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ethics...club...
Who: the ethics club and whoever wants to crash their party
When: whenever in august!
What: just a mingle post for the disasters
Warnings: uhhh...........well there's a bunch of problematic people here probably, so we'll see how this goes. will update.
The "ethics" club isn't really that well furnished so far. So far, there's only a few things -- things that only Josh is able to access, as well as a dart board, a cheap (and faulty) polygraph machine, and a button maker?
Well, the other members will have to make those. But he does have a certain design for it, if someone was interested in ""helping"" him make the pins...
Otherwise, Joshua's probably usually in here, in classroom 2-D, and he won't turn anyone away. He might warn of anyone coming in of their eccentric group, but he doesn't really mind either way.
But there are papers spread around, not that he really wants to do the work of ensuring that his club stays open, but he figures there's no use in just ignoring it. So there's probably going to be some reports to go through on the papers, or something that could be defined as work.
Loosely.
There's a folder on the desk he'd moved next to the door which holds the topic of the month on it for whoever comes into the room:
good and evil: how do you spot the difference? Do those lines truly exist?
He's very interested in what people would say about it.
When: whenever in august!
What: just a mingle post for the disasters
Warnings: uhhh...........well there's a bunch of problematic people here probably, so we'll see how this goes. will update.
The "ethics" club isn't really that well furnished so far. So far, there's only a few things -- things that only Josh is able to access, as well as a dart board, a cheap (and faulty) polygraph machine, and a button maker?
Well, the other members will have to make those. But he does have a certain design for it, if someone was interested in ""helping"" him make the pins...
Otherwise, Joshua's probably usually in here, in classroom 2-D, and he won't turn anyone away. He might warn of anyone coming in of their eccentric group, but he doesn't really mind either way.
But there are papers spread around, not that he really wants to do the work of ensuring that his club stays open, but he figures there's no use in just ignoring it. So there's probably going to be some reports to go through on the papers, or something that could be defined as work.
Loosely.
There's a folder on the desk he'd moved next to the door which holds the topic of the month on it for whoever comes into the room:
good and evil: how do you spot the difference? Do those lines truly exist?
He's very interested in what people would say about it.
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I think... [ UGH WHY ARE YOU MAKING THEM THINK. They take a long minute, staring down at the floor before they continue.] Based on what you told me that hope isn't something I ever really knew. I was just sad and scared all the time, which isn't hopeful at all because I didn't even have a reason for it.
Then I met Maka, and I think I get hope a bit because I think she has lots of hopes and dreams about herself. And you do too, and so do lots of other very nice and kind people. So hopes good, even if I don't really do anything here or have much hope.
...I don't get your last question. I don't know anyone like that.
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( he lifts up his finger to make his point, now it's not the bites into the flesh that they did, but the fact that they're capable of some odd things. it's because komaeda can feel hope, or the amount that someone has, and despite crona the way they are now... it's not dormant, but it radiates off them in waves. he wonders what they can do, how it'll help the people here, and he smiles at the thought. )
You do a lot just by being here, so many people will do what they can to protect you, but allowing them to do that... is unfair, sometimes you must act for yourself.
( it's why komaeda killed at the start, why he wears a seventh tally, and even as he says that... his finger drags over the mark. anyway, crona has no problem doing, komaeda watches as they wander off to sleep, or do what seems right to them without bringing others into their problem. distancing themselves does no good, but he will praise what he has notices: )
You have been doing fine engaging with others, so continue doing that... true hope is born from the bonds you make with everyone. That way, you'll have reason to act, you'll want to protect them too. You're important to the group, so there's reason to have it. ( as he thinks about it, he continues: ) The people who say different, are the ones you must hate because hope is beautiful, and what little you have is worth showing to others.
( it can motivate them if they're strong enough. ) Ah, but that's hope... we're supposed to talk about good and evil, forgive me.
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Its fine...I can handle talking to people a bit better now. I can protect you and everyone else!
[ If hope is just doing that, then thats fine. Good and evil don't make much sense, but they can do what other people say. ]
Oh right...well you said we'd do hope class first anyway! Am I doing better now? I can take another quiz if you want.
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...Fine, if you're interested. Which Ultimate should we speak about first?
