network: n.ebalon

[silentabyss]

hey

what do you guys do when you're sad or upset or depressed?

i guess i'm asking for advice

no i am not going to go see the counselor.

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[samuraiwomen]

Just tell myself I need to work hard, I guess.

Looking to the future helps. If I think about what I want to do to help everyone, I don't have time to be sad. Our friends wouldn't want us to be sad...

[silentabyss]

i guess

i know add doesn't want me to be sad but i can't not be sad when someone i was friends with dies. him and everyone else

i don't know what i have to look forward to exactly since i'll go home and it'll be the same as it is here.

[samuraiwomen]

I know...it doesn't get easier... It's just a weight. I wish I had a way to make it stop being so heavy.

Like, even if I know they might come back here, it still hurts. I want them back now. They're our friends. I know I'll get over it, but I don't want to...

[ A pause and then. ]

I talked to the god in the woods after Amami and Keigo died.

They said they could send me home, if I wanted...but I don't want to. They said it might be possible we could all go somewhere else...could be alive again somewhere else...if we tried hard. Wouldn't it be nice if we could all go live our lives somewhere pleasant?

[silentabyss]

you got to talk to the god? i was gonna go at some point, but i guess it sort of fell off my radar

i guess it'd be nice to live somewhere pleasant, yeah, but id want to go to the same place as others. i dont want to be separated from clamor especially, even if it's another life and maybe the new "noah" wouldnt know. i dont know

the whole thing just makes me sad

[samuraiwomen]

They were pretty helpful.

That's what I mean. We should all go together! Not reincarnation, not going home, just all of us somewhere new and nice. I don't want to give anyone here up. Not for anything.

If I think about that...that's less sad. Like, what hot drinks would you get with Add-chan and Komeada at a café? Something like that to dream about...

un: r. furude; cw underage drinking mentions

[miisdealt]

Drink if I'm alone.

Play games with others if I'm not. Anything that's a distraction makes it easier to not think.

[silentabyss]

i guess so

liquor is gross tho i had it once and it was pretty bad

[thank you noah]

i can be self destructive sometimes so i wouldn't trust myself to not fall into a bad habit if i actually liked the stuff, but... i guess other distractions work sometimes

[miisdealt]

Honestly, there are different types of liquor. Some of them taste a little different, but my favorite has always been a particular wine. Although I will admit that I dilute it so that I don't lose myself.

Games with my friends always helped me, but I can't say that would work for everyone. Doing things you enjoy with people you care about always lessens the sadness of suffering, even if it's just temporary.

[silentabyss]

i see...

sometimes i draw... well ok a lot of the time i draw, but sometimes i do it when i'm sad. sometimes it's productive and sometimes everything i draw becomes scribbles that i make in some fugue state, so i don't know

what kinds of games do you play??

a.yabusame

[shimashima]

[ Ugh, the counselor... The remark makes Alice wonder all over again what possessed him to go there in the first place, but there's no traveling back in time. ]

Advice, you say?

Well, do you like music?

[ Though that's only a distraction, at best, he supposes, and his own success is debatable... ]

[silentabyss]

yeah i like music

but i dont have one of those music playing... technology... thingies that some people have

[a phone, an MP3 player, an iPod, take your pick, Noah barely knows what those are or what they even do.]

ive never really tried to play it either

[shimashima]

That simply means that you have a few options. For example, you could borrow the necessary equipment and available CDs to listen to it with others. Or you could learn to play with them, or even sing. Music is the door to endless possibilities!

By the way, it seems we should thank you.

[silentabyss]

huh... ive never thought of it like that. ill try it some time. kaede-noona is good at the piano so maybe ill ask her to play something for me

why are you thanking me?? :O

un: s.hiyori

[antitoxin]

Sometimes I find myself writing poetry, have you ever tried?

[silentabyss]

poetry... no, i havent tried that. i wouldnt know where to start

[antitoxin]

There's always a chance to learn something new, especially when you can share it with another person who may need it.
Perhaps I can get you both a book and pencil, it'll be what you use only to write poetry; it'll be special.

[silentabyss]

really? if you go that far ill definitely give it a shot

i should probably read more poetry before trying to write some first though...

m.hiyori but irl

[socialize]

Noah...

( it's not her typing, but maple's voice that greets noah from over his shoulder once his post is up. she'd seen his network post and now, she rounds and leans over to get a good look at his expression, eyes soft with worry as her gaze lifts to meet his. she offers a faint smile, and taking his hands in hers, she'll place a still-warm cupcake in them. )

Sugar is good for your mood. Do you have a few minutes?

[silentabyss]

[Noah just sort of... stares at the cupcake, like he's not sure what to do with it at first, until he registers Maple's words. In his distracted, miserable haze, he supposes he wouldn't have registered the scent of cupcakes baking; any other day he would've stumbled into the kitchen and asked if he could have one.

Carefully, he unwraps the cupcake, turning to look up at Maple.]

Is it...? Thanks. ...I have time. I'm just lamenting, I guess.

[socialize]

It's a lot to take in, isn't it? To think that it all happened under our noses... So scary...

( there's genuine sadness in her voice, and on one hand, it sounds like something far away from her—something separate. at the same time, her gaze does drop momentarily, looking forlorn as her eyes rest on their shoes. there's a spark in them though, when she looks up—something hopeful. she'll wait for him to finish unwrapping that cupcake, and when he does, she offers her hand again. you know the drill, noah. please hold. )

Why don't we go somewhere more relaxing?

[silentabyss]

[He knows the drill. This time, he doesn't hesitate to take her time, though that same pink fluster comes over his cheeks as it always does. Noah will always be useless at this sort of thing, it seems.

Cupcake in one hand, Maple in the other, he nods, sticking his tongue out to lick some of the frosting thereafter. No, he will not wait to eat this, thank you.]

Okay. Lead the way.

[That cupcake is going to be devoured by the time they get there.]

w.ajax

[devouringdeep]

Generally speaking, when feeling under the weather I find it best to seek out the company of those I care for. Barring that, if such a thing is not possible due to various circumstances, I write to them.

You should see the growing collection of letters I intend to deliver to my sister once we're free of this place. I've definitely filled out my fair share notebooks and then some.

[silentabyss]

i guess that would work... i could try to write to yuria. i dont know what id say... "hey i made friends and they all died horribly" doesnt sound like a good thing to talk about

[He's... really sad about Add right now.]

un: n.sakasaki

[crystallomancy]

( wow, a question made just for him!

but it's difficult to say, all the same, especially to noah. )

Practiced My Magic.
Honed My Skills.
Created A New World In My VR System.
Made Chawamushi And Marshmallows For Offerings.
Put Up A Picture Of Amami-kun Over My Bed To Remind Myself Of Who I'm Living To Kill.

( ... )

That Last One Is A Joke. I Couldn't Get Any Pictures Of Him.
I Suppose You Could Say I Did Anything That Would Distract Me, In Short.
But That's Just How I Deal With It. When I Watched My Fellow Eccentrics Fall To That Blockhead Emperor, I Decided To Save Who I Could And Show Him He Wasn't Allowed To Put A Pretty Little Bow On The Past.
I Had Plenty Of Sleepless Nights Then, Too.

[silentabyss]

i could draw you a picture of him but i don't want you to kill amami :/

[thank you noah]

i just wish it were easier to be distracted without giving into negative thoughts you know? every time i try i feel like i get derailed