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sou hiyori. ([personal profile] antitoxin) wrote in [community profile] yogen2022-02-15 03:56 am

spoiler for love: “break-up”-ish, spoiler for life: “death”-ish.

Who: Midori & victims
What: Despairzone 2022
When: Valentine's day onwards
Where: Yogen high school (maybe?)
Warnings: TBE
heroicpolonaise: (03)

NOT HER BIG DICK DADDY DOM DETATCH THAT THING RIGHT NOW

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-01 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
[she jumps a little at the sudden sugar, the sudden voice, and she looks up at him with wetter eyes than she'd like as the words register one at a time in her mind-- then kaede'll look back at the tea bag, wiping her eyes with the edge of her sleeve as she smiles.]

No, I don't mind at all. Thank you, um...

[hiyori... she needs a better way to differ him and shin, who she also calls hiyori, but this is a lot to remember right now that there's two sou hiyoris and. okay one of them has to change.

anyway, she'll hand the teabag to him.]


Thank you, Hiyori-kun. [so strange. but it's like the chiakis and the arisus so it's fine for now.] I'm not really good at making tea myself, so it'll definitely taste better from someone else's hand.

[even if she wasn't smacked with sudden depression this would be fact.]
heroicpolonaise: (05)

OK THEN KEEP IT AWAY FROM HER SHES A WOMAN'S WOMAN NOW

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-01 04:32 am (UTC)(link)
[the friend comment seems to surprise her a little, and she pulls her mouth tight for a moment before she shakes her head and smiles -- even if it's an open wound, some tea and company might just be the bandage she needs. it's no good to be alone, that much she knows, and she'll do as asked and fetch the kettle from the cabinet.]

Yes, we are, and... I'd love that. It seems pretty silly that a young lady doesn't know how to make herself a cup of tea, huh? But I never wanted to risk hurting my hands growing up, and everyone else liked doing it for me.

[which makes her sound awfully privileged, she knows, but that's just how it is. her hands are only slightly calloused from playing piano, and only on the pads. kaede'll draw water into it, then sets the kettle on the stove as she comes to stand beside the other.]

I must sound pretty spoiled to you, huh?
heroicpolonaise: (38)

SARA IS HER BESTIE AND HER BREASTIE DO U COPY

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-01 05:06 am (UTC)(link)
[...]

I made a promise around the new year that I'd learn at least three new things, sort of like a resolution. I'd wanted to share some of them with Amami-kun, [quiet, quiet, but midori can hear,] but I can't anymore. I wanted to have more things to be proud of than just my pianist background.

[it had been fun until now, learning different things with others and then working to be able to show them off to her friend. so things had changed since then, and now they're changing again.]

I won't give up on that resolution, of course, it's just... a little difficult to think of it right now.
heroicpolonaise: (41)

? SHES CANT SHES LESBIAN FR NOW

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-01 06:03 am (UTC)(link)
[sometimes they come back. is it bad to hope for that? is it selfish? is she allowed that selfishness, if not for both then just for one? she doesn't know, but she wants to be allowed it anyway -- amami was important to her, and though there were some he was more important to that doesn't erase the fact that it still hurts that she saw his dead body for the second time in her life.

... it wasn't her fault then, and it wasn't her fault now, but... maybe if he'd trusted her, maybe this could have been avoided...? it's too soon to think of who, of why, of what happened, but that's the first thought that comes to mind regardless.

so it's nice, that midori's allowing her that. a missed step in the process so she can learn it right with her friend, who may return one day -- until then, she won't let herself know the full process.]


I'd like that very much.
heroicpolonaise: (60)

SUCKS TO BE U

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-02 03:34 am (UTC)(link)
[she wouldn't know the difference. wouldn't know what's on the packaging either, and she watches... what she can of his help, then looks down at his offered hand. her own curls against her side and she smiles, nodding.]

That sounds like a plan.

[and, without taking his hand, kaede'll move towards the common room. it's easier to give than to accept, even or maybe especially for the grieving, and... that's embarrassing, anyway. they barely know one another.]

Do you like making tea, Hiyori-kun? I didn't know some used cooler water, I thought you just boiled all of them.
heroicpolonaise: (12)

get on this clit bitch

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-03 04:59 pm (UTC)(link)
[every blend of tea... amazing. that sounds like a lot of tea, but for someone who has hundreds, thousands of musical pieces in her own mind, it isn't hard to imagine being able to keep track of some tea.]

Because... it would damage the flavor? It's like how you can't play every piece the same -- some require different pedals, or even the press of a finger. Right?
heroicpolonaise: (03)

u gotta be kind to queens midori!!!

