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six reconnections ➱ open feb catch-all;
Who: Himeko Inaba and YOU.
What: Catch-all log for February
When: Throughout February.
Where: Various locations as listed.
Warnings: None for now, but will be updated as necessary.
↳ option one. ( during the disney trip, but not at disney )
↳ option two. ( feb 12th )
↳ option three. ( valentine's day )
↳ option four. ( wildcard )
What: Catch-all log for February
When: Throughout February.
Where: Various locations as listed.
Warnings: None for now, but will be updated as necessary.
↳ option one. ( during the disney trip, but not at disney )
- [Perhaps you're one of the plucky ones that decided to say no to Disney, like Inaba and find yourselves rather bored--and well, given that everything is basically self-study now and Inaba is, well, not exactly hurting in terms of her studies, as she was a naturally good test taker. And on top of that, she was actually decent at math, so it's actually rather...
Well - it certainly doesn't push all her worries, but it definitely allows her to relax a bit, knowing that having an emptier school meant all the nuisances were gone, albeit temporarily.
Which also meant that she could do as she pleased. Hence for those who might still be around, they might notice her in various places, but especially on the second floor - particularly in the cooking room and workshop.
What she can be found doing in the cooking room is well, trying to teach herself how to cook a little better--it's something that she had been doing before, back home and is something that she wants to carry over here. Even more so since it's actually a matter of survival.
Probably doesn't help that she's not all that great of a chef and finds it rather frustrating to do so...]
What a pain... why is cooking so fucking difficult. Maybe I should just buy stuff from the vending machine, instead...
[But she can't rely on others to cook for her in the first place!! What if someone decides to take advantage of that...! Well, at the very least, she isn't blowing up the kitchen and is instead just frustratedly staring at her cooking notes. It's probably fine.]
↳ option two. ( feb 12th )
- [So. How about that tuition, huh?
Inaba, someone who looks at the PDA when she has the time to, even if she doesn't reply to everyone's antics, given the way she is.
But then that ping goes off and well...
...time for her to investigate the matter! People might notice her snooping around places where faculty may be while trying to be natural about it; not to mention that she's polite about it and all. But it's odd that she's trying to be so proactive and trying to actually talk to people, isn't it?
Hm.]
↳ option three. ( valentine's day )
- [Otherwise known as "the worst day in Inaba Himeko's existence".
She's awfully aware of what day today is and while she's already naturally distant to most people, today is a day where she's... well, not in the best state. In fact anyone who is a third year, or teaches third years will probably notice that she's looking a lot more lethargic, and not in a 'she hasn't slept' way but she also has bags under her eyes showing that she hasn't slept much lately.
People who are observant will definitely notice that she's fiddling with her pendant idly, sighing heavily every now and again to the point where it's honestly just kind of sad.
After classes, she actively avoids people, wanting to find a room without people--or well. At best a place that she can keep herself distracted.
Which is why she chooses the library, stockpiling on a lot of random books. But none of them are romantic in nature. It's fine.]
↳ option four. ( wildcard )
- [I wrote this all at 3AM, come @ me with anything else you want to do with Inaba, I'm down for a lot. She isn't going to Disney, but if anybody wanted to attempt to convince her prior to it, feel free to make An Attempt at least. Feel free to hmu at
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[If he's not going to bring it up, neither is she, regardless of whether she's noticed or not.]
There's a lot of books I haven't read, even though they are pretty old. But some of them are interesting... and I was thinking that maybe I should also read some detective novels.
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[ ...Alright. He'll bite. He needs the distraction too. ]
Can I see one?
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[She knocks on the mystery novels.]
...maybe knowing the genre more will be of use. Although it'd also probably be better to actually be on the scene for once, if I'm going to be honest.
[Everything being complete hearsay is actually a weakness in this case.]
But I will say that I'm not really interested in solving these mysteries for justice. There's no proper justice in a world that is supposed to be the afterlife. Any punishment that can be doled out... does any of it hold any significant meaning that can truly deter someone into not repeating the act? Honestly, you'd have to be something inhuman to do that much, here. A god, or something.
[She laughs, something derisive and bitter.]
Here, take this one.
[She goes through her books before handing over Murder on the Orient Express.]
Although if you want something that isn't a mystery... I can have you read something a little more modern that isn't a book. Though whether it's interesting or not, I couldn't say; don't really know what your tastes are.
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[ Said with the confidence of someone who's probably not even read Orient Express. Interesting.
