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52 Hertz Tartaglia ([personal profile] devouringdeep) wrote in [community profile] yogen2021-10-04 05:50 pm

♛ A knife in my heart couldn't slow me down ♛

Who: Childe (and the rest of you wildlings)
When: All of October
What: An open Catch-all for the Bastard (bc I feel he's gonna need it this month)
Warnings: Mild self harm (as in, "exclusively just to trigger the dimension shift" kind of mild), brief mentions of gore, suicide mention

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i want him AT SUNSET

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-19 03:25 am (UTC)(link)
( the rooftop is no longer a secret place, ever since they gained access, anyone has been able to meander their way up to the very top. it has all sorts of uses though, but today, komaeda's curious on whether if he takes one jump will it be his final one — he can only do this alone, there's too many people that... watch after him, and he's always been the type to test his luck. death has betrayed him far too many times, and it's a plan that he has seated in the back of his mind until the moment he comes up top to see a familiar person in his midst. )

Chakkun! Is this where you've been hiding for... a week or two? Maybe three...

( he doesn't know, he hasn't kept count, but despite them not being as close, komaeda speaks as if they've been the best of friends ever since the meeting and game of hangman. part of him wonders if he should keep a game on hand for someone so competitive, but something comes to mind as he walks closer. )

I was starting to think you were avoiding taking me out to dinner.

( his eyes fall upon the dagger that disappears, and reappears, eyes blinking with interest. )
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two bros chillin on the rooftop five ft apart bc theyre not g

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-19 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
You must have left on the exchange, hm... everyone seems a little disheartened every since coming back.

( komaeda crosses his legs as he sits down on the edge of the rooftop so that his legs dangle, and he looks down at the top wondering what the splat would sound like. too bad all he hears is their voices. he has to listen considering the other's voice is off, and that's all komaeda has to go off is his observation of how to read people. )

Crona-san told me how horrible it was for them, especially with a just as pathetic companion... what is it for you, did you take along someone unbearable?

( he settles his hands in his lap, looking towards the other curiously now since the blade is gone. )
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its like a rite of passage into the money and the physical aggression (pos)

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-19 05:45 am (UTC)(link)
Aw... you should have taken me, maybe it wouldn't have been... ( he lifts one hand, reaching up to almost touch childe's locks of hair before pulling away, teasing in a manner ) so lonely.

( his hands drop back down to the seat of his lap, and maybe he's fooling himself, but he thinks he would have went along to somewhere different. simulation is one thing, some place where a person can make weapons out of water would have been uniquely different. )

...There's nothing for me back home.

( that's where some people went, and then others piggybacked to an entirely different environment. the only thing he has back home is a corrupted world due to his actions along with others, and a place where he's not exactly wanted. though, it's a short-lived thought as his eyes migrate to the weapon again, eyes trained like a cats that's been baited with a light for him to be drawn to. he makes no vocal reaction, but childe can watch komaeda's sickly, pale green eyes that lack a thought behind them peer curious once again. )
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chokes on own saliva while being beat up (affectionate)

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-19 06:52 am (UTC)(link)
( it's pretty obvious when someone is playing with you, and his eyes swing back and forth like a pendulum, and the closer they get, the deadlier his intentions are. he heard something about the other asking, and for a moment, komaeda closes his eyes so he can cut off his linear focus of the weapon. almost like he won't take the entire bait, he looks off to the side, placing his hands on the ground so he can lean back a bit. )

Hm? I was told from Crona-san their important person was missing, and then they had to kill themselves along with their partner...

( he asks, turning back to look at him, and his eyes drop on the weapon again, and with interest he lifts his mechanical hand with a soft whirr to reach out, but he stops moments before. )

A week at max, how long did you think it was?
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[personal profile] commences 2021-10-19 06:37 pm (UTC)(link)
About 180 days... 182 depending on your holidays, but...

( as soon as the blade is held out to him, for a moment, his eyes widen in delight as he reaches out with his organic hand first, fingers brushing against the currents flow as water runs through his hands like a portable stream. to see the shape of water stay in his hands, he brings it down to settle in front of him now as he plays with the idea of it, wondering if he can push his fingers through — as he pulls his mechanical hand away to see if there's water left on his hand or not. there's so many outcomes that could play out, and he can't help but find which one would stick. )

It was short and sweet, your travels... who knew the passage of time could be so cruel, it didn't give anyone time to miss you.

( but that's not what this is about, instead it was just an illusion wasn't it? to be gone for six months, and then return to this purgatory, because at the end of the day that place couldn't be real. or perhaps it was, hinata has always told komaeda it's about the memories made, and the feelings attached. )

...Why did you come back?

( he turns back to the other, a straightforward question that's not a trick, but it's komaeda's way of getting into the other's head. there's a lot that can be learned by someone who doesn't show a true expression, and the means of conversation opens the avenue of just that. not only that, he gets to hold onto the dagger a little more he thinks if he remains interesting company. )
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tw: suicide mention

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-21 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
Then why are you so sullen, Chakkun? If you know that was an imitation, why did you come back so...

