yogen | ☆ U R My Sunshine ☆

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If Rocchan's trying to woo Keigo away from me, I'm gonna have to fight him.

[so, no.

also it doesn't come to much surprise to him that komaeda rarely, if never, listens to him in full; he thinks maybe the other time the other had listened to at least most of what he had to say was when to told him to shut up in the bathroom, but

nonetheless, subaru's used to it. not just from komaeda either.]

Huh?

( what the fuck did he say, well, komaeda didn't expect that. he can tell subaru without a doubt that's not the case. )

Rokkun's not the type to woo anyone, he's a petty, stupid teenager, but he's nothing like what you think of him. Have hope.

( but does that answer the question of if they're brothers? probably not. )

Oh, I like Rocchan a lot! He's fun to talk to~. But that's why I wouldn't give up.

[but it isn't like that so,

so they are siblings he guesses,]

Do they know?

You like him to the point of arguing with him over P-kun? ...Hm, I didn't know you had something against the physically unwell.

( kind of rude, that's bullycore... actually. )

It's a personal matter, but they do... now it's up to them to figure things out.

( he looks down at subaru, wondering his take. komaeda will listen, it's about them after all. )

Him having a bad leg's got nothing to do with anything, Maddy. He can do plenty even with it, y'know? I like how determined he is.

[it's nice. he finds them similar in that way, never going half a mile with anything they do, but at the rest he tilts his head to the side.

so they know, but it's up to them now... that's good. it makes his usual bright grin softer, but not subdued; more like the warm, gentle glow of the dorm's fireplace in this chilly nights.]

'Kay~. I'm glad, though it must be pretty rough for them both after so long... And especially with how much Keigo looked up to him.

[he can paint the picture now, of a young keigo right at the heels of a young, but older rokuro, playing in the shadows of their house and never too far off. the singing they heard, the arts they did, a house enveloped in warmth and love and colored rosely by young eyes and a yearning to return to those days. subaru understands that all too well,

as well as the fear and unease that comes with discovering new things about the person you admire, or the person you loved, but still wanting to think so well of them regardless. he fiddles with his phone in his pocket and wonders if keigo would ever tell him themselves, and decides it'd be nice -- but not necessary -- if they did. he certainly isn't gonna say anything to either...

... still, though...]

They should get to know each other as much as possible, [he finally says,] before one or the other's time is up.

[because he'll do his all to give keigo more years if possible, but there's an obvious nagging fear of no guarantee that slips into his quiet words.]

...I know, it's just that weak part of him can be cute, too. He tries his best to be so strong, I wonder does he ever get tired. Oh, well.

( he's always so determined, but that's not all, that determination is also messy, it's desperate, he doesn't know what to do once he gets going. as komaeda thinks about it, he's always been like that, but he wonders if npckun is just as messy as well, but they seem more composed to komaeda — perhaps they know when to cry, and how their emotions can be, hm, the arata family is sensitive. part of him wonders how did he even get involved. )

Yeah... They've always looked up to him, even when they wanted me to take his place, I couldn't. I understand the type of person he is... and I couldn't take that from him. Understand that you have to remind them that can't give away that special person to anyone.

( because npckun missed him, wanted him back, and that's been rokkun's goal from the start to be reunited with his younger sibling. that's why he wanted to graduate, and now knowing that npckun is here, his entire goal has changed, and komaeda supports it despite how messy it sounds. he trusts him, and that's why komaeda smiles softly, and he looks at subaru with the same one, not switching from it. )

This is Arata Rokuro-kun's year... ( he pauses, thoughtful. ) As long as they can make the most of it, then that should be more than enough.

[rokuro did say he had a plan.

one that subaru can help with simply by continuing to be himself, essentially, making friends and being happy and so on and so forth. living a normal student's life. maya had been the same way with her contract, and he wonders keigo feels like their moment of weakness, of asking subaru for help, is something worth regretting. all they'd asked for at first was subaru's trust and his arms, after all.]

More than enough, huh...

[... ... ...]

I'll do everything I can to make sure that happens too. ♪ Keigo's important to me, so I wanna make sure every moment they've got -- whether it's with me or not -- is one they wanna remember.

Don't press him, Akehoshi-kun.

