yogen | npc contact.2

...A NEET? My life is falling apart right in front of me...

( yes, he's a senpai holding his papers in hand like he's ready to die, and he'll take a step back until he's standing right next to npckun.

hope there's another teacher in faculty who watches over nene's class, and actually asks about her — is she sick too? not the first years also getting sick... third years are contagious. )

I'd rather stay locked in my room... ( cough behind scarf... the fakest ass cough he can muster but it sounds real because he's sick anyway... ) I-Is there anything else... like... extra credit...

No.

[ They look up at Komaeda, catching his gaze and holding it there. ]

Love is... it's when you always want to be near someone, when just being around them feels enough. When they look at you, you feel warm, and when they hug you, you feel even warmer...

[ hugs Komaeda, demonstratively ]

It's when you notice little things about them, and it's those little things make you happy. You look up to them, do your best for them, and wish the world for them. When you treasure every moment you have together... that's love.

[ ...

so say it ]

[ Like what she does here, and like what he... did and does, because it's easiest to draw example from experience. ]

Everything you do matters. It may not feel like it, but your time is but a drop in the ocean of your soul. The embrace of your mother when you were first born... the person you faced when you took your first steps... kind words exchanged with a stranger on the way to school... You do not remember such things, do you? Nor what you ate for supper exactly ten years ago from now, nor the color of the first pair of shoes you learned to tie. Memories gone in the next moment still matter.

[ Death and rebirth, an endless cycle of opening your eyes and closing them, never knowing anything, always having to relearn everything, it would be so easy to say that none of what happens here matters when everything's just going to be reset, but it does matter. It matters so much, and he needs Nene to know. ]

Little by little such things mold the soul, and yours is a compassionate and willful one, lass. When you move onto the next life, and forget everything that you did and saw and were, the soul you so carefully nurtured will not forget.

[ Maybe he can buy vacation days, but it'll be tough when npckun can't offer him an upper limit of what that might cost. This is just going to keep them from going outside at night ever again anyways, with a little furrow of the brows as they look the machine over first before reaching out and getting it to work. The room isn't dark enough to fully appreciate the stars speckling the walls and ceiling, but, ]

The stars are always there, even in the daytime. [ they say like it's one of those Cool Science Facts you learn at school and bring home to tell your parents ]

My old bedroom used to be covered in stars too, so it wouldn't be as dark. [ ...no, don't think about home. They look up from the machine at Amami instead. ] Thanks, Tarou-nii, for thinking of me.

You bring me food, and you let me hide under a desk! [ Teachers don't do either of these things! ] I haven't done anything wrong yet...right?

[ First they've heard of consequences for them getting it wrong...they're nervous now. ]

Rokuro would need to come up to my desk to help me instead of sitting alone... It's okay if he doesn't want too. I don't really know how to deal with people feeling obligated. [ If he just helps them because Komeada asks, it would be weird. ]

[ 1-B's homeroom teacher watches this happen and makes a mental note to bring a bag of honey lemon cough drops tomorrow just in case the students need them, third years stay away.

Extra credit, though... hm... Normally the teacher wouldn't give extra credit, but Shin is ...doing his best. Getting better, all things considered, and maybe this sudden interest in schoolwork would best be rewarded.

Extra credit is a 10 page 12 point font single spaced essay on a marine animal of his choosing. ]

[ Wait, he brings Crona food but not—-

never mind, doesn't matter. still not touching that friend thing ]

If you need help, I don't mind, but you'll have to come to my desk, Crona.

[ Otherwise he's imagining them calling for him from across the room and expecting him to come over and sit on the ground where they're lying. ]

I haven't heard any gnats buzzing about.

[there are many bugs to listen to, in this school, but his words don't make full sense. her long skirt swishes softly as she turns in the direction of the voice - it's more polite, isn't it, to face those who speak to you, even if you can't see them. still, the scents and the sounds tell her much, and the little gasp of recognition she makes comes before a brighter tone of voice.]

You're the gardener I've heard of! Oh, I was hoping I might run into you one day, so I could tell you thank you for your hard work. It can't be easy keeping everything in shape.

You've done nothing wrong, as I said, you answer correctly so you have no reason to be punished!

( he'll pat crona's head with his mechanical hand to reassure them. )

Hmm... why don't you two push your desks together, that way you can sit next to each other all the time... ( he nods. ) your teacher seemed pretty lax about it last time.

( the way crona wants rokkun to come to their desk, the way crona has to come to rokkun's desk... why don't they just meet in the middle? )

[ He gets serious about these things and then Komaeda does just the opposite and it's frustrating every time, evident in his frown and narrowed eyes, the way he looks away from Komaeda when he touches his face. ]

A promise is a promise. We'll be working together, then. [ adjacent together, not together together ] So you aren't allowed to mope anymore when bad things happen. It'll only make the person stronger, isn't that what you always said?

[ Stepping stones, or something. Komaeda's always enthusiastically bringing it up, so he should have no problems with Rokuro making his stupid choices and getting hurt by them. ]

Not yet.

[ By the time they come, she won't be able to hear them anyways. Don't worry about it.

The brightness in her voice does take him by surprise, though, especially in conjunction with being recognized as "the gardener" aka the people-eating courtyard monster ]

I did not realize I was so spoken of. But you are correct: I am the school's gardener, and I tend to the plants in this courtyard, making sure they stay well, and do not get too lonely.

