Yukio Okumura (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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yogen2022-02-07 04:41 pm
emptyembers) wrote in yogen2022-02-07 04:41 pm
falling past the horizon
Who: Yukio & You!
What: Coping With Loss :)
When Beginning of February
Where: School Rooftop
Warnings: very unfun post about grief, loss, suicidal thoughts and attempts probably.
[Yukio had felt the emptiness when it happened. Well, emptiness wasn't exactly the word he would use. It was more of a sudden vacuum left behind by the sudden removal of something important. But the point was that he had felt it when it happened. One moment he had been fine, or as fine as anyone could be in this place... the next moment he had felt so empty that it almost staggered him.
It took him a while to figure out what it was, and what the feeling meant. Things had appeared normal. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary, and for a moment there Yukio had almost brushed the feeling aside as just his anxiety getting the better of him. The feeling didn't leave, though, and as the day had gone it had gotten worse.
It felt as if he was suffocating, the pressure in his chest crushing against him until he couldn't so much as breathe.
It got worse when he had arrived at their dorm room, only to find Kurikara on the floor. His heart had sunk at the sight of it, because as clumsy and forgetful his brother was, he would never toss that sword away like it was nothing more than spare clothes.
The rest had been a blur.
He didn't remember how he got to the rooftop, or when he had sat down on the ledge, with his feet dangling off the side of the building. He didn't remember grabbing Kurikara or the fact that he was still holding it.
All he remembered was that feeling of emptiness had grown, and through his haze, he knew without a doubt that Rin... was gone.]
What: Coping With Loss :)
When Beginning of February
Where: School Rooftop
Warnings: very unfun post about grief, loss, suicidal thoughts and attempts probably.
[Yukio had felt the emptiness when it happened. Well, emptiness wasn't exactly the word he would use. It was more of a sudden vacuum left behind by the sudden removal of something important. But the point was that he had felt it when it happened. One moment he had been fine, or as fine as anyone could be in this place... the next moment he had felt so empty that it almost staggered him.
It took him a while to figure out what it was, and what the feeling meant. Things had appeared normal. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary, and for a moment there Yukio had almost brushed the feeling aside as just his anxiety getting the better of him. The feeling didn't leave, though, and as the day had gone it had gotten worse.
It felt as if he was suffocating, the pressure in his chest crushing against him until he couldn't so much as breathe.
It got worse when he had arrived at their dorm room, only to find Kurikara on the floor. His heart had sunk at the sight of it, because as clumsy and forgetful his brother was, he would never toss that sword away like it was nothing more than spare clothes.
The rest had been a blur.
He didn't remember how he got to the rooftop, or when he had sat down on the ledge, with his feet dangling off the side of the building. He didn't remember grabbing Kurikara or the fact that he was still holding it.
All he remembered was that feeling of emptiness had grown, and through his haze, he knew without a doubt that Rin... was gone.]
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R...Rin-kun? He's gone?! [He answers with a soft gasp. But here in Yogen, that can mean many things. So he asks uncertainly.] H-how...?
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Yukio took in a sharp breath, not wanting to cry in front of Ishimaru.]
I don't know... I can't even find his...
[Body.
He couldn't being himself to say that just yet.]
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Ishimaru's shoulders slack as he looks down with a frown. As Rin's brother, Yukio must be the most sensitive to this kind of thing. He really must have gone missing.]
...I... I can try to look for him. I will assemble a search party a-and check every last inch of the school grounds! [He desperately attempts to find any kind of hope or solace in this situation, or at least to help Yukio feel a little less worse.]
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You... don't have to. [He swallows thickly, knowing that the probability of finding Rin alive was slim to none; not when he left, his sword discarded like it was trash on the floor. Rin wouldn't do that.] But... thank you. I appreciate you.
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I appreciate your appreciation and appreciate you in turn, Okumura-kun! I feel that it is something that I should do. If... if there is still a chance that he can be found, I will do my best to locate him!