( as much as komaeda keeps a low profile of what he's involved in, he does offer some advice because he knows how the other is — npckun a certain amount, but when it comes to rokuro, he feels as if he knows too much, and not enough. )

If he feels like you're trying to learn too much about him, his past, things like that. He'll bristle, even if you want to make sure, you can only tap gently... a push might be a step too far, and over the cliff they go.

( he hums as he says it, he's exciting though as he claps his hands together, focusing on that than anything else. it's like he's noticed something on the floor that deserves his attention. it's just that dementia part of him showing where he doesn't stay on a conversation for so long. )

You act like I don't know how to make friends with people, Maddy.

[please... he isn't going to use what he learned from komaeda or anyone else as a gateway if the person in question wasn't there to already know he knew. rokuro in particular seems to have something about it, and... keigo was a special case, at that time; he hasn't done it since, and he won't do it in the future. subaru wants people to talk about things themselves, to give and... and be given in return, at some point.]

People aren't that fragile, but if you're pushing them so far they're even thinking about cutting and running like that then you're doing something wrong. The goal oughta be to have fun when you're learning about others, not just knowing everything you can. Don'tcha think?

[which is more of a problem that natsume has than komaeda, really, but still.]

I'm not talking about making friends, I'm talking about if you believe you want to help them. They can only help their own hope, hm... do not hold their hand.

( holding hands is... a strong gesture, one that komaeda likes, and one that he hates, and that's because he's no different from a parent wanting to see his children succeed, and then he's a child who wants to look up to the hope that's made from a respective set of people. it goes back and forth, and despite subaru scolding him, komaeda shakes his head as he looks forward. )

That's all I meant. ( of course, he looks at subaru curiously. ) ...Though, I'm happy to hear something so mundane, that you two have become friends.

[it's probably more one-sided than anything, because subaru calls nearly everyone a friend, but

yeah, they're friends, he feels pretty sure on that.]

Rocchan's fun. I like watching him draw, and he makes learning things easy and interesting! He doesn't even mind that I can't draw bones that well, and I think he's hilarious~. The guy can't take a joke at all -- but like, not in a mean way, he's just the sorta guy who won't catch on unless it's staring him right in the face.

[and subaru likes that, clear in his tone; it reminds him of someone dear, though they're otherwise generally opposites.]

I wanna hang out with him more once he's back around~. It'd be nice to play soccer, if his leg's well enough, but even doing some card games would be fun! Maybe he'd like a sleepover too-- oh, I should ask him what his favorite movies are! It'd be awesome if we matched up~.

...

( he's a little silent at the comments, and he thinks that would probably be good for him. he remembers how rokkun would tease komaeda for making friends, but it seems like the other is doing fine in retrospect as well. he lifts a hand to his mouth, trying to stifle his laugher before he nods. )

Mhm... He'd enjoy the company, he's always trying to say he doesn't like it, but... I'm sure you can get through to him.

( hm, seeing those two on the field would probably be a sight, but who would komaeda cheer for? )

If you two play soccer, I'd like to see.

[subaru thinks that rokuro'd probably try harder to push him away if he really didn't enjoy the company to a point, so he's sure that the other likes it too.]

Then you're more than welcome to come~. You can cheer for Rocchan, 'cause he's gonna need it. ♪

[he's never played soccer outside of like, gym class, but he figures they're about even if rokuro's recovering]

Now, now... I won't cheer for anyone.

( that would serve to be bad luck, something would happen, and komaeda doesn't want to be there if it does. not again, he doesn't want to be the reason. )

...If I hear about it though, I'll come visit. Don't go easy on him, he takes soccer seriously... it's amazing.

You've seen him play?

[interest piqued]

...Yeah. He'll crush you beneath his foot.

( ... )

Awesome! I can't wait to play against a champ~! I'm super pumped if he's really that good!

[the sort of athlete who is eager to fight]

Maybe I'll see if some of the guys'll practice with me so I can get a feel for it~. It's way more lawless than the sort I'm used to, but I don't mind that at all. ♪

It's almost like life or death to him... I'm sure that's what he did last time I saw.

( when he was fighting for his life, the way he used his legs to crush imps under his heel, because that had to be what was tearing him apart. that sort of will was amazing, but even komaeda had no time to actually admire it considering what he had did in response. covered in blood, sent to the void, coming back to see him almost die, calling for amami, pleading with akki to save rokkun... ah. )

You'll be impressed, I'm sure. You both can run around like dogs.

☆ U R My Sunshine ☆

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