[02/29] network: m.lucifer

[carpevinum]

[While he's guarding over some bodies... Hey he has questions. Alternatively might be starting a fight.]

What is it that drives humans? Or, perhaps more aptly, non-demons? Mortals? Whatever you slot yourselves under, what makes you do the things you do?

Why do you unrelentingly get into strife with one another — incriminating murderers, only to turn around and commit a murder yourself moments later and being shocked when others despise you, rinse and repeat ad infinitum until everyone's hands have been bloodied? Is it vengeance? Survival?

In the end, why do you forgive the people who you spend hours condemning? Are they absolved of sin because you say they are? Are you simply tired of fighting?

Demons and mankind are quite similar. I believe we're all guilty of the same things — all of you are so far from Heaven's Gates that it's laughable, same as myself. The events of the last month have me thinking about all of that, and...

Those of you who think you're going to Heaven at the end of your life, assuming here is not your final destination: Why is that?

Just some questions. Have a nice night.

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[carpevinum]

Is that how you see it?

I would consider us "alive" here, and therefore it would be "murder" to kill one of us. Unless we have different definitions of what it means to be alive, of course.

[Is Lucifer truly alive, having been created from the fabric of the Heavens themselves only to fall into the farthest pits of hell? Never being born in a true sense of the word? Is someone like Ranger truly alive, robotic as he is? It's interesting to think about.]

I believe there are instances where murder is acceptable. Not everyone is vengeful, however. I cannot say murder is always wrong when there are those in the world who very much deserve it.

[waitingforplayer2]

I don't feel alive.

[ What does that even mean, Nanami... she turns the words over in her head. She knows that's right but why. ] I remember things too well. It's like New Game Plus or something... where the rules are all different and it's basically a different game.

But it sounds like you'd be upset if somebody killed here. But I wonder who's the winner in that case. Don't we reincarnate if we leave?

Maybe the losers of that game are just whoever got left behind.

[carpevinum]

I would be upset if someone killed someone I cared deeply for, yes.

[Like how he's sore thousands of years later over Lilith's death. How months later he's still burnt about Clamor's. How he'd condemn everyone within this school to the fiery pits of Hell were anything to happen to Sidney.]

We reincarnate if we leave, but not via death. As far as I know, we have to survive until "the end", whenever that is. Getting killed simply resets the cycle — something akin to Samsara.

[waitingforplayer2]

[ It's a new piece of information that nobody had told her yet - how things work here, death and life and the in-betweens.

A new flavor of sadness washes through her as she takes this in and processes it. ] So dying early means you might come back here but without the friends you knew. That really is sad.

[carpevinum]

Yes, and with your memories of previous cycles erased, if I'm not mistaken.

[Lucifer's memories are a clusterfuck of this-and-thats. Sometimes he can't tell what's from before he "woke up" here. Sometimes he knows he doesn't belong. Sometimes he'll pass through the dorms and they'll feel like he's walked the halls a thousand times and that he does belong.]

It's unfortunate. You humans already live such short lives.

[waitingforplayer2]

[ Without memory... so if Keigo returns, they might not even remember any of them?

It's a long long time before Nanami's even able to start thinking about replying to that one. ]

We do, don't we?

[ Gods, she just wishes she could see them again. She just wants Keigo to be okay.

A long while later she finally sends another message. ]

I suppose all of this is more time, in a way.

[carpevinum]

In a way.

[Lucifer experiences a transient sort of sadness at the thought. He has a couple humans he wants to keep around; their lifespans are a blink compared to his. Very swiftly does he clear that emotion away to continue the discussion.]

Does the thought of reincarnation frighten you? It's said that leaving this place implies reincarnation... becoming someone wholly different than you are now. It makes me wonder if any of this matters, truth be told, though that sort of nihilism doesn't suit me.

[waitingforplayer2]

I don't know.

[ It's an honest answer. ]

I want to see my friends again. But if I can't do that... I'm okay with just having another chance, at least. I think.

[carpevinum]

Souls who have previously spent time together are attracted to one another during reincarnation, or so they say. Perhaps the thought of meeting those you care for again will assuage your fears.

[Like his sister and the man she loved.]

[waitingforplayer2]

[ No Lucifer you can't just make her cry like that-- too late. ]

I've been lucky enough to meet some of them again here, too. [ Wait, that's not lucky for them though - she feels ashamed at her selfishness but she can't really take that sentence back now. ]

I hope you're right that it's like that. Everything ended too quickly.

[carpevinum]

Anecdotally...

When my little sister died thousands of years ago, she was reincarnated into a human, and she found her beloved husband again in that next life.

Surely you can expect something similar.

[He doesn't usually talk about Lilith's death — it's deeply personal and deeply traumatic — but maybe it'll help.]

[waitingforplayer2]

[ At this point she's become too emotional to respond - but it's extremely welcome. She'll have to remember to find him later and thank him.

She'll be turning these thoughts over and over in her head for the next few days. ]