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yogen2021-10-01 08:39 am
crystallomancy) wrote in yogen2021-10-01 08:39 am
i'm getting a good grade in yogen lore, which is something normal people definitely try to get
Who: Whoever's in the dormitories
When: Friday, October 1st
What: It's time for a little lecture. And a genuine information meeting. But mostly a lecture.
Warnings: N/A please don't make me change this.
( Early in the morning, a curious text gets posted. )
N.Sakasaki
( ...In less coded news, the dormitory's study hall will have a note taped to it:
Yogen and You: A Quick Summary
Held by Natsume Sakasaki
For those who need a summary of events, whether because our meetings rarely get anything done in terms of information sharing or because you're freshly awakened. Come around dinner time for food, enlightenment, and the opportunity to share your troubles with those going through the same thing.
The room will be locked all day until about half an hour before six, at which point it will become unlocked... this is primarily for Natsume to set up a table of food, but people can come sit in early if they like. There's an overhead projector that's been wheeled into the study hall all the way from school, and the curtains are drawn over the windows. It isn't dark though, since he still has the lights turned on...
Several tables have been pushed together to make at least three groups, chairs around them like they've been readied for a dinner party, while a few more are pushed a little further back and have absolutely no chairs whatsoever; those are for the food. There's also a chair by the overhead projector.
Your food and drink for tonight: lemon and rosemary roasted shrimp, white rice, rosemary and thyme chicken, a make-your-own-salad area with all kinds of salad-making ingredients, three types of eggrolls (seafood, vegetable, and pork), and various drinks from the vending machine because some of us can afford to spend a bunch of merit points on things like that.
When a sufficient amount of people have come in, or the clock hits 6:05, Natsume shuts the door, turns off the lights, and moves to the overhead projector. To stand on the chair, so he's the tallest person in here, and claps his hands to get people's attention. )
Save all questions and outbursts until the END, ( he says, and then kneels down on the chair and flicks the projector on.
All of the slides are pre-written on some transparent sheets that project onto a wall without windows, which he reads one by one without rushing! But for ease of reading OOCly, you can find the entire thing here. There's also photocopied handouts for people on all of the tables, stapled of course, so people who aren't blind (sorry Helena) can follow along at home!
He lets the last sheet stay up, his face half-illuminated by the overhead projector, then sits down in the chair and leans forward the back of it like some kind of delinquent. )
Alright, you can speak NOW.
( ooc notes: go ahead and treat this like one of our meetings, aka mingle, jump around, actually get a chance to share information that hasn't been talked about yet, etc. thank you plenty to enh and peace too for reviewing and suggesting things for the presentation \o/ )
When: Friday, October 1st
What: It's time for a little lecture. And a genuine information meeting. But mostly a lecture.
Warnings: N/A please don't make me change this.
( Early in the morning, a curious text gets posted. )
N.Sakasaki
DRM-STDYHLL
1800HRS
( ...In less coded news, the dormitory's study hall will have a note taped to it:
Yogen and You: A Quick Summary
Held by Natsume Sakasaki
For those who need a summary of events, whether because our meetings rarely get anything done in terms of information sharing or because you're freshly awakened. Come around dinner time for food, enlightenment, and the opportunity to share your troubles with those going through the same thing.
The room will be locked all day until about half an hour before six, at which point it will become unlocked... this is primarily for Natsume to set up a table of food, but people can come sit in early if they like. There's an overhead projector that's been wheeled into the study hall all the way from school, and the curtains are drawn over the windows. It isn't dark though, since he still has the lights turned on...
Several tables have been pushed together to make at least three groups, chairs around them like they've been readied for a dinner party, while a few more are pushed a little further back and have absolutely no chairs whatsoever; those are for the food. There's also a chair by the overhead projector.
Your food and drink for tonight: lemon and rosemary roasted shrimp, white rice, rosemary and thyme chicken, a make-your-own-salad area with all kinds of salad-making ingredients, three types of eggrolls (seafood, vegetable, and pork), and various drinks from the vending machine because some of us can afford to spend a bunch of merit points on things like that.
When a sufficient amount of people have come in, or the clock hits 6:05, Natsume shuts the door, turns off the lights, and moves to the overhead projector. To stand on the chair, so he's the tallest person in here, and claps his hands to get people's attention. )
Save all questions and outbursts until the END, ( he says, and then kneels down on the chair and flicks the projector on.