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-03 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
It sounds perfect then, though... I'd feel bad if I relaxed too much after tonight.

[she has to solve this. she has to learn the truth, just like she did with amami's death before -- the only difference now is that she knows she didn't have any part in it, not even a smidge. her hands squeeze the edge of her skirt and she exhales softly, staring at the fireplace.]

We have to learn the truth. Even if it's painful, even if we'd rather look away. Sometimes... the hardest things to accept are the ones right in front of you, after all.

[why she hadn't stopped anyone's accusation streaks, not that midori would know. better to settle things and clear the air than to live with a cloud marked "unknown" over your heard; to some that's a comfort, a plausible deniability of their friend, but to others... to her...]

Amami-kun was a dear friend to me. Kamo-kun too, though they were more of a student than that. It's... strange, actually having time to grieve, I almost liked when I didn't.

[when she could actually focus on something, when she could put that griefful energy to something productive... but what of right now? it's too late to call anything. people need their time to grieve, too; she's learned that it's better to give that space, but it's hard. she doesn't want the space. she doesn't want the time. it gives her too much freedom to be wrapped up in herself, just like midori found her.]
heroicpolonaise: (04)

get hives

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-04 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
[purinami... nanamichi... those are cute. it takes her a moment to click on who they are and she ahs softly, nodding as she sits up more. definitely giving off the vibe of an earnest person who needs something to direct her energy at; she can grieve better later, but she wants to be able to do something now.]

Yes, please.
heroicpolonaise: (75)

GET HIVES

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-04 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
[sorry she isn't part of the philosophy drs her group is the "cut the shit" drs. no she doesn't want to think about what he means by it. yes she just wants to put it aside.]

Well... More than I'd like, I think... He's very, um, stabbable, apparently. According to his classmates.

[everyone seems to agree on this point.]

But I wouldn't be surprised if he did. Amami-kun's someone who loves adventures and going on them -- he's used to getting hurt, he probably doesn't even think twice about doing something dangerous. [it's fondly said, though, playing with the edge of her skirt as she smiles. it brings a new wash of grief over her at the same time, thinking of all the things they'd yet to talk about, to share.] I worry... worried a lot about him, but I admired that spontaneity of his too.
heroicpolonaise: (14)

YEAH

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-04 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
[it's nice that people can get so close to amami. and stab him. just in my personal opinion.

kaede pauses though, tilting her head as she looks down at her lap. diphenhydramine... she's not a pharmacist or anything, saihara might know since he's a detective but she could only ever play at it, just like she played at being an adventurer. in the end, she's only good at playing piano.]


... No, I don't know. What are they? And what do you mean, that he's one for ideas?
heroicpolonaise: (04)

tf is asunaro that it can cure anything. bezos ass ais

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-04 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
... That Amami-kun wasn't taking it for allergies.

[both because what allergies in winter and honestly she doesn't think someone like amami would be allergic to anything, given he travels so much. he would've built up an immunity or however that works, like people do for poisons. it's not a hesitant answer, just a thoughtful one; kaede knows full well the weight of the truth and how it can hang heavy on one's mind, on their heart.

she'll look at him, thinking latently on shin's words, and keeps them in mind as she continues.]


What are the side-effects of it, Hiyori-kun?
heroicpolonaise: (13)

im dyin why cant we escape capitalism even in death games

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-04 08:03 am (UTC)(link)
[the tea is done.

kaede doesn't make a move though, thinking of how peaceful the two seemed when she'd peeked in. so... then it was involved that way? was it an overdose? or was there something else? why, though... she's caught on the why, since she'd known keigo so important to amami, why would he do such a thing to them and himself?

but whys can be found out through others. midori wouldn't know; as he said, he only truly just awoke, he knows the objective facts of point a and b, and though kaede wishes she could deny and say amami would never... well.

the truth is always hardest to accept when it lies in front of you, and this is a possibility she can't turn her eyes from. not because she doesn't trust amami, but because she wants to -- and that means looking into every avenue. you can't find the truth looking away.]


Do you have any proof he used them?
heroicpolonaise: (02)

fisting can too

[personal profile] heroicpolonaise 2022-03-04 08:27 am (UTC)(link)
... A pale brown, or at least something closer to white. It isn't the color of hot cocoa.

[which is the point to make, she thinks. powders easily disguised by one another, twisting her stomach and heart. don't look away, don't look away.]

Just to confirm, the three of you found two cups with Amami-kun and Kamo-kun? And... in your professional opinion, do you think the amount taken would have been enough just to put them to sleep, or worse?

imma bout to fix midori

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imma take his nuts

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NOT MAYBE

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