[It's not obvious, he's too close to it for it to be. Vote for who you hate... The villain getting their comeuppance... isn't that how it's supposed to work? Can't that be enough of a salve? If Kanna and Gin's places were swapped, he likes to think he wouldn't have hesitated to press this either, just changed his arguments, been a little more uncertain and hating himself for that. Gin was scared and unsure, but...
'It's not like I want him to die'. Why. Why is that so important, that it has to keep coming up again and again? Why does that matter more than Kanna? It's cruel painful irony, the idea he was so wrong at the very start... it's what made him want to try here, in Yogen, and it's like a dagger now.]
It's not like I wanted to die either! I-I had a plan, okay?? What, did you think I was going to just let them kill me? And you just- You both just...
[Gripping his head again. He's vibrating like a string, all taut energy that can't earth anywhere. His voice is going a little hoarse and he swallows. Why is he arguing like he can still change the outcome?]
You. You really don't get it, do you? You have no idea...
[It's thin like mountain air, disbelievingly angry. 'Broke something'. 'Exploited something'. It's not just that she doesn't have an answer, it's that she doesn't know. Saying that it's wrong, without knowing why... is that worse or better than someone who does but doesn't care? It's making something in him crunch up like an aluminium can on a metal shredder, because he can't put that something into words himself but it shouldn't be talked about so vaguely. For the first time, Shin had been depended on instead of depending on others... it's easier to shy away from the thought, and pretend it's because it's something that anyone should have done. Should have, but didn't, because that's not the way the world actually works.]
So that's it, is it? All just a whim... Ahaha, I guess it's too late for regrets.
[She knows that now, and that going back in his face burns like acid. But that's what's really painful about this, because this is some other... timeline? Universe?'s Sara, and it's some other him that's potentially still alive out there. His Kanna is, if not safe and sound, not already dead, but some other Kanna is and the difference is. On that day, in that moment, Sara might as well have flipped a coin. It makes any regard he had for that decision sour in hindsight.]
How'd the third main game turn out for you, Sara? [Very good it doesn't seem.] Did you have fun?
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'It's not like I want him to die'. Why. Why is that so important, that it has to keep coming up again and again? Why does that matter more than Kanna? It's cruel painful irony, the idea he was so wrong at the very start... it's what made him want to try here, in Yogen, and it's like a dagger now.]
It's not like I wanted to die either! I-I had a plan, okay?? What, did you think I was going to just let them kill me? And you just- You both just...
[Gripping his head again. He's vibrating like a string, all taut energy that can't earth anywhere. His voice is going a little hoarse and he swallows. Why is he arguing like he can still change the outcome?]
You. You really don't get it, do you? You have no idea...
[It's thin like mountain air, disbelievingly angry. 'Broke something'. 'Exploited something'. It's not just that she doesn't have an answer, it's that she doesn't know. Saying that it's wrong, without knowing why... is that worse or better than someone who does but doesn't care? It's making something in him crunch up like an aluminium can on a metal shredder, because he can't put that something into words himself but it shouldn't be talked about so vaguely. For the first time, Shin had been depended on instead of depending on others... it's easier to shy away from the thought, and pretend it's because it's something that anyone should have done. Should have, but didn't, because that's not the way the world actually works.]
So that's it, is it? All just a whim... Ahaha, I guess it's too late for regrets.
[She knows that now, and that going back in his face burns like acid. But that's what's really painful about this, because this is some other... timeline? Universe?'s Sara, and it's some other him that's potentially still alive out there. His Kanna is, if not safe and sound, not already dead, but some other Kanna is and the difference is. On that day, in that moment, Sara might as well have flipped a coin. It makes any regard he had for that decision sour in hindsight.]
How'd the third main game turn out for you, Sara? [Very good it doesn't seem.] Did you have fun?