All of the slides are pre-written on some transparent sheets that project onto a wall without windows, which he reads one by one without rushing! But for ease of reading OOCly, you can find the entire thing here. There's also photocopied handouts for people on all of the tables, stapled of course, so people who aren't blind (sorry Helena) can follow along at home!
He lets the last sheet stay up, his face half-illuminated by the overhead projector, then sits down in the chair and leans forward the back of it like some kind of delinquent. )
Alright, you can speak NOW.
( ooc notes: go ahead and treat this like one of our meetings, aka mingle, jump around, actually get a chance to share information that hasn't been talked about yet, etc. thank you plenty to enh and peace too for reviewing and suggesting things for the presentation \o/ )
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( color him surprised. komaeda's mouth parts for a moment as he watches the other, and then closes right after as he tries to understand if that's a joke. most people who understand the nature of their death shouldn't be shocked that they're standing with other deceased people, but he lifts a hand to his chest as if he's saddened by the other's grief. )
Is this what denial looks like... it's fine, once people take your lead, they won't care about being dead! You've showed your outstanding hope before, so as long as you can do it again...
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[He has trouble vocalizing a word for a moment. Komaeda's words don't sit right with him. In a familiarly sickening way. That's right... it brings him back to the way Komaeda spoke to him back when they first met. He said something about him dying... and now here he is, talking about denial. Denial. Death. A searing pain in his head.
Ishimaru takes a breath and closes his eyes.]
Komaeda-kun... What do you know about me? Do you truly know me as someone who- who has died...?
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( the words come out softly, gently so that he doesn't break the other at all.
he knows from the black book written up by the future foundation, he knows of the other's father that the kid's hunted down as an adult that they wanted to kill. there's a lot about the other that isn't a mystery to him, but it's all most the important details that makes up his talent, what class he's from, how his own killing game started, the reason he died, who the culprit was... things of that matter. )
To ask me that directly... ( he knows the other wouldn't play about this, he's way too serious for that, but there's nothing about this to be naïve about. ) What do you remember before coming here?
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[He feels like Komaeda is the last person he wants to have this conversation with, but as it stands, he might be the only person here who knows. And right now, with what they've just learned, he knows he needs to confirm this for sure. He clears his throat and looks down as he speaks.]
The last thing I remember... [He rubs at his head.] I was at one with my brother's soul at the time. And... a lot had happened. I had received a note, which told me of a hidden exit from the school. So I went to check it out promptly!
[He shifts uncomfortably.]
But when I was there... something happened. I am sure it was Yamada-kun who was there. He... attacked me so swiftly. With... something over the head? It... was an incredible pain, like no other. I... I then blacked out, and... that is the last thing I remember be-before coming here.
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( no, he recalls it vividly, he remembers the information written in that book, the whole plan of celestia ludenberg, and her talented manipulation of not just one person, but two. he's never met her face to face, but there's something to be applauded about the amount of gambling that went into her set up. )
Yamada-kun was pretty jealous, so it's understandable how this led to your series of unfortunate events. Don't worry, I can fill in the blanks you must have forgotten due to your head trauma.
( he takes a step closer as he places a hand on his hip, and looks off to the side to recall what he had read. it was quite the case, if komaeda can say so himself, but it was unfortunate how quickly someone of ishimarus status had went down so easily. they just don't make hope like they used to, well, until now.
thank you, maya. )
Hifumi Yamada-kun, the Ultimate Fanfic Creator, attacked you with Justice Hammer #4! ( he says this slow, making sure the other processes it. ) A weapon that would be used to solve your murder, or well... both of your cases, considering he followed suit not too long after.
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In any case, Komaeda clearly knows what he's talking about. Just like how he alluded to Mondo in the past, he must really have knowledge of what happened in the killing game. That makes it hard to deny his account.]
J-Justice Hammer... Number 4...? [He breathes shallowly as he tries to process each part of that. Such a ridiculous name belongs to the weapon that Yamada attacked him with... that Yamada killed him with.
Hifumi Yamada killed him. He's dead.
Hearing his and Yamada's death described as 'cases' only adds to the blow. Is that how his life turned out in the end, after all his hard work? Just another murder case for his friends to solve!
