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AL HAITHAM ([personal profile] commences) wrote in [community profile] yogen2021-12-31 02:45 am

この気持ち…伝わってるといいんすけどね (12/31)

Who: Hajime Hinata & friends
What: Happy birthday, Hinata-kun!
When: December 31, 9PM~
Where: School roof
Warnings: N/A, TBE

( there's various hidden signs that point towards the elevator, and if anyone catches sight, they'll see an arrow that points up, indicating for them to take it skyward. if they get off too early, there's a sign on the floor that reads, "next stop!", so if they dare, they can go back into the elevator and do as the words command. upon making your way to the rooftop on new year's eve, the setup is immediately apparent.

a number of glittering, sparkling decorations line the area — streamers, balloons, music, and a brightly colored sign the reads: happy birthday hinachan. at the heart of the setup is a bonfire that reaches almost shoulder-height — properly set up to make sure it doesn't spread anywhere further than its containment area, it sets a festive tone.

"borrowed" desks are also covered in an array of treats and appetizers courtesy of nene and amami, as well as enough love setsugetsukka to "make 3 people black out," which is probably enough to share if nobody gets too ambitious. the cake at the center of it all is the real star of the show however, almost as big as a person all on it's own.

to top it all off, even under the dim glow of the stars, nobody is short of a little light when natsume and noah's dazzling light show begins. once the main event has closed, a variety of firecrackers are brought out to celebrate with as things begin to wind down. varieties include the classic sparklers, these little spinny bitches, funky little sparkshowers, some little baby rockets, with the larger varieties spanning a couple feet at most. on the opposite side, there's a little table where a birdhouse is kept, and inside stuffed with all sorts of cotton and wood shavings are two birds huddled together inside, and a few treats that people can feed them if interest. if keigo looks at your character from afar, it's fine, that birdhouse they're living in was made by them, after all.

and at the centre of it all will be one boy with a bag over his head, kidnapped by rokuro arata, who sits him down and lets komaeda undo his blindfold — happy birthday, hinata-kun! )
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STOP they can be good or bad luck it just depends

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-02 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Would God be ruined by filthy human hands, or would he dirty them with his very presence? Humans were astounding for the effort they put forth, for the fact that they could create what was better than themselves, and a creature that was truly above him could only dull that by tampering with their lives. He sets those ideas aside, instead trying to find the meaning behind Komaeda's words. It's clear that he's not referring to a literal god, and so it must be something - someone? - on that level for him. If he thinks of that as a natural extension of Komaeda's inherent belief system, he can start to form an educated guess on the matter, and he's not sure what the feeling that swishes around inside of him is - it's tight and painful, and it's inquisition and clinical, and it's something else that he can't put a finger on, some foreign emotion that he has no word for.

The closest thing to a god in humanity for Rio Ranger would be his creators, but those aren't god. They're something more miraculous than gods, the pinnacle of humanity, and Rio Ranger nothing more than a accumulation of those efforts. He would change as intended and he, already something more than humans could ever be, would eventually fulfill their vision perfectly. But it would never be anything other than a natural extension of those efforts that no god could claim stake to even if they existed.

So he doesn't need anything like that in his life.

Komaeda seems to confirm that thought as he wraps his arms around Rio, whose face turns red at the sudden gesture. It's a little slow, and his head tips up and down and to each side, and it seems as though no human should want to embarrass themselves with a gesture like this. Human hands can only dirty him with their touch, but a doll can only rub filth and grime on them in return. But his mind goes blank, and all he can do is gingerly wrap his arms around Komaeda in return. It leaves him without his face cards, but if he presses himself against him like this and tilts his head down just a little no one will see his burning cheeks any more than they will the look on his face - embarrassed, uncertain, but carrying just the faintest hint of warmth to it. ]


I was created by human hands, and I was perfected by human hands, so I wouldn't want God to dirty my wish by touching it.

[ Rio closes his eyes briefly, and he wonders if any human could understand that feeling. Komaeda always runs cold, and because Rio runs warm he always winds up sharing his heat. But Rio is contradiction upon contradiction, loving human efforts while hating every piece of them, and so perhaps it's only natural that he always feels warmer around this person. ]

Having just one person recognize my wish would be enough, so I'm already satisfied.

[ Just one person, and if Komaeda is right then he supposes that he'll be even happier. ]
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SIGHS FINE YOU CAN CHOOSE!!!

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-06 02:46 am (UTC)(link)
I don't, so I'll take your hand instead. But I wouldn't mind meeting him.

[ It seems to him as though this is a natural extension of Komaeda's view. It wasn't uncommon for humans to be elevated to the status of a god by those around them, but in the end they were nonetheless just humans to be judged on their own merits. Rio doesn't want to be touched by a god, but rather he wants humans who succeed by their own merits. He likes those whom he can understand. Rio wants to meet those people, and he wants to share in what's important to the person with their arms wrapped around him.