More interesting though, is Inaba's thoughts on why they're doing this. With that, Miyuki takes the book and takes a seat across from her, flipping through the book a bit. ]
I wouldn't say what we're doing is so much about justice, as it is accountability. That much we can do as human beings, considering we don't have the authority to really dole out any particular punishment. Not to mention, I feel as if most of us have people willing to defend us if it comes down to it.
[ He'd swear up and down it would be someone like Subaru or Komaeda, but they have people willing to defend them, so it wouldn't work. Not to mention, given what Natsume told him... ]
Even if there was some kind of deity at work, wouldn't that be easy to figure out? Generally they'd make some kind of grand appearance at some point.
[ Boasting about how foolish everyone is and that someone else was next. ]
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[She's then quiet for a moment, but then conintues.]
Ah, no-- I'm not referring to the culprit as a deity. Rather it's more... like, magical voo-doo police? Like you go and find the culprit and some god or another is like "yes, I spite thee".
[This is stupid.
She should stop this.]
Well, given how this all is, I wouldn't be surprised at all if people would defend each other even if they knew that they were the culprit. Well. People already do regardless of the truth.
[Inaba scoffs a bit, in a way that sounds almost amused.]
I'm just lucky I didn't get accused; I don't think I'd be lucky enough to have other people defending me. I'd just have to brute force it with the evidence.
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[ It's all really stupid and silly, but he didn't know exactly what would work or not. Honestly. The existence of the supernatural only makes him know even less about the world. ]
--Yeah, I'm not too sure about that. With regards to President Arisu and the Vice Principal, I don't think you'd be tall or strong enough to do it. Not to mention in your state at the time... knowing that, I'd say I'd have enough of an argument to tell anyone that it wasn't you.
[ With Hiro, maybe. But even then. ]
Still, I'm probably in the same boat. Akehoshi mentioned going to bat for me as a friend, but I didn't feel like I could accept it. In all honesty, I don't know if I could confidently ask for someone to defend me here.
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[Or at least, that's what she thinks.]
Obviously. I mean, that's for this particular case only, right? And again, it's just something that can be pointed out with just simply the evidence alone... along with my physical state.
I won't expect any defense for any future murders. Just facts.
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[ Just facts. ]
I guess given the circumstances, saying that you wouldn't kill anyone here is more of an opinion. I can't speak for how you were during your lifetime, after all.
[ He doesn't know the difference between the Inaba who was alive and the Inaba who's here after all. How could he? For all he knows, they were completely different. ]
Death probably changes a person more than the obvious way.
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[She says this as she fiddles, again, with the pendant around her fingers.]
But it's true that it changes people. Many things do.
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[ With help, maybe? But, that's not important.
Miyuki's noticed the pendant before, figuring it to be a nervous tic that Inaba had. Even someone as guarded may let their guard down like that. It struck him as something that she might've gotten here, but-- no, she probably wouldn't accept a gift, or present from anybody at this school.
It takes a moment for him to suddenly realize, and then close the book shut with a sigh. ]
But not everything. Which is why we're both here, isn't it.
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[...]
I...
[Her hand closes over the pendant and then lowers to her side.]
Maybe so.
[She smiles, but it's not one that meets her eyes in the slightest bit--in fact, the light in them seems to fade, looking almost glossy.]
Doesn't really change much, though--being here, or otherwise. Although people would argue that there has to be "a way back home".
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But... ]
If there's even a slight chance of that being possible, I want to hold onto it. It's either that or I'll end up as a lingering spirit.
[ Bound by missed opportunities, unfulfilled goals. ]
Even you have to admit, if there's even a one percent chance, you'd have nothing to lose by betting on it. To pick up where you left off, to make it count this time.
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Then again, I guess I'm the weird one here, huh.
[She laughs, a little brokenly.]
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I think it's the opposite, Inaba. Even if I hold onto that one percent, that's still an overwhelming disadvantage against me. I'll keep that hope alive, but it'll eat at me until I know it's completely hopeless.
[ Which turns his stomach to think about. ]
If it were easier for me to accept that I'll never see my family or my friends again, that would be true Hell. It'd be the same as letting go. I'd say it's lucky that you're able to disregard that so easily, but...
[ He draws a finger to point directly at her pendant. ]
You're just as unlucky as I am.
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[She doesn't think that a person's hope is necessarily wrong, or even bad. But she doesn't have that same sort of outlook, and it shows in her sad, solemn smile.]
"Unlucky", huh? ...Mm, I wouldn't say that.
[Unconsciously, a hand reaches to her other wrist, where the tallies are.]
