yogen | network: n.ebalon

Not just you.

Here and there. It's getting old.

im not sure if that makes me feel better or worse actually

if you dont mind me asking did you get anything about the forest? thats what i got

i mean ive gotten random memories before but this one felt different, do you know what i mean??

i was just outside minding my own business and it felt like all of my senses just turned off while i was remembering this. the other memories just sort of trickle in for me

Haven't had anything regarding the forest, no.

What'd you see?

That's new. I just hate these random memories. Got enough to deal with without forgetting who's who and what's what.

yeah its annoying

for instance maybe a few months ago i got random memories of being in math class but with a completely different set of faces than im used to seeing, but it didnt feel like a big deal compared to this you know?

i was outside minding my own business and suddenly got slammed with this memory out of nowhere that was me and someone else, i dont know who, their face is kind of blurry. but it was me and someone else travelling through the forest

we were talking about the rumours out there. things like... "theres a door that will lead you to another world but if you go through it you cant return" and speculation about what it could be but theres nothing conclusive. apparently if u stay too long youll wander forever and lose your sense of self, or that was one of the rumours brought up anyway.

but then the details blur and then i remember going back to the school alone? and that i had gone back for something or someone but from there i cant remember what. so i dont know if i left that person in the forest also? but that doesnt sound like me

THAT'S because it wasn't not screwing with your mind hard enough. It wasn't making you feel bad afterwards. Right?

I hate it. I hate it i hate it i hate it.

thirding the others

what memory did u get if u dont mind my asking???

whoa r u ok?! what did u see that made u so upset?

A group of cowards ganged up on me and tried to kill me. I felt awful after it.

what the fuck, for real?! that had to have been before we "woke up" again, right? did you recognize any faces?

Of course it was. If it were actually me, they could've sent ten of their friends and I would've left whoever sent them to pick up the scraps I left.

[ Boy, if she was still hiding who she was... she's doing a bang up job of it right now. ]

But no. I had no idea who they were.

my wrist was hurting where the tally used to be? and then i remembered it happened before
they had just appeared on everyone out of nowhere. some had dozens, some had one. the counselor didn't help any but the nurse said "a tangential reminder of an essential part of their soul, their memory and their very sense of self, something that would prove to be as important to them as either, and that it was also meant to be a physical reminder of what they've done and what's been done to them, one that can never be erased."

she said they were necessary for us to grow but didn't explain what them carrying over meant
she said that i didnt have to worry because i only had one, but i should try to help others with more- or stop people who wanted to get more
she also said they'd disappear when we were ready

( ... )

Is there some kind of pattern? I simply saw the counselor yet again. In that strange memory, I mean.

u got a memory of the counselor?

Indeed. I don't understand it, but it seems we've spoken a few times, yet I didn't recall any of it before.

For some reason, we discussed the school back then, and in the end, he asked something odd. Do we intend to convince him to move on? That was his question, more or less.

convince him? he doesnt want to just do it? everyone else seems to want to just move on already. he cant possibly be that attached to this place, it sucks here.

He did seem to be full of secrets, and he refused to answer most of my questions when I visited him recently. At some point, he gave me some coordinates, you see, but we didn't find anything at that location.

At any rate, perhaps he'll leave if he grows bored? Or it could be that he has some unfinished business himself. Or he truly likes his job, not to mention his endless supply of snacks.

i guess unlike the rest of us hes been basically immortal and probably doesnt have to pay for snacks with points, but still

i dont know why anyone would wanna be trapped in a box for eternity. theres a lot of adventures out there and a whole world to see, why spend it encased in brick walls?

i might not be able to make heads or tails of it, but can u send me the coordinates on the off chance i can?

So you're saying that you wish to encourage him to broaden his horizons?

[ How kindhearted... As he retrieves his note from the counselor, Alice can't help but think back to that trip to the void. ]

Very well, Noah Ebalon. Behold: the mystery coordinates! 35.4 N, 138.6 E

thanks, i wrote them down but im not sure if i'll be able to do much

i do want to help the counsellor though yeah. when i was in a bad spot he actually did help me a couple of times. it's only right that i return the favour for him

are you busy, noah? we should chat over tea

( read as: he doesn't want to talk about this on the network its WEIRD )

hmmmmm... what KIND of tea

im just kidding. im not busy, where do u want to meet

You got slapped in the face?

oh no not like that

i mean it metaphorically. like when they say things like "it hit me like a ton of bricks"

mine kinda felt like a slap.

[thankfully, he can't see her laughing.]

Both of those sound painful, Noah.

[how long before he realizes she's teasing...]

You truly are a good person.

You know, the fellow seemed to value acting on faith. Perhaps that means your type of resolve is precisely what such a task requires.

someone here has to be a good person.

im not the type to just take help without repaying it either, and id probably feel like i left this place unfinished if i graduated before helping him too. i think getting another shot at life is worth it for everyone

[he's kinda figured it out, but he can certainly keep the joke going!]

yeah. it's really painful

maybe i shouldve said something like... "stabbed with a random flashback" which is equally as painful, if not more so, than a slap. but probably less painful than bricks

:)

[she figured out how to smile over this device, finally!]

The answer to your question is yes. It's more that I remembered something I had been forgetting for a while.

do u mind if i ask what it was?

Before I answer that, do you know about the shrine in the forest?

yeah I do

i was gonna go out there and see the god in the forest but i kinda fell off on that

If you can, do go and see them. Bring some money for their collection. I've been going and speaking with them when I can, and I think they enjoy some company.

The reason I bring them up is because I remember a conversation with them I must have had a while ago, about the future.

well theres a problem with that

and the problem is

i am very small and i have no money. you can imagine the kind of stress im under

Edited (a word) 2022-08-06 22:09 (UTC)

If you're in need of money, I can help you some. I'm not terribly rich, but I can spare some coin for a friend.

i guess i do have questions to ask

i would appreciate it if u could spare a little bit. i wont ask for another favour

Very well then. If you'd like, I can come with you, for I know the way.

can u do that? i would appreciate it. i know the forest like the back of my hand but ive never interacted with the god or anything so i dont want to get derailed

[He pretty much lives out in the woods, he'll definitely find something to derail him.]

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