yogen | npc contact.2

Why

are you not going to use phones?

Don't introduce more people into this hypothetical
If I were to be involved with someone, it would be somebody who's there for me
Who's encouraging, fun, isn't afraid to talk about serious matters
Who makes life worth living
Etc
He'd be somebody like that

she. rokkun, in this hypothetical, your significant other is a female by the name of nagita-san.

( not the he, i'm sick, not the way he exposes himselffffffffffffffffff. imma be SICK. )

but, i can't argue with your heart if you feel there's someone else aside from her that fits that criteria better.

I do.

[ The answer is immediate, but the conviction behind it... If he were to be honest with himself, he does love them— wants to love them— is scared of loving them, is scared of not having that love reciprocated, of him having become so different that he would only disappoint them.

That deep raw pain of loving someone with all your soul, and when they look at you, all they see is a stranger. Being gutted again and again and again and again and it never gets easier.

The way they wouldn't meet his eyes in that elevator, and the trepidation when they finally did. The way they clung to him, cried on him, every bit as warm and soft as he remembers, but this time, he gets to be hugged back. ]

...Yeah. I do.

( It's a little insane, yeah, and he knows there's more people without that experience than there are with it. But on the other hand, Yumenosaki Academy is a private school, so the majority of the students there are comfortably well-off if not flat-out wealthy, or influential in some other way. )

...I'd be lying if I said that hadn't been a part of your appeal in the beginNING. ( What person doesn't see someone unapproachable and doesn't think, "I'd like to be the exception to that rule?" ) But NO, that isn't the reason I'm interested in YOU.

It isn't even in the top ten reaSONS. ( Reasons, because he has more than one, and he watches her expression with the subtle turn of his head. ) Outside of a romantic aspect, TOO. I told you once that I had my reasons for talking with you and that it wasn't a chore to do SO, and that it was worth my reasons, didn't I?

( Reasons isn't even a word anymore. And a little softer: )

That hasn't CHANGED. I still like you as much now as I did THEN.

( ...

Back to his usual tone, he's glad the home ec room is close to the stairs and the stairs aren't too many and the music room is also close to the stairs so he can just get the door for her and gesture her in, there's a performance to be had, we're halfway through date activities now—

Like the classroom before the tea break, there's a seat for her to take audience-distance from the piano. Otherwise, there's nothing too special... He knows how much she cares about this place and in particular her lovely instrument, he's refrained from messing around too much. )

Take a seat and I'll beGIN.

[ tfw you're happy somebody noticed something but also horrified he doesn't have the common sense to not point it out ]

I do
Anyways, what do you think?

[ Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm... well, if he's Amami approved. ]

Who wouldn't want to hang around Tarou-nii all the time?

Yeah, who wouldn't? Ama-chan's awesome.

[thank goodness komaeda is kind]

I'd have everybody I need with me
Who would I need to call?

...
hm... that type of person you spoke about.
i can understand why you search for those traits, you're a complicated person.
too far gone in your own thoughts, if there's no one to speak to you on a serious level, then you're left to what you think is right and wrong.
someone to ground you...

me! who else?

...

( ... )

...Everyone wants to be under an Ultimate's umbrella, but there's no need to be so close. As long as Amami-kun's light is still burning brightly, I wouldn't want anything to happen to his hope!

Then show it.

( that concept called love, if he has the chance to give all of it, then he should while there's still a chance — considering this is the person rokkun has been searchig for since the beginning, the reason he strived towards graduation — he shouldn't give it up because they're older. even hinata doesn't give up on komaeda because he's changed, he's not the same individual who has both their hands that belong to him — he's older now, someone who cut away his body for the sake of hope, drenched in despair, and having drowned in it a long time ago. despite the fact hinata doesn't know his entire life, it's not like rokkun and npckun know their lives so far either — in the end, he's still treated like the person before; and he thinks they should do the same in kind. )

Let them know so they can confide in you, if you stand there watching... blocking everything out, they'll be lost to the landscape, and this reality isn't an art you can change at your will. More than enough time has passed for the world to change completely. Yes, even our world can change just that quickly. Like a watercolor painting caught in the rain.

[ Her expression, as he talks about his reasons, borderlines embarrassed and trying not to look like she's embarrassed. She's absolutely not going to ask for those reasons, she doesn't need to know, even though she had assumed the only reason he talked with her in the first place was for information— because of that one message she'd written on the forum, because she became school president, because she's been here and knows just slightly more than him who woke up knowing nothing. There was no reason to want to get to know her, or try to be friends, or take her out on a date... is what she believed, anyways.

