[ Sara Chidouin did hit him hard, didn't she? It really hurt, and he couldn't move much while he was tied up! He would tell her precisely that in agreement, but her next words take him by surprise — he wouldn't have guessed any of that at all. Her apparent admiration (truly?), her feelings of resentment... And then there's the odd quality to her voice.
So she didn't think poorly of him, not even when he resorted to accepting the Crying Doll Tia Safalin's aid? Well, he has no complaints, if she means it, but she's leading him along a well-hidden trail. ]
Sara Chidouin...
[ The second vote — they were all divided. No part of it was easy, neither the discussions nor the choices, and in the end, the hardest decision to make was left to their leader. If she resented the rest of them for that, if that's her confession, then who could blame her? What a dreadful burden, sealing someone's fate. Nao Egokoro and Kanna Kizuchi died in agony. Shin Tsukimi's efforts were in vain.
Those memories are distressing to revisit, but Alice cocks his head at Sara, prompting her to continue. ]
[ She can't help rubbing her eyes a little. She never actually learned what Alice had thought of that choice. It's surprising that he doesn't sound angry at all, when he'd voted against her choice. ]
I know it wasn't the right choice now...what I picked... I was so scared, and angry, and hurt I wished I didn't have to be the one to choose. When Midori kept picking on us, all I kept thinking was, why is it always me?
[ Such bitter hateful thoughts, using that to fuel her steps forward despite all proclimations that she believed in everyone. Biting her lip isn't going to make the next part any easier. ]
Ranmaru asked if we should just win together. I...I was weak. I said a lot of things I shouldn't! Because of that...because I was so weak and I resented everyone...Ranmaru killed you Alice. There's nobody to blame for you being here other then me.
[ Why is it always Sara Chidouin? He'd called her a dictator once, mistakenly, yet he came to hand her the steering wheel, too. Again and again, she did what no one else could, for this reason or that — she isn't a mere schoolgirl, but who wouldn't be crushed beneath the weight of the leader's mantle around her shoulders? No doubt it began to feel like a ball and chain of her own to drag along, heavier and heavier.
There was no right choice.
Alice's eyes narrow, not in anger, but in puzzlement. ]
I... don't understand. I've told you — Ranmaru Kageyama wasn't there. It was... the ceiling. I suspect that Midori was behind it, since I was outside his operating room... I don't see how it could possibly be your fault, or Ranmaru Kageyama's, Sara Chidouin.
[ But she seems convinced of her guilt, or she wouldn't have summoned him here, telling him all of this to come clean. The desire to win... That strikes him as desperation, by then. ]
There was no such thing as a "right choice" anyway, you know. No matter what the final choice was, people who didn't deserve it would die, and suffer... all because of that insane game!
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So she didn't think poorly of him, not even when he resorted to accepting the Crying Doll Tia Safalin's aid? Well, he has no complaints, if she means it, but she's leading him along a well-hidden trail. ]
Sara Chidouin...
[ The second vote — they were all divided. No part of it was easy, neither the discussions nor the choices, and in the end, the hardest decision to make was left to their leader. If she resented the rest of them for that, if that's her confession, then who could blame her? What a dreadful burden, sealing someone's fate. Nao Egokoro and Kanna Kizuchi died in agony. Shin Tsukimi's efforts were in vain.
Those memories are distressing to revisit, but Alice cocks his head at Sara, prompting her to continue. ]
...It was difficult, wasn't it?
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[ She can't help rubbing her eyes a little. She never actually learned what Alice had thought of that choice. It's surprising that he doesn't sound angry at all, when he'd voted against her choice. ]
I know it wasn't the right choice now...what I picked... I was so scared, and angry, and hurt I wished I didn't have to be the one to choose. When Midori kept picking on us, all I kept thinking was, why is it always me?
[ Such bitter hateful thoughts, using that to fuel her steps forward despite all proclimations that she believed in everyone. Biting her lip isn't going to make the next part any easier. ]
Ranmaru asked if we should just win together. I...I was weak. I said a lot of things I shouldn't! Because of that...because I was so weak and I resented everyone...Ranmaru killed you Alice. There's nobody to blame for you being here other then me.
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There was no right choice.
Alice's eyes narrow, not in anger, but in puzzlement. ]
I... don't understand. I've told you — Ranmaru Kageyama wasn't there. It was... the ceiling. I suspect that Midori was behind it, since I was outside his operating room... I don't see how it could possibly be your fault, or Ranmaru Kageyama's, Sara Chidouin.
[ But she seems convinced of her guilt, or she wouldn't have summoned him here, telling him all of this to come clean. The desire to win... That strikes him as desperation, by then. ]
There was no such thing as a "right choice" anyway, you know. No matter what the final choice was, people who didn't deserve it would die, and suffer... all because of that insane game!