His tears flow bitterly.]
So that's it! He... he really did kill me! And then... he was killed too...
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( whoever they implies, komaeda doesn't seem so keen on explaining rather its hope this and hope that, he lifts a hand to place over his heart. he sighs softly, watching the other come to terms, but it's different than what he wanted. rather than understanding and not pitying himself for being dead, and moving on with this life here... he's instead in the vicegrip of the past, swept up... recalling, remembering. )
Why are you crying? ( he's confused, yes... he cants his head to the side, eyes blinking slow. ) You died, and yet here you are given a chance to expose your blinding hope to the world. ( he knows too much yet he doesn't know enough, he's learning how sensitive the other is, but to see it up close as he thinks back — most things were written on paper, but to see it for himself... ultimates are amazing! he takes a few steps closer, raises his organic hand, and he cups ishimaru's face gently, and his thumb (cold like the rest of him) wipes away the tears. )
Classmates killing classmates, one student becoming the blackened in order to get away, only failing because your peers utilized your death to stop them! Hope that blossomed so quickly, you assisted them more in death... and yet, you're crying... Don't regret such a beautiful thing, you understand don't you... because of you... they were given a chance! So smile! Laugh to your heart's content!
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...Of course Komaeda comes in to wipe the cheeks. If it weren't for his words riling him up, Ishimaru might have been unresponsive enough to let him keep doing that. But as it is, he feels some hostility brewing up. He flinches and tries to slap Komaeda's hand away, while stepping backwards.]
Laugh? How can I laugh at a time like this...? [His fists tighten.] If I am shedding tears, it is for my own death! Death... the extinguishing of a beautiful life... is not something that is meant to be 'utilized'... It should not be a 'stepping stone'! You may never understand, but... that is not how hope works!
[He's not sure what to believe of hope anymore, but he can't even begin to see things from Komaeda's twisted point of view.]
...I am alive here. That is the one comfort, the one hope I can find right now. Everything else you say only makes me feel even worse about the situation!
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Why not? You're using it now, aren't you?
( he's picking holes, looking for something to latch onto to prove that he's right to an ultimate, so that ultimate can understand no matter what. )
...It's not meant to harm you, you are a Symbol of it after all! To use your death so that it doesn't hold you back... that is a stepping stone within itself, being able to move forward. ( but instantly hsi smile disappears, his lips pursing into a straight line. )
It's why I told you, Ishimaru-kun... you could have lived blissfully unaware, but I believe in you to brighten a path for us... you are a student from Hope's Peak Academy, and it's your God-given right!
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Ishimaru continues to look heated, as Komaeda's response is technically right in some ways. He grits his teeth, but then manages to calm down enough to speak.]
When you say it like that... It sounds like it makes sense. To- to move on from something like that... could be a step forward. [He pauses.] I still do not agree with much of what you say!
...B-but I know. I know that I should move forward and... shine a brighter path for us all. A shining hope... without further death.
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Your death was needed for that, to give you the idea that you're capable... Ishimaru-kun, you shouldn't be sad over the fact... because then you'll be trapped in place.
( it's hearing hope that his heart skips a beat, an itching feeling that he equates to love as he watches the other. trained eyes watching the other's every move, and he smiles behind his covered mouth. he hums in thought, contemplating his next response, and then... )
Hope can live on through death! You being able to do something that transcends life... look how influential stepping stones can be!
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Now the rage swells up again, and he finds himself raising a fist in a threat.]
I will never accept the idea of my death being 'needed' or being a 'stepping stone'! I... I always believed in my own capabilities. And I am still willing to move forward... t-to have hope. But it is not your perverted perception of hope!
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( believe in his capabilities, because if that was the case... )
Why did you cry when you learned? If you believed in yourself, something as easy as death could have been accepted, and yet... you wanted me to explain. In the end, none of that should have mattered...
( his expression is neutral this time as he watches the other, and his eyes close right after. )
Naegi Makoto-kun thwarted despair thanks to your death... you should be grateful that your role as a stepping stone allowed him to move forward as Ultimate Hope. You're shaming him with the way you speak.
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[The tears, they are still coming. But now it's anger mixed with sorrow.]
