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FEBRUARY EVENT LOG/TDM
02/07 - 02/11 School Trip
✽ At 8AM sharp on Monday the 7th, all students are asked to gather in the auditorium to go over the school trip to Tokyo DisneySea; those who decide to stay at school, however, are instructed to attend school as normal and use their days as a study hall or free period. Those grades won't keep themselves up, after all.
✽ Those who are going on the field trip will be given the rundown: they'll be staying at DisneySea for five days and four nights, at the Hotel MiraCosta located inside the park. They'll be lead in lines to the front gate of the school, consciousness wavering as they pass through the open gates, and they open their eyes to find themselves in the parking lot of Tokyo DisneySea, sluggish and drowsy, as if they'd dozed off and had just awoken from a very, very long drive. Characters will have to wait in line for quite some time, with the rate of it moving at an achingly slow 0.00000005 miles per hour (or so it feels) before they're able to get their tickets to the park, a knife, and their complimentary map to guide the way.
✽ Welcome to Disney! DisneySea, to be precise! Made up of seven different port areas, it's a treat for those who enjoy the water—and one for those who don't as well, considering its expansive amount of land-locked attractions. The world is your oyster after you enter the Mediterranean Harbor with its Venetian gondolas and southern European charm, with the American Waterfront to your left and the Mysterious Island straight ahead. Past those are Port Discovery, Lost River Delta, Mermaid Lagoon, and the Arabian Coast—it's probably not doable in a day, so isn't it lucky you get to spend the a whole five days here instead? Characters such as Mickey Mouse, Minnie Mouse, Goofy, Pluto, Chip & Dale, Donald Duck, and so on and so forth can be found wandering the areas, with Ariel found specifically in the Mermaid Lagoon; the Genie, Aladdin, Jafar, and Jasmine in the Arabian Coast; and Pinocchio, Jiminy Cricket, Geppetto, and the Fox in the American Waterfront. Get a picture and make some memories, because day light is burning, and it'll be closing time before you know it!
✽ Things take on a little bit of a twist when night falls; attractions refuse to work the right way, shadows seem to follow you wherever you go, and the cast members walking around seem a little more sharp-eyed and sharp-tongued than usual. The food tastes worse, as if it's spoiled rotten, and the water beneath the ports churns unsettlingly. All guests are ushered either out or to the hotel as the clock ticks closer to 9PM each day, with forcefully cheerful goodbyes and perhaps a little more pushing than necessary.
✽ Hotel MiraCosta is a gorgeous experience that's hauntingly devoid of people aside from those coming from Yogen, and even it isn't immune from the chilly atmosphere that sinks in around DisneySea when night falls: you might see glimpses of your home world but empty in the mirrors, or a shadowy figure with a knife poised ready to stab you in the back— and if you don't turn quick enough, that might just become your reality. In other reflective surfaces, like the shine of the floors or the water of a fountain gone still after hours, characters will find their worst fears on full display and reaching out to grab them; falling prey to this will put them temporarily in a fit, as if they're trapped in a nightmare. Other characters can wake them up, but if they're alone... Well, you better hope someone finds you soon: spending too long in the nightmare will have you seeing ghosts of those you miss and those you've wronged before. One will tempt you into going with them to the other side, while the other will make an attempt on your life. The pool isn't safe either: anyone swimming in the dark will find themselves at risk of drowning, feeling as if their feet have been caught by something or someone. Of course, the hotel is perfectly safe and ordinary in the day time, so you have nothing to worry about then! Night-time is just a different matter.
✽ For those who decide to investigate the park after hours will find the cast members remain long after the guests have left, and they make a sport of those who either stay past closing or who trespass on park grounds. Take care out there in DisneySea's version of The Most Dangerous Game— Mickey's got a gun, and he's not afraid to use it. Not every cast member will be out to get you though: the Genie, Donald and Daisy Duck, and the Fox will all help characters who need it... for a price. These can range from the absurd to the impossible to the cruel, though the Ducks tend to be nicer in their requests than the other two.
✽ And those shadows from before, attraction mishaps, and more? They'll still happen, and as the week's nights go on, it gets harder and harder to survive the park. Saw this and laughed, but good news, guys! The staff is here to help you out this time.
✽ Had enough of Disney? You can beg Add to take you to Russia instead.