Was there anyone he would want Komaeda to meet...? Rio thinks about that, and he finds himself uncertain. Those of ASUNARO could no doubt cure every ailment. His sickness, his pain, even the damage done to his mind by those painful memories. Even if he was never loved, even if he removed himself, the were without a doubt precious to him. Even now, there's a hole that no one else will ever fill... But for some reason that he can't pin down, the idea frightens him.

...

His face grows hotter as the hug grows tighter and Komaeda nuzzles against him. The source of that excitement is clear, but the reason isn't of concern to him. It's nice to be held like this, he thinks, more than he could have ever known before. It's a warm, comfortable feeling that settles in his chest and seems to spread throughout his body. He squeezes him gently, and Rio wonders if it's alright to be like this. It goes on for some time, and he can track every second, and yet it feels like it's too quick to end.

But it has to, and his flushed face is left on full display. The lower half of his face is quickly covered by a card - one with a squiggly frown and pink slashes that indicate a blush. Rio is suddenly once more aware of how public it is, and how warm his cheeks are, and he looks off to the side. ]


It wasn't. We can share things like that, too. [ Things that are personal, things that are important - even if Rio doesn't have many. He fidgets, his chin lowering slightly and his shoulders lifting as he tries to hide behind that card a little more. ] Is it really that red...?
Edited 2022-01-06 02:46 (UTC)
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midori is max cursed luck

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-06 08:52 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's fortunate that he's too flustered to do anything much, but he pointedly looks away, his body tensing up as he thinks about it. Rio doesn't like photographs, nor recordings, nor mirrors - anything that forces him to look at himself. His face was the worst of all, and being completed had done nothing to ease the nausea he feels upon seeing it. It's why it's hidden even now. ]

Ah - I don't like having my picture taken or mirrors...

[ He stammers through the explanation, but Komaeda's teasing otherwise has the intended effect. Rio is a little puzzled, not seeming to quite understand why he's embarrassed, just that he's being teased and that he's supposed to be. It has a compounding effect, and he can't quite recover from it well enough to collect his thoughts. His weight shifts from foot to foot, fidgeting and alternating between looking to either side and then down.

The card is stiff for a few seconds before Komaeda manages to push it down, just enough to reveal his face before Rio bats that hand away and lifts it back up, closing one eye as he does so. He doesn't think anyone can see, but the thought makes him squirm as much as the teasing does. It's not the first time he's blushed, but never quite like this, and there was never this kind of uncertainty and distress. Really, it probably would have just been impossible to get much out of him.

??? ]
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true he is just green, meeting him is bad luck though

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-07 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ That seems to sober Rio up a little, but he only shakes his head again. The red gradually disappears from his face as he finds himself with something else to focus on. Every piece of his life was recorded, but there wasn't much of a need to take pictures aside for record-keeping or assessing. Rio can't remember ever having a picture taken, but that doesn't mean it never was. He's certain they were before he was turned online at the very least, and it seems likely enough that there were more that he wasn't aware of.

It wasn't any need to hide it if so, it was just that here was even less need to tell him what they were doing. ]


It was probably before I was turned online... Anyway, I don't like seeing myself.

[ Not the flawless skin and symmetrical features, not the fluffy orange hair with a little curl that was intended to be cute, or the vibrant orange eyes - more full of life now, and yet still not revealing much. All of those things that were carefully crafted to create an ideal.

There's no need for him to take pictures or to record. There's no need for him to keep reminders of happy memories when each moment was permanently locked into him, feelings and all of those things that should warp and change and be lost with time. They simply piled up over time. He has to constantly remind himself that humans aren't like that. They forget, and they lose, and they need those reminders of what had been to comfort themselves.

Maybe he should at least be willing to give that. ]


... If you want, I'll take one with you.
rearranger: (pic♯15753973)

THERE IS BUT THIS GREEN IS CURSED

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-07 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
[ Rio is holding the open-mouthed grin card now. It doesn't quite match his mood, but he's not sure what would. The idea of having a picture taken of him is uncomfortable, but he can see it from the other angle, and... There's something about a person wanting to have a tangible reminder of him to hang onto. Maybe it'll be kept, or maybe it'll deleted within minutes, or maybe he'll forget why he even had it. It doesn't seem to matter when Rio can hang onto that small, comforting thought for the rest of his life.

He can tell himself that it's fine as long as he doesn't have to see it.

He blinks, staring for a few seconds. He had asked to take a picture with him. ]


You wouldn't.

[ But then, Rio probably wouldn't care even if he did. But he doesn't seem like he'll push the issue, likely because he himself is so uncomfortable with the prospect. ]

Sure, I guess that's fine.

[ He's not moving just yet though. He may or may not be staring at him. ]
Edited 2022-01-07 05:01 (UTC)
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TRUE IT'S REALLY JUST MIDORI (YTTD EDITION) THAT'S CURSED, MOST OTHER GREENS ARE NOT CURSED

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-07 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's fine, Komaeda is always ordering him around like the slavedriver that he is. Rio walks over and stands next to him as instructed, close enough that their shoulders are nearly touching. It's warm, and while it doesn't particularly matter to him, he can still appreciate that sensation.

