind of cool...

Someone finally thinks he did something cool! ]

Thanks. It's just... it's easier to talk about this with you all of a sudden. I don't really know why.

[dereban]

Don't get used to me saying that.

[ Answered rather flatly, but then he says that last bit and her analysis brain goes into overdrive but is mostly going what is that supposed to mean?????

But instead of saying anything profound, her response is something stupid-- ]

Maybe it's an after effect of what happened last month.

1/2

[taketori]

An after effect, huh...

[ Yeah, of course. Some kind of residual feelings from what they went through, back when... ]

[taketori]

[ Wait, no?! ]

Hold it hold it hold it...! Shouldn't that have been long out of your system by now?! What's that supposed to mean going forward?!

[ Isn't that kinda awkward?! ]

[dereban]

Hm? It totally is out of my system, though. I just thought that's the more logical reason over the other one.

[taketori]

There's a different reason?!

[ ...when he takes a moment to think about it. ]

Actually, that might be right. That's probably it, just something a little left over! It'll pass, probably.

[dereban]

There are.

[ 'Are' meaning plural, there's several different reasons. ]

But you're pretty accepting of it even though there could be other potential reasons...

[taketori]

Well-- I mean, there could be. Although, I don't know if that's really...

I mean, that's...

[ ...How does he put this? ]

...What other reasons could there be?

[dereban]

I'm not telling.

[ But why??? ]

[taketori]

[ ?! ]

Then why even bring it up?!

[dereban]

Maybe I just want you to think a little bit.

[taketori]

What, are you trying to be a teacher too...?

[ What a vague answer. But. ]

I feel like any thoughts that could come up would be extremely counterproductive.