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Wouldn't you like to KNOW.

( she isn't a game to him, so it isn't like he can say her... and hiro has become less a target and more of an existence he appreciates the company of, so he isn't much of prey either. natsume smacks his (non-prosthetic) shoulder, wiping his hand off on the stairwell wall after. )

Stop touching it like that, you FREAK. Let's get this over WITH.

Hunting people for sport, but I bet you can easily be eaten alive. I'll root for Arisu-san.

( he's placed his bets, and maya if you see this, tear him limb from limb. well, that's what he'd think until he's smacked on the shoulder. his brow raises as he looks at natsume, tilting his head like a dog until he glances down at the body. ) Hmmm... alright.

( he stands up properly, leaving the cart to natsume to pull... yes twink, get them muscles in action so that he'll be fit for the host club. )

You shouldn't say it like we killed them... but, it's a good thing they've died like this... their hope was weak, after all... we don't need the weak among our ranks.

( he wouldn't want komaeda to bet on him anyway. gross.

but god....... he hates extra physical labor - practice is one thing, gym is another, and he skips out on the latter almost all of the time. he almost considers just leaving it here, but no, they're doing this he guesses, so he'll od his best to pull it along :/ twink he may be but idols do be movin a lot u know... they got that stamina. )

There isn't much hope can do against attacks people aren't prepared FOR. ( wryly said. ) Can you really judge someone's merit on THAT?

( but betting on natsume would have shown he was leaning towards untalenteds, sighs... he tried. )

...Do you believe that's cowardice, I believe letting them know in advance makes things more exciting.

( like how komaeda told hanamura his reason for wanting to kill, and then the chef went out his way to prevent komaeda's antics, but killing someone instead. in the end, someone else will wind up protecting you to prevent the aggressor from being punished. it was an unfortunate scenario for him, because even then komaeda wanted to die... lots of people normally die in his stead. )

That way, you'll have to trust your own hope on how to apply yourself during the time, but who knows... maybe they were aware it would happen? That's just weakness, Sakasaki-kun... they'll never come back, we just have to accept it.

( he pauses, watching the other push the cart. )

To prevent this from happening again, we'll have to protect each other... that sort of hope can happen in the group that you have.

"We'll have to protect each other." "The group that you have." You're so annoYING.

( give him a sec, ugh— )

Are you part of this group or NOT, Komaeda-san? You can't have it both WAYS.

...When I say for us to protect each other, are you saying you're not apart of that group?

( is he twisting this to use it against natsume? well, he sure is. )

I never knew you were a misfit that feels as if they don't belong.

( he knows he can't have it both ways, but he's never asked for much outside of doing things for hope. if there's any side that he's on, this one remains true, he follows where hope goes. he's always been like that, and to stop now would be unbecoming of him. )

Don't turn this around on ME.

( this ain't about him, bitch. )

I'm part of IT, and unfortunateLY, so are YOU. Don't act as if none of this affects or applies to YOU. ( pissing him off w/this early year tsumugi bs ) Even if you keep being put in the crazy corNER, the others would agree with ME. For better or for WORSE, you're part of the group we have going on HERE.

...

( is he really part of this community, or do they keep him because they have no choice? being wanted because they're afraid has less effect on him than anything else here. )

Can you really speak for them all, Sakasaki-kun... or are you speaking for yourself?

( he hums, reaching out to the other to pinch the other's white lock of hair, and he pulls away. )

If you want me around you... you must pity me.

( they probably want komaeda because they're "good people," and "good people" tolerate even the scum of society if they have even one thing in common — right now, that's being trapped in an unfamiliar school, trying to find a way out and back where they belong. he can already imagine someone (chiaki, nene, stephanie, shuichi, someone) saying it's best to work together, not against one another, even if that means putting aside differences.

natsume flicks his hair away from komaeda's fingers even after they've left the lock. )

I wish you'd leave me alone, actualLY. ( at the same time — natsume himself has a problem with leaving people well-enough alone, so he'd probably seek komaeda out to check on him in the end, even if it was merely distanced watching. this is probably karma, though. ) We have a bunch of people who consider themselves to be "GOOD," so whether they really like it or NOT, they'll take you into their FLOCK. Sheep always consider what's best for their entire group and try not to make too many chanGES.

Sakasaki-kun... you called yourself a hunter.

( while this tends to be a flock with sheep who hardly want any changes which isn't a bad thing, but isn't that putting himself out of the group that he wants to be part of. they always say that safety is in numbers, and that's why sheep don't really stray out from their collective army. there's a certain type of geese that all herd in numbers to appear threatening, and but are easily defeated no matter their attempts if a predator decides to go in. whatever that group is that they make themselves out to be, komaeda hums in thought as he smiles. )

It's hard to tell if you're actually that, or just a farmer who wants to see their livestock prosper.

( but he'll keep both in mind. a hunter, a farmer, or does he just like having control... komaeda has came to this conclusion yet again, but it's not like he can judge him for that. )

Anyways, they need to change.

