turn off your porcelain face

[mermaidcursed]

Who: Nene Yashiro, Sidney Wolfe & You! 
What: Amity's catch-all for the for two tired souls
When: March, Backdated February
Where: Yes!
Warnings: talk of suicide

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[silentabyss]

Um... I don't know?

[Help, he didn't think he'd get this far.]

...no more... no more pressing knives to your throat when you're trying to make a point, I guess. [Yes, he is still bitter about that.] No more saying you're going to get hurt just because I get hurt. No more expectations.

[He pauses on that last note, purses his lips, and adds,]

We come from different backgrounds. I'm always gonna get hurt somehow. Not of my own choice, but because there's not a choice. I don't want you to think I'm not going to be like that because both here and Elrios are dangerous.

[mermaidcursed]

( she can say sorry all she wants. or insist she's not normally like that- which she isn't. but that doesn't change the fact that she had done that, lashing out in fear and pain that she couldn't process fast enough before she could stop herself from hurting him right back. so nene looks away with a nod. she wants to write something, but when she tries, her hands freeze.

he's right to be bitter. all the apologies in the world won't undo what she's done. )

i know.
i wish i hadn't. i mean it.

[silentabyss]

...I know. I wish I hadn't hurt you, either. Or myself.

[It's just added to his scars, all the times he's slashed his arms open with his shadows so that he could spend time within the void school resting in a place where time's flow couldn't catch up with him. They're easy to hide, to excuse as something that he got in battle — in a way, they are that, since he was fighting himself every day to live, but...]

In a way, you did save my life. If I kept at it, I probably could've broken the Moonstone's enchantment... I'm glad I didn't. Even if everything was bad, it did have a good ending, I guess.

[mermaidcursed]

( did it? ... maybe. she's selfish though- she wants him with her, with them. so it's enough, at least, and with clamor back... nene nods, but holds in a sigh. )

i just wish i did things better. but
wishing isn't going to help anything
i'll do better. be better.
i promise

[silentabyss]

...me too. I've been trying to be, anyway.

[For all his self-loathing and the way things make him blow up, he'd like to think that somewhere along the lines, he's gotten better. Better at controlling his self-hate and his anger and everything else about him.

Maybe he's gone numb to it all over time, though. Somehow, that seems worse.]

If it helps, I'm not mad at you.

[mermaidcursed]

( does it help?

she doesn't know.



maybe.

or maybe she's too mad at herself for his absolution to mean anything.

nene opens her mouth and a rasp comes out- but what she's trying to say is unclear. )