✽ Those who are going on the field trip will be given the rundown: they'll be staying at DisneySea for five days and four nights, at the Hotel MiraCosta located inside the park. They'll be lead in lines to the front gate of the school, consciousness wavering as they pass through the open gates, and they open their eyes to find themselves in the parking lot of Tokyo DisneySea, sluggish and drowsy, as if they'd dozed off and had just awoken from a very, very long drive. Characters will have to wait in line for quite some time, with the rate of it moving at an achingly slow 0.00000005 miles per hour (or so it feels) before they're able to get their tickets to the park, a knife, and their complimentary map to guide the way.
✽ Welcome to Disney! DisneySea, to be precise! Made up of seven different port areas, it's a treat for those who enjoy the water—and one for those who don't as well, considering its expansive amount of land-locked attractions. The world is your oyster after you enter the Mediterranean Harbor with its Venetian gondolas and southern European charm, with the American Waterfront to your left and the Mysterious Island straight ahead. Past those are Port Discovery, Lost River Delta, Mermaid Lagoon, and the Arabian Coast—it's probably not doable in a day, so isn't it lucky you get to spend the a whole five days here instead? Characters such as Mickey Mouse, Minnie Mouse, Goofy, Pluto, Chip & Dale, Donald Duck, and so on and so forth can be found wandering the areas, with Ariel found specifically in the Mermaid Lagoon; the Genie, Aladdin, Jafar, and Jasmine in the Arabian Coast; and Pinocchio, Jiminy Cricket, Geppetto, and the Fox in the American Waterfront. Get a picture and make some memories, because day light is burning, and it'll be closing time before you know it!
✽ Things take on a little bit of a twist when night falls; attractions refuse to work the right way, shadows seem to follow you wherever you go, and the cast members walking around seem a little more sharp-eyed and sharp-tongued than usual. The food tastes worse, as if it's spoiled rotten, and the water beneath the ports churns unsettlingly. All guests are ushered either out or to the hotel as the clock ticks closer to 9PM each day, with forcefully cheerful goodbyes and perhaps a little more pushing than necessary.
✽ Hotel MiraCosta is a gorgeous experience that's hauntingly devoid of people aside from those coming from Yogen, and even it isn't immune from the chilly atmosphere that sinks in around DisneySea when night falls: you might see glimpses of your home world but empty in the mirrors, or a shadowy figure with a knife poised ready to stab you in the back— and if you don't turn quick enough, that might just become your reality. In other reflective surfaces, like the shine of the floors or the water of a fountain gone still after hours, characters will find their worst fears on full display and reaching out to grab them; falling prey to this will put them temporarily in a fit, as if they're trapped in a nightmare. Other characters can wake them up, but if they're alone... Well, you better hope someone finds you soon: spending too long in the nightmare will have you seeing ghosts of those you miss and those you've wronged before. One will tempt you into going with them to the other side, while the other will make an attempt on your life. The pool isn't safe either: anyone swimming in the dark will find themselves at risk of drowning, feeling as if their feet have been caught by something or someone. Of course, the hotel is perfectly safe and ordinary in the day time, so you have nothing to worry about then! Night-time is just a different matter.
✽ For those who decide to investigate the park after hours will find the cast members remain long after the guests have left, and they make a sport of those who either stay past closing or who trespass on park grounds. Take care out there in DisneySea's version of The Most Dangerous Game— Mickey's got a gun, and he's not afraid to use it. Not every cast member will be out to get you though: the Genie, Donald and Daisy Duck, and the Fox will all help characters who need it... for a price. These can range from the absurd to the impossible to the cruel, though the Ducks tend to be nicer in their requests than the other two.
✽ And those shadows from before, attraction mishaps, and more? They'll still happen, and as the week's nights go on, it gets harder and harder to survive the park. Saw this and laughed, but good news, guys! The staff is here to help you out this time.
✽ Had enough of Disney? You can beg Add to take you to Russia instead.
02/12 - end of the month
✽ Wasn't that fun... With everybody reenergized after the school trip, classes continue as usual. Math is tough and philosophy is confusing, but after a gloomy overcast January, the sun is shining this month and it becomes harder and harder to resist just walking out the door and into the woods and never returning.