( how would komaeda describe him? agitated? annoyed? perhaps pissed because that wasn't the real thing? something is crawling underneath his skin, gnawing on the inside, and from his playful expression that easily left from the moment komaeda mentioned how long he was away — it's a tell that going back home had did something mentally. to everyone it had, apparently there was just something not right about it, and he thinks about stephanie who suffered the brunt of it — in her journal she wrote about her suicide, how she wouldn't take the knife, and it just seems that trip had shattered a few souls here and there. )

Didn't you say someone who doesn't know how to take a hit, be knocked down isn't worthy of ruling... think of this as the same.

( the blade remains in his hands, and he reaches out with it, dropping it over the ledge because he's interested in whether it'll just disappear and reform back into childe's hands. he's learning the various avenues that comes from his water magic, and it'd probably be good information to have on record. )

If you allow this to eat away at you, are you truly fit for the throne... where's your hope?
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[personal profile] commences 2021-10-21 01:21 pm (UTC)(link)
( that resolve is familiar, too familiar that komaeda finds himself smiling despite the dagger doesn't appear in child's hands anymore, and his response opens so many doors that komaeda is pushing himself back from the edge so that he can stand up properly. )

Is this the true you, Chakkun? You're really not the neighbor next door who offers me sugar because you're worried...

( those fake smiles are just to placate the system, because no one will ask if they believe they're true. it's not about that though, as komaeda outstretch his arms, and begin to walk the length of the rooftop edge, just one mistep and he'll fall over. )

Do you have hope? If so... to destroy this place, to be set free... the opportunity is right before your eyes, it's whether if you'll take it, or not.

( his hands slip into the pocket of his jacket, looking towards the other with a too calming smile, like he's up to something, but that's the name of the game. rokkun said it himself, for komaeda to do what he keeps doing which is part of dismantling the school, and their thoughts on this school having no meaning to keep standing is slightly all in align, so he wonders... )

Hm...hm...hm...~
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[personal profile] commences 2021-10-21 07:09 pm (UTC)(link)
As long as you have hope, anything is available to you, Chakkun...

( for a brief moment, his eyes swirl in a mix of white and black, the white more apparent in the twists and turns of the swirls as he glances at childe. it sure is an opportunity, it sure is a key he could have if he's willing to take it in his hands, and do what he will with it. does childe have hope, yes, komaeda's felt it through the means of his abilities with the dagger — the aura that wafts off him is there, noticeable, knows he can do more but somehow he feels limited.

he stops mid-step as he walks along the line of the edge, and he turns completely not fretting over the dangers behind him. it takes one blink of his eyes, and they're back to normal like they once were — a sickly, pale green color of a sick man. )


I'll just speed up the process.

( isn't that kind of him? more than what anyone else can do here. )

There will come a time that involves bloodshed... could you kill the people here, all of them, just to be freed of this place... could that become your hope?

( trick question? or serious question? komaeda's response depends on childe's answer. )
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tw: childe being a freak

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-22 01:07 am (UTC)(link)
To some this place is a safe haven, to others... it's a complete hell, and though one side it could be saved, we will remain here, controlled like toys... on the other, if this place is destroyed... what will hold us back, our souls can go wherever they want...

( from what rokkun said to him, he doesn't care where any of them goes as long as this school is gone, he speaks as if it's this place that holds them back. komaeda likes to see change with hope, he pushes forward, acts for the same of others, he's never been a selfish person, and that's why he was willing to kill at the start to help them. they've moved farther than eh expected, they're "living" in a way that seeing dead bodies comes as no shock to them. he wants to grow their hope, and this school could become the foundation if he didn't feel as if this place held them back — he's seen so many people adjust, but to live in a place like this.

he looks off to the side. )


When it comes to their hope, it's up to them whether they can make it or not, but if you're part of what takes down this school... who will tell you otherwise?

( rokkun may have something to say, but once he's achieved his goal, he's probably excited, happy, more than what komaeda could be. though, komaeda cares about hope, about childe's hope, about everyone's hope within the building, and komaeda walks back so that he isn't playing on the edge anymore. behind childe, he drops down to his knees, wrapping his arms around the other's neck as his chin rests on the male's shoulder tiredly. )

Besides, our souls are tied here... no wonder we come back, if you strip them of that, kill them, you'll remove them from this... You said it yourself, didn't you? It's meaningless here, so why not find meaning elsewhere... I wonder how far your hope will go... can you make this place the foundation that gives them the strength to climb towards the peak where hope and happiness resides... I'll do anything for it... hope that is.