( crona should have an idea of all of them, komaeda has made sure to mention the dead ones, and even the ones who are alive and walking around to date. )
And I'll quiz you on them specifically, so if need be, you can choose one you know... personally.
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Oh wow a specific quiz...can it be about Amami? I have lots of nice things to say about him.
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It can, I'll offer all my love when it comes to him... so tell me what you love about him, he is an interesting Ultimate... his hope, I want you to learn so much about it.
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[ That doesn't really translate to his hope though... They think. ]
Well, I think he must spread hope by helping people...or protecting someone. [ Not Crona they don't need protecting, but he was trying to defend Rika during the meeting, right? ] Is that close?
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( he's never really ate amami's cooking, but he's he's ultimate regardless so his food is edible and worth the time. he glances at crona as he thinks about their thoughts, and komaeda nods right after. )
It's strange... I feel so much hope from him, and yet he doesn't know... perhaps the Ultimate Caretaker, because that job is to help and protect others, isn't it?
( close enough, and the way crona directs his hope sounds pretty on brand. )
If he kills someone that should have been protected, do you still stand by him?
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I think that sounds like a nice talent for him. Next time I see him I'll ask!
[ They pause at the sudden question, but quickly shake their head as they stare p at Komeada. ]
Well, I wouldn't run away. Amami is nice, and he couldn't beat me up. If he kills someone I liked a lot, like I was friends with...like how Noah killed Mr.Jekyll? Maybe I'd be mad and punch him then. But I wouldn't hate him forever and ever.
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... )
Crona-san! Do you understand how the hope of an Ultimate works? ( completely shocked, he looks towards them a little worried. ) If Amami-kun does anything, that too is hope, and is meant for you to to grow from...
( talking about ultimates killing make his heart skip a beat, almost charmed by the thought. ) ...Ah, were you mad at Ebalon-kun?
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If I was mad at him and we worked it out, isn't that also hope? Because...I didn't run away and I'd listen to what he had to say. But maybe I don't get it yet...
[ They shrug. ]
I liked Jekyll a lot, and Hyde was fine. I know Noah had a good reason, but he lied to everyone for a month so I was angry at him.
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( as for noah, komaeda clears his throat on the conversation. crona's neither right or wrong, actually. )
Did anyone ever ask if he murdered someone...? Communication is important while dealing with hope, but I guess it hurts because you believed in him?
( hmm, he places a hand on crona's shoulder, reassuring them. ) It's called having feelings, and you hardly understand your own. That's why you were angry, but he did a good thing... you have to support him through this time, while overcoming this sad feeling... because it doesn't stop here.
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I don't want to support him for killing someone I liked. [ It's not a no but its...as close as Crona can manage. They don't brush Komeada's hand off but they hunch their shoulders. ]
I'm not mad anymore, because I hit him so if I was mad after that I'd be breaking our deal. But...it, it hurts that Jekyll is gone! Its like if he killed you or Amami and I didn't know for a month!
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( crona is kinder than komaeda, and he understands this, and he won't argue despite how despairing it is to linger on a dead person. they are a stepping stone, so if crona can use it to their advantage, than komaeda won't complain. )
...Jekyll. I didn't interact with them much, but they're like two souls, aren't they?
( hm, give him a moment to break that down. considering they were someone with two different morals, it's very tedious, but it comes down to one thing. )
There's only one way to avoid not knowing for a month, and do you know what means you'd have to go through to make that happen...?
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[They hang their head, leaning into Komeada's hand. ]
Sometimes he acted nice, and sometimes he acted mean, and there were different names I had to remember...but they both um...I don't know how to say it. But I liked it.
[ Crona usually knows the answer to this question, at least when Medusa asks it. ]
I have to get stronger?
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( maka must be able to see spirits, but when komaeda spoke on two souls, he just meant one life and another, as to why he was nice and then he was mean. the fact of the matter is that people like things, that can be used to motivate their hope, make them feel less powerless if they apply themselves. )
To protect others, the bonds that you've made... you'll have to be more aware. If you have to protect someone who means a lot to you, sometimes killing is the preferred choice.
( he clears his throat. )
So yes, I'll help your hope become stronger.