✽ Those who escape reality by running away from their problems will find that they are able to step past the tree line for the first time this school year, and that they can continue walking without bounds. The forest seems to go on and on and on without end, gradually sloping upwards the further away from the school but never seeming to reach a crest. Eventually, you may come across a river that runs nearby the school, shallow and calm in places and wide and rushing in others, with little piles of rocks along the riverbank as if of somebody trying to stack rocks as high as they can go. Scattered about the forest, characters may also come across much larger rocks, bound with rope and spread just far enough apart that you are able to see the next one when standing by the first, if you know where to look.
✽ Quiet and peaceful, the forest is otherwise full of life if you pay attention: you can hear the chirping of birds, small critters scuttling through the underbrush, the distant howl of wolves. If you're very still and quiet, you may be able to see some of the wildlife, and those that hunt them. When night falls, you may see little pinpoints of light floating around past the trees; they would be easy to mistake for fireflies if they did not glow a faint blue, the same shade as the flowers of the wisteria tree, and upon closer look appear to be butterflies fluttering low to the ground, feeding upon rotting carcasses and pools of blood.
✽ The trees are pine trees.
✽ At the end of the month, even if you've decided to go feral and live in the woods, all characters will be pinged on their PDAs:
@ everyone
Thank you. Your tuition has been collected.
followed by a list of names, which includes unlisted npcs but they don't get names so you just have to imagine.
✽ Those who escape reality by running away from their problems will find that they are able to step past the tree line for the first time this school year, and that they can continue walking without bounds. The forest seems to go on and on and on without end, gradually sloping upwards the further away from the school but never seeming to reach a crest. Eventually, you may come across a river that runs nearby the school, shallow and calm in places and wide and rushing in others, with little piles of rocks along the riverbank as if of somebody trying to stack rocks as high as they can go. Scattered about the forest, characters may also come across much larger rocks, bound with rope and spread just far enough apart that you are able to see the next one when standing by the first, if you know where to look.
✽ Quiet and peaceful, the forest is otherwise full of life if you pay attention: you can hear the chirping of birds, small critters scuttling through the underbrush, the distant howl of wolves. If you're very still and quiet, you may be able to see some of the wildlife, and those that hunt them. When night falls, you may see little pinpoints of light floating around past the trees; they would be easy to mistake for fireflies if they did not glow a faint blue, the same shade as the flowers of the wisteria tree, and upon closer look appear to be butterflies fluttering low to the ground, feeding upon rotting carcasses and pools of blood.
✽ The trees are pine trees.
✽ At the end of the month, even if you've decided to go feral and live in the woods, all characters will be pinged on their PDAs:
@ everyone
Thank you. Your tuition has been collected.
followed by a list of names, which includes unlisted npcs but they don't get names so you just have to imagine.
(click to expand list)
| Jason Todd Miyuki Shirogane Kaede Akamatsu Rokuro Arata | Rantarou Amami Subaru Akehoshi Yukio Okumura Himeko Inaba | Kouji Seki Hajime Hinata Lucifer Akira Fujioka | Noah Ebalon Rio Ranger Makoto Naegi Narumi Ito | Shin Tsukimi Helena Adams |
| Add Chiaki Nanami Senku Ishigami | Satou Kuroneko Alice Yabusame Seiya Kaneko | Stephanie Meanswell Dito Natsume Sakasaki | Goro Akechi Kiyotaka Ishimaru Jou Tazuna | Itto Arataki |
| Meng Yao Akira Kurusu Chiaki Kudo Nene Yashiro | Kobato Kazamatsuri Chiaki Nanami (AI) Hikaru Goto Clamor Ventus | Sidney Wolfe Sara Chidouin Nagito Komaeda Herlock Sholmes | William James Moriarty Childe Baby Bonnie Hood Rika Furude | Nao Sato |
OOC
✽ The park and hotel are completely normal during the daytime; it is only when night falls that it becomes a ...twisted wonderland.
✽ All characters will be forced to leave the school trip and return to school by evening of the 11th through a death in some way. Dying early returns you to school early, and if characters do not take care of it themselves, they will be taken out by an adorable Disney mascot or a Russian with a glock.
✽ Everybody participating in the school trip will find +1 tally on their left wrist upon returning to school. Characters who help others return by murdering them will receive +1 tally for each kill; please let the mods know so Alice can update the tally list.