( all he's ever loved is... hope, and maybe someone else, but to apply that to others — it feels so foreign, a concept he doesn't believe he should indulge in. if he loves something, then he knows in the end that an unfortunate event will turn and take them away. he's seen it many times, and he could use his dog for example, that was the only creature that loved him, and he felt loved back.

to love other people... to want to be near them... he does, he likes attention, wants to be covered in it if he just wasn't so unhealthy for them. well, in the end... love comes down to the ultimates because... he looks up to them, he wants to o his best... he'd wish the world for them so... )

...What if—-

( he lets npckun hug him, and he doesn't draw away from them at all, instead he stands there thinking about what warm feeling he's supposed to have. he wraps his arms around them, but from behind his fingers press against the back of his hand to see... if he's any warmer. he's still cool, the same as always, so he hugs a little tighter waiting for the effect to start. he hums, leaning just a bit to rest his chin on the top of npckun's head as he listens. )

...being around them is bad? ...What do you do when that love will be short-lived? Is it worth it?

Punishment...I can't deal with punishment??? I like having all my nails and my nose not being broken, if I had to do schoolwork without nails I'd get the paper all bloody and I couldn't even read numbers. Can I just keep doing a good job?

[ The headpats aren't helping...Komeada why. They're not a good student at anything else...they're gonna mess up hope eventually. ]

Push together? But then I'd have to sit at the desk... [ The floor..its their home. They shake their head with a sigh, frowning up at them both. ] It's okay Komeada, you don't have to try so hard to make us get along. Rokuro seems okaaaaay. Scary, but okay!

[ If they forced the scary lonely guy in the back to just sit next to him, maybe that would make class even scarier, without Komeada around. If he says he'll help if he asks...then maybe Crona will, if they feel really desperate. ]

( komaeda pauses, there's something about extra credit that just... is shin's life that bad he needs THAT? 10 pages 12 point font single spaced essay doesn't sound that bad either — octopus are fun, he thinks, but he'll leave that up to shin to decide. or he could get npckun to write it up, and then force shin to buy the document so he can turn it in to get an A in his class at least. )

R-Really...

( sniffle cough wheeze.

he hands over the rubric to npckun to hold since they're larping nene, and the 1-B teacher isn't so concerned about the condition of that student aside from the lemon candies. as for komaeda tsukimi? well, he's going to take a step closer, reaching for the teacher's shirt, and with a sob...

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blow his nose right into their shirt because of how grateful he is. )

No one's ever done this for me before... aha... I'll do my best... ( cough wheeze sniffle ) ...Then Miss Sara will be proud... of me...

( he dabs his eyes a bit to wipe away the fake tears...

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okay, he's ready to turn around and walk... they got what they needed... )

TEACHER'S GONNA FAIL SHIN I'M CRYING

Mmm... it's something I stand by.

( when bad things happen, something better comes from it — that's why it's important to see everything through to the end no matter what. )

I can mope anytime I want... I feel a little depressed right now... ( even if rokkun looks away, komaeda removes his hand after, and he thinks that maybe rokkun doesn't want to be touched by him. he looks at his hand, agreeing to himself that he is trash... so. )

What's your plan? You're aware, aren't you? The things that I do to spread hope... no one here likes it, and what if I get in your way...

( so tell him what's happening so he can avoid doing that. )

SHIN WAS SICK HAVE PITY ON HIM

HAVE PITY!

( Memories........ Yeah he's not gonna look over there, thanks. )

It's always nice to find someone you click with easily in a new PLACE. Were you around for the year everyone graduated with no proBLEMS? I was rather happy to hear about that from Arata-sensei—it gives me hope for our current crop of senIORS.

( The look Natsume gives him is exasperated like "duh" )

Dying from WHAT, Senpai? From what Nagito-san, it didn't sound like Tsukinaga-senpai had been injured or anything like THAT.

( memories! )

Those were simpler times, but everyone is so hard working now... I bet you can't wait to see who graduates this year out of the third years, I'm cheering for 3-...

( thinking, thinking, what's a class he's not attached to so it's not like he's choosing favorites: )

3-B.

( yeah, yeah. ) I wish Okane-san could be here to witness it...

( IMPS AREN'T MONSTERS )

...You should say hi to Haruka-chan when you see HER. She likes meeting people who can see HER. ( just. as a note. but anyway— ) If it isn't a spiRIT, why can't regular people see IT? Unless you're discounting it just because it's a terrifying sea monster-like existence that enjoys eating peoPLE.

( the WH oh, wait, nene's ghost probably. )

...I'd ask what kind of ghost hangs out in a bathROOM, but there's quite a common urban legend about one back HOME. ( hanako-chan. ) Don't worry about IT, Little Owlet. A friend of a friend's soul... well, part of it anyWAY, wandered off some months aGO, so I've been looking for it for HER.

Grieving...

[ Why does that make her feel so strange? ]

I care. It's just, before I transferred, you know, there were lots of times when I didn't have any time to grieve if someone died. Before that, I don't know if I'd ever seen anyone die before.

[ Her grandparents are alive, her parents are fine, and she's never had any pets... She looks down at her hands, flexing her fingers slightly. It feels odd to ask, but its not like the nurse will tell anyone. ]

What do you do, to pay respects?

( matter-of-fact and extremely cute of them, amami appreciates that, and he'll make sure to keep it in mind. something about subaru always being there for them too probably goes here, but that's beside the point. )

Yeah, no problem. You'll appreciate it more than I would anyway, so.

( he kind of trails off with that, like he didn't really think through where to go from here, but give him a minute and he'll pick up again. )

Have you already eaten today?

[fortunately(?) she knows nothing about the people-eating monster part of it all. to her, he's simply someone who exists here - and it's not been so long that she could have forgotten being unable to be outside. in that respect, the courtyard has a precious memory of breathing in fresh air, and someone who took care of it...well, thanking him feels natural.]

Do they often get lonely? I hadn't thought about them like that before.

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