(closed) this ain't build a bitch

[commences]

Who: Nagito Komaeda & anyone who hits me up
What: October Catch-all
When: 10/01 onwards
Where: Various locations
Warnings: TBA

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i'm filled with flaws and attitude,
so if you need perfect, i'm not built for you.

This post serves as a place for me to gather all of Komaeda's closed threads, starters, miscellany through the month. If you want to set something up, I can be reached by PM or at sakasaki

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[mermaidcursed]

Mmm... I talked with Shijima-san, and I got to learn her wish. ... She was born from the desire of a sickly girl named Shijima Mei. All she wanted was to keep drawing, but she was hospitalized... the Shijima-san I knew was an idealized version of her, healthy and able to draw forever. But she wished she could bring back the living Shijima Mei and take her place, to protect her from rumors surrounding her death...

She and I were the same. We both wanted to live. We both wanted to outrun our fate...

( and they both failed. kazuki had said that not everyone remembered their deaths- that the last things they remember didn't mean that they died around that time... but she has a certain feeling that things went wrong. she remembers the hospital though, she remembers shijima trying to kill her living counterpart before she could have been wished into existence, and shijima quietly encouraging her after everything.

she remembers that anguished smile hanako gave her. )

We came to an understanding. But Hanako-kun is the strongest of the supernaturals in our school. Even if we wanted to, we could never fight him. And the paintbrush was the remains of one of Shijima-san's copies that oversaw the painted world- she'd survived, and when Kou-kun and Mitsuba-kun rejoined us, we decided to find the 'backdoor' to the world, hidden in a place neither Hanako-kun nor Mitsuba-kun, as the main characters of the dream, could reach.

The moon.

We had to climb to the very top of the tower, and Shijima-san and Kou-kun distracted Hanako-kun while Mitsuba-kun and I tried to go around them. But we still needed to get to the moon... so... we got a bike and cart. I was gonna ride it to the moon, and you know, I really did get us into the sky! Past the clouds even! ( and if she sounds a little excited here, who could blame her? ) ... Hanako-kun tried to stop us, and I fell off though- he caught me. ... And...

Then we talked. Really talked. Because as nice as paradise is... I want to live. I want to live my life as best as I can, regardless of what the world throws at me. Locking me up, handing me a fake happiness.... who could live like that? And... ultimately, despite everything. He did too. ... It's why he tried that to begin with. And I really don't think it was his first option.

( but desperation drives people to terrible things, and the road to hell is paved with good intentions. ...of course she wants mitsuba to get to live. of course she wants a real chance at a life with hanako. the painted owlrd was beautiful and wonderful, but paintings aren't meant to be experienced so literally.

but then nene goes quiet, looking away as she sets the mug down. )

The last thing I remember is leaving Shijima's boundary, returning to the world of the living. A few days later, exam dates were posted. And then...

And then I woke up here.