✽ There are a couple of things to find inside the forest, so if your character is doing something or searching in a specific way that isn't blindly wandering, hit up the questions toplevel to see if they come across anything.
✽ Tuition has been collected. Don't worry about it.
✽ All characters will be forced to leave the school trip and return to school by evening of the 11th through a death in some way. Dying early returns you to school early, and if characters do not take care of it themselves, they will be taken out by an adorable Disney mascot or a Russian with a glock.
✽ Everybody participating in the school trip will find +1 tally on their left wrist upon returning to school. Characters who help others return by murdering them will receive +1 tally for each kill; please let the mods know so Alice can update the tally list.
✽ There are a couple of things to find inside the forest, so if your character is doing something or searching in a specific way that isn't blindly wandering, hit up the questions toplevel to see if they come across anything.
✽ Tuition has been collected. Don't worry about it.
ive been late all month u take that apology back this instant
[... ah. but she's still as nosy as ever. He pulls up the edge of his jacket, hiding what little damage was showing through.]
Kukuku, wouldn't you like to know...? An immortal body loses its value once the secret of its destruction is known. Information like that can't be shared so carelessly.
[which. doesn't answer her question, at all, but he needs a second to figure out how to respond. it's a thought he's actively been avoiding, the exact process through which he has to return himself to Yogen... if it's anything like last time, he'll be late getting back. but it's fine. he can handle it. he did it before, in the end... it'll be easier the second time around, right?
but he should still explain himself to Sara, at least enough to soothe her worries... he doesn't want her to worry. he cracks a grin, putting on his best air of confidence.]
The original procedure can't be undone, but it was my own will to survive that allowed me to defy the laws of death. Severing all attachments and trusting that my existence will be returned to that place again... it's an annoying process, but hardly outside of my abilities.
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Ah... [ So no knives, huh? Maybe he'll give her his...two knives is better then one. ]
How long does that take? Ah...not that I think you can't return to us Add-chan! I just don't want you here alone for too long? [ Add has been improving a lot recently! The idea of him spending a week alone here trying to figure out how to kill himself is scary...maybe Sara can offer to stay with him while he figures it out. Nobody deserves to die alone. ]
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he wants to just brush it off again... but it's hard to make himself do it, for some reason. it's hard to lie when Sara is the one asking. he's quiet for a long moment before answering.]
Last time... I was in out of consciousness for most of it, so I don't know. But most of that time was wasted on alternate methods... trying to kill myself with this body is like trying to suffocate by holding your breath. [he knows what can kill him, but he'll lose consciousness before he can ensure the damage is done correctly... and then his regeneration kicks in, and he has to wait months before he's recovered enough to move again. an especially awful existence when you're trapped in a world all alone.]
If it's only the other method... time isn't really a factor. It's just...
[uncomfortable. disturbing. scary.
... he really doesn't want to do it again, but it's a difficult experience to put into words. it's not that he can't, or that he's afraid he won't come back, but... it's a bad thing, isn't it? to be able to just will yourself out of existence.
he sighs, slightly frustrated.] It's annoying. Forget it. I'll be fine on my own, even if it takes longer on my end.
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[ The idea of it is so alien she has a hard time even grasping what it must be like...but it sounds hard. Trying to kill yourself and failing only to...will yourself away after a long time? At first Add made it sound easy but on the second pass Sara thinks harder. To die, he'd have to think his life was worthless right? He'd have to give up...
She straightens all of a sudden, clenching her drink her hand as she turns to face Add with surprising intensity. ]
Well...too bad then! Remember what I said Add-chan? If you become a danger....I'll certainly kill you! And...you being like that sounds really dangerous and scary and sad! Oh, I'm so scared! We have to kill you now, when all you can think about is how cool Disneyland is!
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You don't even know how to kill me... you'd just get me stuck here even longer, knock it off.
[disneyland isn't even that cool... his enthusiasm is fading by the minute.]
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[ Crap, how does she get him to understand? ]
Even if we get stuck...or I don't know what I'm doing...lets try it together before you do...other things okay?
[ Things that are genuinely scary, and that she doesn't want him to do. Add doesn't react well to pity so how can she say it right? She doesn't want him doing this so...so... ]
We're allies and um...friends you know? You offered for me, but I'll die no problem. You shouldn't do this alone or in a way that scares me. As your friend, I'm not going to allow you to get hurt like that. I'll kill you first!