Here's a little frown behind the mask, and he tugs at the edge of his hood as he considers that. ]


Ahaha, nope. Well, I guess that makes sense though.

[ It's more or less a universal thing among schools, but it's not one he'd had any reason to think about until now. ]
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YOU BULLY HIM ALL THE TIME!!!!

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-07 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
Smile...?

[ He blinks, as though repeating a foreign word. Perhaps it's because he was still sifting through his emotions, but he hadn't really smiled since having his emotions completed. He'd been content and even felt brief flickers of happiness, but his changes in expression were still small and slight.

But a person is supposed to smile for pictures, aren't they?

He glances down to the face card in front of him, then back up to Komaeda. It takes him a few seconds to describe. ]


... Okay.

[ There's a hint of uncertainty to the agreement, but he lowers the card all the same. ]
Edited 2022-01-07 19:54 (UTC)
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JUST TODAY? STARES AT THIS RAIN THREAD

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-08 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
[ There's some reluctance, but he must catch onto the concerns because he does trade the cards for a camera.

It's uncomfortable, both being without his cards and taking a picture like this. It's pushing boundaries that have been solidly in place. He won't back out, but he does take a little breath to clear his nerves as he hold s the camera out in front of him. He adjusts the angle a bit... Like this should be fine, right?

Komaeda bumps against him, and he looks to him in turn, and he's able to manage a smile. It's as slight as all his changes in expression are, barely there at all, but genuine and warm.

...

Click. ]
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THE ON WHERE YOU'RE TURNING HIS CAR INTO A POOL

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-08 05:25 am (UTC)(link)
[ That insignificant little smile is gone as quickly as it came, like a wisp of smoke, but he seems happy enough. Rio doesn't mind Komaeda using his face card. It's odd, and he knows it is, so it's nice to have someone who will share in on that piece of him.

It's uncomfortable, though, and his free hand moves to cover his mouth. ]


Sure.

[ Okay, he's squishing against Komaeda little more before he moves to show it, angling it more in the other's direction. ]
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MEEEE PLEASE DROWN HIM SO I FEEL BETTER

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-08 12:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He can do both if he wants!!! Rio leans into a little more as Komaeda wraps his arm around him, tilting his head just slightly to return the gesture. It's comfortable, and Rio finds that he's content like this. He looks at the photo with him, and he finds that he dislikes the sight of his own face as much as ever. There's so much has changed, but it's not nearly enough.

He doesn't let himself focus on that, despite the nauseating feeling in his stomach. It seems to show a happy memory, and that was important to others, and so he tries to appreciate the different vantage point instead. The fire is noted, but it doesn't bother him. Humans are designed to see faces in everything. None of that should matter when it's showing a happy memory. ]


I'd like that. It'd be nice if we both could, don't you think?

[ He has a good enough grasp on the concept of New Years, at least, even if he has no experience or attachment to it. ]
Edited 2022-01-08 12:06 (UTC)
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but it'll make me feel better!!

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-09 01:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ Rio turns his head slightly to look at Komaeda, and he's suddenly aware of how close he is in a way that he hsn't been in the past. There's a touch of embarrassment, and he's quick to turn his gaze forward and down again.

If he thinks about it, if they did that, they could both end the current millenium and begin the new one with a smile... It's a nice thought, and his heart flutters at the thought of being able to share that with someone. It's never meant anything to him, and even now he would be fine without, but then he's never had the opportunity for it to mean something. ]


.. Okay. Then I'll make sure I'm smiling too.

[ His voice is a little soft, but contented.

That said, he wasn't expecting that last bit. ]


Huh? Which one?
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? they're ruined, komaeda ran off with his cat card like sara did the stocking

[personal profile] rearranger 2022-01-09 09:42 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmm...

[ There really are a lot of positive cards. There's a few negative ones - an angry face, an intense stare, an embarrassed squiggle of a grown, a pout, and a crying card with a squiggly frown. But of those, one was made by Komaeda and the other is meant to represent a person. The rest are undeniably meant to be fun, cheerful cards - a confident profile, a shark-toothed grin, an exaggerated open-mouthed, toothy grin; a pair of cards with 3-shaped mouths, one of which has a blush and the other seeming to be more playful in nature, a squiggly smile with a forked tongue hanging out, a wide smile, a simpler and less perfect cat face... They're all fun, lively, and cartoonish expressions meant to create the image of a person who is just the same.

He's going to slip the camera back into Komaeda's pocket so he can start the process of holding a few of those cards up in front of his partner's face, seemingly at random, before seeming to decide against each one. Then he's going to guide Komaeda's hand back so he can look at the cat card in front of it again.

...

He might have just wanted to see how they look on another person. ]


Yeah, I like that one for you. Let's do that.

[ He takes up the rectangular cat card again, a simple and slightly messy sideways 3 with a few little whiskers poking out on either side, and holds it up in front of his face now since Komaeda still has the ones he's usually holding. ]