...No, not thoughts she wants to touch upon right now, pulling herself out of her head and focusing on the stairs in front of her. Too many conversations were held in this stairwell. Another thought she sweeps out of her mind.

She's quiet when she enters the music room and finds her chair, pulling it just a little bit forward when she lowers herself into it, sits up a little bit straighter. To watch his hands, inarguably her favorite part of a live piano performance. ]

( Natsume settles at the piano, resting his fingers on the keys; he isn't lying when he says (complains) that things he tries he picks up too easily, because piano is one of them. It isn't exactly his favorite thing, and he doesn't have that much of interest in it, but it suits a purpose right now. Which is to serenade her, an idea he was proud of having before about twenty minutes ago, give or take five, but he told her he'd perform for her. And so:

He plays, and he sings too, maybe a little more aware of the words of his song now than he's ever been before.

Because for marketing purposes, a solo is either about the idol themselves or a piece of fanservice, but this— isn't either of those. This is for her, a gently played melody with a gently sung story of a romance that isn't entirely unlike the way he's treated her. Not just today, but other days, too.

Maybe he should have changed his mind on which song to play before he'd made it up here; maybe he had, somewhere in the back of his mind, but he'd found himself hitting the keys for this one instead, and...

Natsume pulls his hands to his lap when it's over, half-wishing he were in a recording studio with people asking him to make this part softer, make that part stronger, to imagine himself in the role of that protagonist he played recently who was in love with a girl far too busy for things like relationships—

...he looks at her, expression teetering somewhere between embarrassed and trying not to be embarrassed. )

[ Rokkun eating the chocolate part and saving the very end for Komaeda. ]

Really?
Hopefully it stays that way
Better than overcast skies all week

( aw, he gives him the bread part. yeah, komaeda would pull that part out rokkun's mouth and eat it, he'd forgo the kiss. )

as long as you talk to me, it will.

( smooth................... )

[ me, like three days ago: if Natsume manages to make Maya smile, I'll edit and upload a new icon for that thread
Natsume: manages to accomplish the exact opposite, where I had to take one of her only smiling icons and make it wholly embarrassed

Which is to say, Maya's expression looks wholly embarrassed, eyes remaining on his hands the entire way through and following them to his lap at the end of the song so that she's not looking up at him, cheeks flushed despite the indisputable, logical, objective fact that it's just a song— not one written specially for her, not one she's supposed to read too much into.

Natsume does always manage to surprise her, though. It's not always in good ways, but there's times like this, where she'd sat down expecting a piano solo and nothing more, certainly not a serenade about the peevish look in her eyes, or that- that he's a thorn in her side and that's why she can't not think about him. Or of all the times he had held his hand out to her. Or his warmth when she finally took it.

.....................................

What do you even do in a situation like this except sit and stare and be embarrassed for somebody else and also yourself. ]

( Oh, good, she also sort of looks like she wants to die. Perfect.

It's because of this song's lyrics he chose it to sing, but in the wake of ... today ... it's embarrassing rather than sweet and romantic and he's going to clear his throat, turning on the piano seat to face her. )

Red suits YOU, Little Wolf.

[ STOP don't look at her ]

No better than it suits you.

I'm seriOUS. I always am with YOU.

( ... )

Also, red is my image coLOR, so I'd hope it actually suits me quite WELL.

[ Is he always serious with her? him who says things to piss her off and then goes "just kidding" don't think she forgets all those times ]

I'm always serious.

[ to a fault, with everyone. Even though that was a kneejerk retort than a sincere complement. ]

You would look nice in black. Too much red stands out... it gets loud and annoying.

[ Too much, all the time, I googled his cards and he really is just flashy reds and purples and blues, he's too much ]

That's easier said than done.

[ He can preach it, but Komaeda, showing love? ...

Rokkun breathes a sigh, leaning back. ]

I get it, though. You're wrong about one thing, though: reality is an art I'm going to change at my will. I'll make it work, and bring things back to how it's supposed to be.

( HE'S THE RED ONE IN SWITCHHHH HE HAS NO CHOICE )

...I do prefer darker colORS, so I'll conCEDE. ( your local goth tiktok eboy. ) Did you enjoy the perforMANCE?

( please. )

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