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... she's "scared" of him going through that. right.
He looks away, staring at the gates that lead back to their hotel. He doesn't want to doubt her offer is sincere. Still...]
If I tell you how to kill me... what's stopping you from doing it again?
[he knows... he knows what she'll say, but he laughs, short and dry. Sara won't kill him because she's his trusted ally... but what if he's wrong about her? what if this has all been a con to learn his weaknesses, learn how to destroy him, earn his trust and betray him once he's used up his value? what if, what if, what if
he doesn't know. he can't know. he can only choose to trust her, or not.]
Pathetic... giving out such delicate information, and for what? Avoiding a little discomfort... I'd have to be pathetic...
[he sulks, looking pretty pathetic]
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[ She pauses, holding her hands clasped around her cup for a second as she looks at Add. ]
I promise I won't...but words aren't much. [ This is a game of trust once again. If she wants to help Add, she needs to prove she's his equal in this. ] I trust you not to kill me, and you know how. I um... I guess most people walk around knowing they can be hurt by others. It's just the form that changes...you know?
[ The hedgehogs dilemma. ]
If its information that we're trading... If I told you a secret of mine, would that be good insurance?
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[that's a rude way to ask, though. it's not like he'd plan on using it... not unless he had to. insurance.
and it's not a perfect trade, either. he can't betray her back if he's dead... but it's not like he's going to drop his guard around her, either. information can be spread rapidly between Dynamo and the school's network. it'd be a massive risk on her part to make a move against him. he can take the necessary precautions... it's not completely unbalanced.]
... we should discuss this somewhere more private. [like, maybe not a disney parking lot. luckily my character is a cheater so he can just make a portal straight to his own hotel room and we don't even have to handwave several minutes of walking around and waiting in elevators]
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[ It might not end her life...but it would ruin her reputation if it all got out. The image she's trying to put forward isn't some trigger happy murderer after all.
Also lit, portals, we love portals. Handwave that. ]
It's not something I'm proud of... but we promised to be honest with each other, so I don't mind telling you if you want to use it to protect yourself.
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... if killing is the worst you've done, you don't need to worry about my judgment. [not that she asked, but. he feels the need to say it again anyway, a small reminder that yeah, same. if that's her secret... he'll have no problem keeping it, so long as she's still the person he thinks she is.
now that they're alone, he immediately falls forward onto the hotel bed, relaxing the tension that's been building in his body. he's been anxious, but maybe... things will be okay? he lays like that for a few seconds before sighing, rolling over and sitting up on the edge of the bed.]
Alright. It was your idea, so... you go first.
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[ That's always been a comforting thought when she's around Add... the worst things she's done don't cause him to bat an eye. He should...he really should judge her... but the fact that he doesn't, that he wouldn't yell or scare her about it is a relief. ]
Right, right. Well... the long and short of it is I was once trapped somewhere, and I killed someone innocent to give myself a better shot at surviving. [ It's a harsh simplification, but Add probably doesn't need the whole background setting. The important thing. ] Kanna Kazuchi... That's the name of the girl I sent to her death. She was three year my junior...thats fourteen if you forgot how old I am.
I can try to justify it any way I want...but she's dead because of me. The person I kept alive in her stead was her brother... Sou Hiyori...
[ Add has flopped on the bed at this point, and Sara finds herself grabbing the edge of a chair as she recounts what's next. The story with Kanna is an old one, but this part still sticks in his throat. ] When he arrived here...he didn't remember that I'd done that. I didn't tell him until December. Of course...he made some threats and I ended up attacking him...just because I was scared.
[ She shakes her head, trying to give Add a shaky smile. ]
Pretty damning right? I try to appear better then this...
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he might be making a note to keep a closer eye on Sou from now on. y'know, for safety reasons.
He doesn't answer her right away, still dwelling on her confession... really, though, it's hard for someone like him to find this disturbing. So she killed a fourteen year old kid. He's killed, like, at least a few hundred kids who were younger than that? And that's excluding all the indirect deaths caused by dimensional collapse. Sara's doing baby numbers and she feels bad about it, why should that be so "damning"?]