( humans, gratefully, are multifaceted. the cultivator can be a hunter, too. )

...They DO. Being martyrs is just going to hurt them in the END, and unless they're completely incapable of IT, they'll just grow to resent those they sacrificed so much time and emotional labor FOR. ( more people are like him than they are his older brothers, gods so willing to cut pieces of themselves and whittle themselves down to almost nothing in order to entertain and please and make happy the masses.

anyway this is such a conversation to have while they're going to dump some rando's body on their date, can't believe this thread turned out like this. dangan stars. )

What if that's their hope, to be martyrs so that they can help everyone else... losing one person means nothing when you have the group mostly still intact, but clipping away the dead leaves helps the tree grow.

( can they resent someone who did it all for them? hm, it does seem to be part of human nature to adore, and to hate, especially when it comes to things they don't understand. he hums thoughtfully as they turn towards a classroom? yeah, they have to pick the one that has the open windows... and it would be komaeda to happily run over, lifting the windows, and pulling back the screen. )

Growing accustomed to this lifestyle is... just disappointing, and a loss I can't watch the others accept. ( he thinks, looking back at the other. ) Accepting such an easy route... they'll regret it.

( im crying why are they on CRACK. )

( THANK GOD natsume is so tired of pushing... pulling... whatever this tool cart thing w the dead body on it, get it out of his face, he's bringing it over. rest in peace dude )

Rather than becoming accustomed to IT, it might be better to say they're trying to make the best of a bad situaTION... Waiting is just as important as acting someTIMES. ( but wait too long for your chance, and you might miss it, might resign yourself to the state of things, might "grow accustomed" to something instead... ) Are you the type to pull the lever to save three people at the cost of one THEN? The trolley proBLEM... Assuming that all four people in this equation aren't any of your precious Ultimate stuDENTS. Just to make it FAIR.

One... two... three...

( he's counting on his fingers because i think this is cute when you make him do math, but there's four people, to sacrifice one to save three... hmmm. )

Before I answer... "they", do you find yourself different to them? You don't strike me as the type to make do with this, especially when you're willing to use others for your own personal gain.

( now for his question... ) ...Ordinary and boring people are the majority because the world is filled with weaklings, and if I had control over the lever... I can remove as many as I need, but that's not my decision —

( he turns around, pressing his back against the wall as he stares at the other. ) I wouldn't be there if none were my precious Ultimates.

( you dumb bitch that's not what he asked.

but fine. )

All of them are your Ultimates NOW.

( there's various ways he could go about it, he could pull the lever. )

I'd kill myself.

( to force his luck, as long as he can give something in return, his life... everything goes his way, no matter how drastic the circumstances. )

That's how my trash talent works... Asking me things like pulling the lever, everyone would die... if they lack talent. As for my Ultimates, I'd give them anything to see their survival.

( That's—

okay. )

...What is your taLENT?

( he stands, a hand lifts to run through his hair slightly tired. )

It's pathetic, that's what it is... trash like me, near my Ultimate peers with such a useless talent...

( not like it'll work for him anyway. )

But well... ah... I'm lucky.

( Ah.

That is useless. When you say someone is lucky, it's usually positive—but Natsume knows full well that luck isn't always good. )

What an incredible world you come from ( he says dryly ) for "luckiness" to be considered a taLENT.

( ...It's more like a curse. Even too much good luck is bad. It's all about balance. )

It sounds more like someone took pity on you and just gave you something to help you fit in with the rest of the CLASS.

It's not really a talent... something like that? There's no way... to be chosen by the school via raffle drawing...

( what's hopeful about that, but he can't deny his past. at the age of eight, his parents and him boarded a plane, and a terrorist hijacked it with them at gunpoint. everyone but komaeda were killed by meteors that fell from the sky, about the size of a balled fist — sniped the terrorist, sniped his parents. having to be the witness.

ah, but he was lucky. to acquire the money that came from them, he should have felt like the luckiest boy in the world. )

I'm not like them, so don't misunderstand, Sakasaki-kun, where you say you're special back home, I, for one, am not. I'm meant to stay between those with talent, and the ones who lack talent... I take it upon myself to be the errand boy if they wish to interact with one another, I'll take upon any duty someone with no talent requests of an Ultimate... because their radiance shouldn't be bothered.

( ... )

The hope of others that come from true talents, real abilities that show and actually put the world in motion. Saihara-kun, the Ultimate Detective, he can apply his talent, change everything around him, a talent that's so useful, that I've watched him... seen what he can do, and that hope... is so promising... you witnessed Ishimaru-kun during the deathmatch, at the moment... his hope was blinding, I couldn't take my eyes off him, and that comes from his own talent as to why he managed to defeat them — overcoming his own death to kill another! He truly is amazing!

( ...no wonder his self-esteem is in the pits. )

They're not people to you at all, are THEY. ( that isn't a question. it's a statement. ) You put them on a pedestal and act like you're doing them a favor by taking on other people's requests that were meant specifically for the person they were supposed to go TO.

They're everything to me.

( but that doesn't answer whether they're people, really, it's just a filler to act as if he's listening. )

I'm not doing anything for them, I'm doing what I'm supposed to. Besides, as long as they use me, it's fine... a long time ago, you wanted to use me too!

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