If I were truly unlucky... everyone I loved and cared about would be here. They would all be dead. But I'm alone, just like I was from the very start. And--I won't hope for kindness, or love, or friendship, or any of that. Because once I find out the truth behind certain things, that will be end for 'Inaba Himeko'.
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She has a point. He'd already decided that he'd rather be here by himself than have anyone he knows wind up in purgatory like this. Having to suffer through everything he's going through. It's just in his nature to take on all of the responsibilities so others can enjoy themselves.
It just doesn't sit right with him, though. ]
Sorry, but that's wrong.
[ The problem was that he'd heard similar stuff to this before. Unfortunately, she can't escape kindness. Or, in reality, selfless idiots. ]
If you were truly alone, I would've taken the book and left by now. Like it or not, you've made a companion. As long as I hope for the impossible, that's how it'll be.
[ You done fucked up now, Inaba Himeko. ]
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Ma'am, this is a library--]
Why the hell would you want to, with someone like me, who--
[She hisses through gritted teeth for a moment before trying to recollect herself, getting up from the chair she's sitting on.]
...If this is about 'paying me back' from last time, then stop it already. I don't need it.
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[ He's poor, he'll accept free stuff whenever he can. Still, the fact that she's showing any kind of emotion like this can only be a good sign. ]
You said it yourself. Humans can't be expected to go on by themselves. Say what you want about yourself, but I don't think you've shed your humanity just yet.
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Aah, you can't just throw my words back at me like that... But I can't deny it. I don't want to become anything that isn't 'human', after all. That's why I've made the choices that I did this whole time, and will continue to do so moving forward.
But I already told you, didn't I? I can't trust anyone here, so I can't be expected to be with anyone here as a friend.
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[ After all, she shouldn't. Not when he's not even sure about it. ]
You don't need to consider me a friend either. At best, I'll consider you an ally.
Regardless, you'll have me on your side.
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[It comes off a little flatly, but there's sincerity to her single worded question; as if what he said wasn't enough for her.
Well, that, and she's just now more confused.
Not a friend but an ally??? For what reason???]
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[ Which're coming off the top of his head, naturally. ]
The first is a selfish reason. I genuinely think that having someone like you around is good for the rest of us. Your analysis of what's been going on with the Arisus and ability to pick up on certain details has been stellar. Losing that, we'd be more screwed than we typically are.
[ Leaving him, as a student council representative, as someone who'd want to remain on her side. There are so many around who want to cause chaos or be vague, and having Inaba here to be more straightforward could only be a good thing. ]
The second...
[ Hm. How does he phrase this? ]
You remind me of somebody. Someone who wasn't interested in having any kind of friend or even interested in acknowledging anyone else around her. There's no deeper meaning behind it, but when I hear you speak about being alone and your need to keep everyone further than arm's length away...
I can't help but think that I'd be betraying them by leaving you by yourself.
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Seeing scenarios like that isn't difficult at all.
[It's a staple for all of her life, so why not more of her afterlife?]
I'd say there are some who are on par or even better than I am, but one of them is a nuisance that I hate with every fiber of my being, so I am not even going to talk about them, because they're a pain in the ass.
[...
She sighs. And then speaks up, again. But there's something to her voice that's heavier.
Like this is something that's been on her mind for a while.]
It's not as if I want to be this way. But after having all the constant murders being done by 'transfer students', constantly, it's... safer, to distance yourself. You can't get hurt, or betrayed.
Well, it probably doesn't help that some people know something about the last time I died here in this place and hasn't been telling me anything about it. That's my own problem, though.
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[ "Coming back from whatever dead place you floated in". That's what he had said, wasn't it? Ugh, he was furious enough to miss it, but he remembered something that that guy had said that unnerved him. Other than-- well, all of the insults. ]
I don't think I'm necessarily strong enough to hurt someone and not feel shitty about it later, so you can take that for what you will. But, I won't lie to you and say that way of thinking isn't valid. Opening up to someone superficially only leaves you open to be hurt. It exposes your weaknesses far, far too easily.
[ His weakness is far the hell away from here, so he'll take that. ]
...you know. There's someone I think I need to have a chat with about anyone that's died recently. [ A beat. ] Rather, people that've died and then come back.
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[She answers him dryly with a bit of a sigh.
Well, Inaba's good at covering up a good portion of her weaknesses with proverbial duct tape, so she's glad for that. Taichi's not here too, so it's not as if that can be used against her.
But someone that's died and come back--]
... Hm? With who, exactly?
[There's a very, very keen interest in her voice at that as her gaze shifts from him to the wrist with the tallies for a brief moment, thoughtful.]
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