... so, in order for me to trust that you won't kill me, you're telling me about a time you broke someone's trust by killing them? [that's the detail that sticks out more to him. it's kind of funny, actually... sara how much did you think this one through] Kukuku... if I wanted to, I could simply stop here and hold all the cards. What would you be able to do about it? For a secret you claim is so devastating, you sure are careless with it.
Killing for an advantage, killing for survival... that's just a part of human nature. You'll have to try harder than that to be "damned".
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[ She frowns at him, taken aback, but clearly thinking about his hypothetical threat. She...really doesn't want it to get out? Ah...is she being careless. She hopes not! ]
But...you won't right? Because Add-chan doesn't do anything he doesn't want to do...so if you're sitting here listening to my not so damning secret, you must really want me to kill you.
[ It something Sara doesn't want to get out, but there was no way it was ever going to be equal to what could kill Add...he should know that. So if they're sitting here, him on his bed and her on her chair, it must mean his true feelings were that Sara's secrets never mattered at all. ]
We could stop, and not trust eachother. Or you could be careless too?
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[... but it doesn't matter, not really. Sara is as perceptive as ever... if he really wanted a fair, logical trade, there was nothing she could offer that could compare to his safety, his life. But it wasn't for nothing, either. He wanted to know... not for a trade, or blackmail or whatever, but just to know something more about her. A secret that only a friend could be trusted with.
He sighs, staring off to the side. Does he want to be careless...?]
... I don't want to die. Even if I know it's only temporary... there's a difference between "dying" and "wanting to die". Getting too comfortable with that mindset when it's the only thing keeping my body together... keke, you could argue it's more dangerous than revealing how to destroy me.
[His body ripples, fragments shifting and expanding as he settles into his true form. His jacket immediately breaks apart into dust and disperses, and... with some hesitancy, his shirt also melts away, because it's kind of embarrassing but it's easier if he just shows her. His arms are on full display, broken apart at the shoulder and elbow as she already knows, but she can also see now that there are more cracks and gaps in his sides, a glowing scar around his neck, and at the centre of his chest...
well, it's not like she doesn't know it's there, but if she ever thought it might've just been part of his clothing or something strapped there... it's not. That crystal is definitely embedded in his body. He brings a hand up to it, tracing the edges.]
Injuries to the main body can be recovered, even removal of major sections like the head, but it puts a strain on regenerative functions. Over time, excessive strain can cause damage to that functionality and lead to permanent damage, possibly even the loss of regenerative properties altogether... but that's too slow.
To efficiently kill a human, you target vital organs like the brain or heart. To kill an entity from the void... you destroy the central core.
[tap tap. can she guess where it is?]
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[ Sometimes people say they want to do something, but they just need a chance to do the opposite. Kanna needed someone to tell her to live and Add...its hard to give up control, but if he can trust her, she's willing to take this one burdan away from him.
B-b-but SHIRTLESS ADD?!?!? It all happens so fast... Sara tries to look a normal amount of interested and professional about how cool Add looks as he's taking his shirt off and revealing his magic body. ]
So the only choice is to kill you over and over or destroy... [ She leans forward towards the bed, staring at the core. ]
Your heart...? [ Should she...touch it? She's going to have to eventually, so she tries a single finger at first. ] It's like a star.
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She can touch it, though, yeah. It feels warm and smooth... and Add looks a little uncomfortable, but. she is gonna have to do more than just touch it. If he keeps staring at the wall, she definitely can't see the face he's making.]
... it's nothing like a star. I need you to focus.
Sever the core from the main body, then destroy it. Smash it until it breaks, grind the pieces into dust. That should be enough to be certain.
... if you want to back out, say it now. If you half-ass it and I regenerate here, I won't forgive you.
nothing like ur bffs dead body to remind u that u meant to backtag
[ It's both intimate and...scary... she's about to kill him. The fact that it won't be that brutal, no blood or stabbing, just destroying a rock...that makes it easier but it doesn't take away what she's going to do. She has to end Add's life. It's not going to be easy.
His soul is pretty and warm. She doesn't really want to break it. Still, when she looks up from examining her chest, close enough to meet his gaze head on, her expression is firm. ]
I don't give up and I won't lose, even to your dumb regeneration. I promise. Do you have a knife to get it out with?
april sara's flashback sequence
it's a little scary... Add tries to relax, loosely folding his arms below his chest. just don't think too hard about it and it won't freak him out. that's how this kind of thing works, right... it'll be like getting a shot at the doctor's, you just have to ignore it until it's over and you won't even notice it. just like all his other problems in life.
deep breaths... maybe close his eyes... he's totally not gonna react to this at all, yeah.]