( and then he points to the sunset, blinking a bit. )

Just like the sun goes down, it still comes up... hope works the same... despair will swallow them for only a moment, but if they have others willing to help them, they're able to move forward... They won't like the idea of it though, killing... everyone here is afraid of that, are you still willing when that moment shows itself to save them... can you kill?
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NOT TW: CHILDE

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-22 05:25 am (UTC)(link)
( one can learn a lot about a person by touch, and words, and doing this tells komaeda a few things — some are sensitive to touch, others can't stand it, but it seems he puts up with it. that's information to know for later, he tucks away in his mind with a smile as he watches the sunset. komaeda does what he wants, even if it means getting his hands nice and dirty, and so his eyes glance to the side of childe's cheek as if contemplating whether he'll do good or not. he doesn't seem like he does well with orders if they aren't to his liking, or maybe he does, he seems to be listening quite well, and his comment about rulers do need subjects to listen.

komaeda's mouth parts at the other's words, the void, which komaeda remembers has receded some not too long ago — add noticed it, he was entraced by the idea as someone who came up from the void. now that's something to say, is he truly the person that keeps the void at bay from swallowing them whole? )


And that's all because of you...

( he asks, curious, he'll bite actually, it's a bold claim considering no one really knows the innerworkings of it, and even add has been trying to learn the methods behind it. does childe know ow much add would love the answers behind it, but komaeda keeps quiet, and then he pulls himself off of the other as he leans back, bends his knee so that he can rest his arm atop. to show someone their tallies — twenty-nine — is almost a sign of trust if he kept it hidden on purpose, and it insinuates that killing is what's holding it back? then again, childe could lie, he could say anything. )

When you first came here... how many did you have?

( when komaeda appeared, he only a rather unlucky number, or lucky to some. a low numbered compared to what he has now, but he doesn't show his marks to childe just yet, rather, he's curious of whether the other will comment, or if he'll want the same amount of information back. that's how people keep track on a person's killing spree, on their livelihood, on what they do when no one's watching. )

...That and are you suggesting that every added mark reels back the void?

( tally, death, whatever childe wants to call it. )
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tHIS REMINDS ME WHEN I HAD TW: KOMAEDA ITS JUST THEM FREAKS

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-22 06:17 am (UTC)(link)
( two more added to the pile, but that doesn't explain the way the void fluctuates, and so komaeda feels as if it's just not that. instead, he'll come closer to childe, looking at the arm that was shown to him, and he'll reaches out to touch the marks to count each one individually, but also see if there's anything different about them. leaving this alone to one look really isn't komaeda, so investigating it further may prove to show him something, but he doubts it. )

How lucky... it's been a problem posed to them, just one wrong drop of blood, and a person dies just like that.

( is how he sees it, but he'll remove his fingers after looking the marks over, and he'll think on the connection of the void, and why childe showed him such a specific number of tallies. besides, this is the real deal, or he wouldn't be so confident about it — it's not manipulation, it's wholeheartedly his desire to do this, and he'll exchange depending on what he receives which the ultimate finds respectable. so it's the offer that he has to give for that information, and from what komaeda can find about childe is that unbridled bloodlust to the point that maybe he can monopolize off of it. )

To carving the flesh from bones... to your tallies... you're someone interested in the heat of conflict between people, aren't you?

( as he speaks, his voice remains soft as always, not too bothered, but there's a bit of interest within his tone. )
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literally sat here cryin on how to phrase this bc it sounds crazy

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-22 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
Then I'll gamble myself.

( the heat of battle isn't something that komaeda can do, because he doesn't have any fancy abilities aside from his talent, but that might just be his weapon. it must sound crazy hearing that he'll put himself on the chopping block, but there's a reason he seems confident in the bartering chip of himself. a hand lifts to stare in the palm of his organic, almost like there's something for him to read there. )

You can force your weapons on me... giving you the chance to make me meet my demise, but I already know the end results.

( he lifts his head, a practice smile on his face as if he's done this many times, but who knows if this could warrant information out of childe or not, but if he's interested. then komaeda would have to show him in some way, but for now, he'll see if the other finds something to gain through it. )

This way, you can test how strong you really are... Sometimes it's not only meeting your fate, but bringing another to meet theirs... if you can't, I wonder does that mean the opponent lacks the ability to do so.
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tw childe voice: he MY freak freak

[personal profile] commences 2021-10-22 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
...Ah, was I not clear?

( he gasps, a hand covering his mouth, but then he drops it into the seat of his lap. )

In exchange for what you know... you can try and fatally injure me, torture me, chop off my limbs —

( he lifts his prosthetic hand, waving it to childe so that he can see it's an option on the table. but it's not like someone did it to him, komaeda did that to himself with a chainsaw so he's used to whatever attacking his body. he has his limits, he can die if fatally injured to the point of no return, but he's sure his luck will win out here to keep childe interested. )

Try whatever you like, it's just up to you to make it happen... but it won't be easy! For what you know, I can offer my body.

( and his talent, with that said, he'll turn to look at the sun that slowly begins to hide behind the horizon. )

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