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[ Its a different kind of scared then when they're just fearing everyone around them. ]
If I saw someone I liked in danger, I'd protect them! But I wasn't there. I couldn't have been there. I can't be everywhere, even if I ate a million souls. So in the end I couldn't really do anything for Mr. Jekyll or Noah. That's scary. If you help me with hope again, will it be less scary?
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( which was needed because now noah's stronger, he's fit in a way that his emotions can't control themselves, komaeda has noticed it. in a way, he could crack, and perhaps if he trains crona's hope, then they can protect the hope of others. )
If it comes down to it, would you kill him?
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Do you want me to kill him?
[ Its a curious, nonjudgemental question, like they're asking what type of snack Komeada likes. They aren't particularly close to Noah. Friendly, now that they've punched him and gotten some anger out, but not close. ]
It would be hard...he killed Hyde, who was strong, so he isn't weak. Maybe I'd die and then you wouldn't know where I was for months and months...but don't be sad. That would be harder to deal with.
So um...yes? Fighting strong people is hard to deal with...but if it makes me less scared I can do hard things.
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His hope is at an all time high, but we'll keep an eye on him. You know... we love hope, and we have to see what happens to the group.
( the mindset noah has is that he won't hurt people, but he'll save them, but komaeda's aware that can be twisted on his already fragile ideals. with him hanging by a thread, there's no accurate time frame when it will snap, what noah will do if the chance arises for him to do so. )
Ahaha... no, if your hope is strong enough, I'll find you no matter what. Do your best to not let it weaken, alright... for now, we'll take it slow... you don't have to fight strong people... hm... like... kill me, and then we'll see.
( c: )
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Mhm...ok. So if his hope looks weird and bad...I'll take care of it! [ Crona's definition of that might be a bit strange, but they think they can figure it out if they talk to Komeada. ] But until then, we can be friends.
Kill you...? [ They frown, up at him. :c why would you say this. ] I've never killed anyone I liked before, beyond the little one.
Things are easier to deal with when you're around. If you died, I think I'd despair, and you wouldn't be around to help me find hope again.
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( between crona and noah, hyde's death is a stepping stone for them both, but who will be able to use it to move further? interesting he thinks as he looks at them, and then he thinks back to noah's views — without what he did, crona could have died, or would crona have been able to protect themselves? that's an entirely different story that can be seen moving forward, now they have to survive.
his thoughts are filled with theories, and what ifs until he manages to focus, and he looks towards the other. )
...Crona-san, have you ever been in despair before?
( a genuine question, his curiosity piqued as his head lifts up to stare at the ceiling. )
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[ That's not exactly the same as the way they'd felt that one time. ]
But when I first met Maka...and I realized Lady Medusa didn't need me...that I'd failed my existence didn't have a point. That feels like despair...to me. Despair is being so scared and sad you don't know what to do. I'd feel like that if you died.
[ They reach out to grab his sleeve, as if to keep him from running away. ]
Because back then I had Maka... If I didn't have anyone to help, I'd just be alone.
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...
( he despises despair, the one thing that doesn't hold a candle to hope, just an insect that digs beneath the skin, and taints those around it. he's never thought of his dead as despair, he's only used to something good happening from his death — that's why he uses his luck to ensure it, but that's not the case as of right now. nothing's happened, and he watches crona before smiling warmly, one that he gives hinata when he's unsure, hoping that it's reassuring enough to calm any of crona's worries. it's a smile he hasn't done in a long time, but it feels easy to do at them than at others. )
That would put a responsibility on you to protect me.
( he doesn't need it, not when he has his luck as a safeguard. )
I won't let you feel despair because of me, because... you'll have others as well, and the last thing I'll make you feel is alone.
( he lifts his hand, placing it on top of the others to calm them down. )
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[ They don't know how to deal with silence like this. Komeada is always good at getting them to think through how they're feeling, but maybe their feelings are wrong.
They let out a little huff as he puts a hand on their head, grip on his sleeve loosening. ]
I'm not good at anything. but I'll try hard. I'll work really hard to make sure nothing bad happens to you or hope. [ So don't leave them alone, okay? Their mother abandoned them, Maka isn't here, and maybe they could have everyone else...but they want to stay with Komeada. ]
Maybe I'm just saying more weird things, but I'm really happy I met you here. [ Even if they're a third year with terrible grades and no hope of graduating, thats fine. They like being here with everyone, so it will all be worth it. ]
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