Just get it over with quickly. I don't have all day.
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Sara finds the knife on the table, exactly a complimentary as you would expect. It's not a very big knife, the worried practical part of her notices. If she needs to saw or pray something open, it won't do the trick. She ignores those thoughts, because as logical as they seem they only mask a growing thrum of panic. She's really about to do this. ]
Right...keep your eyes closed, okay? And um...
[ If she keeps her breathing calm, she can hold her hand steady. She can creep up onto the bed where Add lies with his eyes closed and position the knife above his chest. ]
Don't move.
[ He asked for it quick, so she doesn't...she can't hesitate. She wraps her fingers around the knife and she plunges it down into the flesh beside his soul, as hard and as deep as she can. Sorry, sorry, sorry!! She just...she needs to get it out! ]
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Add does not scream, thank you, he is a big boy. He does hiss sharply like someone just stabbed him in the chest and he wants to swear, tho, biting down on his lip and gripping the sheets hard. He's trying not to move but it's not as easy as he was hoping it'd be... maybe he never liked doctors to begin with, actually. Fuck the doctor's office.
but despite the pain he's already in... he's keeping his eyes shut. kill him faster he's 2 seconds away from panicking and saying something embarrassing here]
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[ Her hands burn, the strange black dripping onto her arms when she pulls the knife out to wedge it in again at an angle. She's got a deep cut to start with, so if she digs in at an angle, she can feel where the crystal ends deep in Add's chest. To get it out...she'll need at least three or four more cuts around where it is.
She braces a hand against Add's shoulder, squeezing a little as she pulls the knife back again and adjusts her position. ]
It's okay. It's okay, Add. Just...I think it'll only take me a few more like that. T-take a deep breath...3..2..
[ She won't wait for her count to finish. The knife goes down against the crystal again, and this time she drags it through his chest in a semicircle around the soul crystal. ]
cw: emeto tbh i probably shouldve mentioned murder before now but oh well
he coughs it back out anyway—pink blood making its way up his throat, trying to hold it in with everything else he's feeling right now but it's a lot, it's too much, he's shaking through shallow breaths and blood pouring from the corners of his mouth, struggling to push the words out]
I-it's fine. I'm fine, th-this is—
[nothing, except she stabs him again before he's ready
the noise he makes is garbled by blood, but it's not pretty. this is worse than he thought it'd be. his eyes flutter open while he chokes on his own words, dark tears filling up his vision, a shaky hand raising up to grasp Sara's wrist—he feels weak, he can barely manage this much, like everything is being drained out the gap in his chest and it's happening too fast and too slow at the same time. he tries to grasp it anyway, stop, he's changed his mind, he's not ready, please—
in retrospect he should've just asked her to decapitate him first, he might be a fucking idiot]
tw: KILLING ADD
Add grabs her wrist, and she pauses, breathing deeply as she stares into his eyes. There are so many little details she's trying not to notice, the pink and black smears on her face from when she had to wipe her eyes, the way Add's own expression has gone quiet and distant, the way the knife rattles in her hand as she puts it again the gem again to line up this next cut. ]
It's..okay... [ He's grabbing her wrist and she tries to move her arm so she can hold his hand. It's okay, its going to be okay.
The next cut has to be deeper, she pulls the knife down with more force. Both sides of his chest hang open around the crystal, she can see the glowing sides of it through the pooling blood. There there's two more, to keep make sure the top and bottom are also loose. It's awful. ]
You need to let me go now... [ Her voice is thin and reedy. ] I need both hands for the next part...
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he knows from his last trip... it won't end, not until he gives up. or until he's forced to give up. but the latter is something he's yet to experience, and he's starting to have doubts. is this really any better?
... fingers knit between his own, and his grip is weak but it's still there. in the end... he just doesn't want to admit he's scared.
it's fine. it'll be okay. it's fine...
he swallows, blood burning in his throat only to pour out the other wound... he closes his eyes, and he lets go. she needs her hands for this.
if he wants to scream again... he'll just bite off his own tongue, and she can deal with the mess.]