I cry because death is a tragedy! There- there is nothing easy about it. I had a whole life... so many things I hoped to accomplish! Can you begin to understand if I phrase it in terms of hope?! Of course I wanted details, especially with the news imparted by this meeting... even if it had to come from someone like you!
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( he won't argue about this, and for a moment he even glares at ishimaru to prove that he's wrong, but then he remembers who he's talking to, and he holds back. )
Someone who is Ultimate Hope can hold more than one title, it's even possible to have every talent in existence... you wouldn't know, you didn't live long enough to witness Naegi Makoto-kun's glory days...
( he realizes this is like talking to an insufferable child, but he tries to be patient. )
Death isn't a tragedy, when they took your death as a stepping stone, so much was accomplished! With or without you, but... that doesn't mean your efforts hasn't made a light shine here, you've managed to make people see you differently because you are a Symbol of Hope! Someone that's meant to lead and guide... because you died there, don't you want to give it your all, and live your hope even more here? Crying over your previous death means nothing.
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[Every talent in existence? That really seems like pushing it when he thinks of Makoto, who seemed like such an average young man.]
It... it means something because my previous life did mean something! Calling things a 'stepping stone', it just makes me feel like some kind of object! Like my life was just some sort of a play! S-sure, I am glad if my comrades were able to move on without me, but it would have been even better if we all could have been alive to move forward together! I... I do want to give it my all and work hard here. That just does not mean I will accept my death un-under your sick terms!
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( ah, perhaps that's where he should help in explaining, the other died too soon to know the truth of anything, and here's komaeda with as much intel as was given to him per monokuma. not only that, he has the days before the simulation, how he was unlucky enough to miss the destruction of despair within the school when it was broadcasted all over the world, and even now he's a little saddened by that fact. he wonders what sort of expression he wore, how did the face of despair appear once the youth that took upon the title of ultimate hope put such an inconsequential pest in their place? )
And not be able to realize the potential they had as Ultimate Hope...
( he has to give naegi the credit where it's due, because they are what he says, and that makes his heart soar a little more. to see that ishimaru won't even acknowledge is a problem, though. )
Oh, you lived as a stepping stone who moved them forward! That's all! You don't have to accept how you died, but you can accept that you did... that's the problem here, no one is able to accept the truth and use it to their hope! It's easier if you do, unless you want to forsake hope that bad...
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I am not forsaking hope! I- I have firm grasp on my hope, thank you very much! Furthermore...
[He pauses for a moment, maintaining his intensity as he finds the right words to say.]
You are just making less sense by the moment! All I wanted to know... was one thing, and you answered it! Everything else you're saying... it's only advancing pain and confusion, not anything resembling hope! I've had just about enough of this, Komaeda-kun!
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( because it would hurt him, but perhaps that is too much for him to understand at the moment. he should give him a piece, and then ishimaru can ask for bite-sized morsels if he wishes to indulge. he should have understood that telling him everything would be hard for him to accept, and so he glances off to the side. )
You're welcome! I'm glad I could be of assistance to you...
( he sighs, accepting his scolding while ishimaru talks to him, and quickly he places his hands over his mouth. he's being quiet now, not saying anything else as he waits for what may be ishimaru's next issued order. )
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...You... have assisted me. That much is true, and I... thank you for that. [He admits to that much. He'd rather know the truth than to keep on wondering - and with this, he can see their circumstances in a different light. He does give a confused blink at the hands over Komaeda's mouth. Is he taking his desire to shut him up far too literally? It always ended feeling too helpful or not helpful at all with this guy... Ishimaru figures he should give some sort of direction, before he turns to part from him.]
For now, I feel it would be best for us to... continue observing this meeting. [He has a lot to process, and there's also other things going on at the same time to keep track of.]
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( he's excited once given the a-ok to do so, slightly disappointed that ishimaru isn't willing to learn all the information that komaeda knows, but he'll have to be satisfied with what was said so far. he'll turn from ishimaru though, his arms crossed as he watches the people within the meeting, observing them like requested of him. )
Hm... if you ever need to know the rest, Ishimaru-kun, you can find me easily... ( he pauses, lifting a hand up to wave at the other as he looks back with a gentle smile. ) I'll take over and watch everyone from here, you can count on me, alright?
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...I am honestly not sure if I can count on you. But you are free to observe and speak your mind.