[the phrase is broken, agonized, flung out at him.]
To live, not just....just for killing's sake!
[that was a reason, and one she could forgive, knowing how desperately the self wants to not die. killing to live, because it was you or them. but killing just because you were told they'd die either way? when she knows there might have been another option - those silent bodies hidden in the dorms - it's wrong, it's wrong, and she can't even pull herself out of the water. too miserable to, just holding on so that she doesn't sink down into the abyss.
normally, when talking to someone, Helena turns her head towards them, lets sighted people feel more comfortable that way. but right now, she stays where she is. he can listen just fine like this. he can hear how hard she's trying to cry quietly, and what slips through regardless.
if he's like this, he's no better than a hunter, laughing and striking her down again, again.]
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[the phrase is broken, agonized, flung out at him.]
To live, not just....just for killing's sake!
[that was a reason, and one she could forgive, knowing how desperately the self wants to not die. killing to live, because it was you or them. but killing just because you were told they'd die either way? when she knows there might have been another option - those silent bodies hidden in the dorms - it's wrong, it's wrong, and she can't even pull herself out of the water. too miserable to, just holding on so that she doesn't sink down into the abyss.
normally, when talking to someone, Helena turns her head towards them, lets sighted people feel more comfortable that way. but right now, she stays where she is. he can listen just fine like this. he can hear how hard she's trying to cry quietly, and what slips through regardless.
if he's like this, he's no better than a hunter, laughing and striking her down again, again.]