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[thanks but i'm looking at these kanji and tearing up]

Ooh, that's pretty unique~. Most girls your age just use hiragana.

[or katakana... like his... he'll be happy to carve it for her though!!!! cannot wait for him to see these kanji and think how terrible it was to make a six year old having to write these kanji for her name.]

That sure is a nice name, though... Your parents must've wanted you to always to shine brightly and warm everyone around you~.

[ SOMETIMES YOU HAVE STRONG FEELINGS ABOUT YOUR FATHER IN NAME ]

No. Why would you want to talk to him, though? He can say pretty words, but they don't mean anything.

[ google did not fail me

but ohh they shut up when Komaeda says it like that. also the implication that Amami would just abandon them to hell

... ]

You don't have to ask permission. I'll let him know.

Is he happy?

( like he's happy could mean so many things, but now it feels like his own smile means nothing!

...hinata likes his smile. )

Hm... ( he looks at their smile specifically, wondering if there's honesty in it. asking komaeda such a question when they could be selfish, and say it aloud themselves. ) You've always said you were the best, why stop now?

( maybe it's because people like to hear certain things, just to be reassured, or to see if anyone else thinks the same outside of just them. ) You're very smart, and you did such a good job... you have to keep up the good work so you can teach me things, too. ( he pauses, taking in what he's already said. ) He was lucky to have you as a child.

( STOP THAT WAS GUNNA BECOME KOMAEDA'S FATHER IN LAW IN SOME PAST YOGEN LIFE he's doing his best. )

You have to when you kill someone, or when you feel bad... I might want to voice my thoughts.

( don't look at him, but anyway! ) He said a lot about us, you have to do everything so it isn't true.

Mmm... okay.

[ It doesn't seem equal— material objects will never be worth as much as experiences— but the thing that makes them unreasonably happy is actually the fact that Subaru remembered the word triboluminescence. ]

What do you think about wind chimes? I was thinking about trying some of those for when it gets cold— they'll sound super pretty in the winter when the air is still and sound carries much further than it does in the summer! Since the sun sets earlier too, if we hang them outside, we'll be able to hear them even when it's dark.

[ Like a night light but for their ears, as long as they're asleep before midnight. ]

( HOLY SHIT, he's our 100 comment thread.

komaeda's going to hell on a trip, and they could take npckun, they'll come back! )

...You're really going to date that.

( there's a reason komaeda speaks like he does, like he's trying to see what the motives are here, and he's actually surprised that the other doesn't fluster, they take it at face value like it's the norm. )

Did he force you?

( he finished dotting, and he takes the first stroke. )

[if it never comes out know that subaru wrote the word down and practiced using it because it was such a new and fun word that he wanted to share it and the experience with the people he liked too................

funny keigo mentions wind chimes though; it startles a laugh out of him and he bites the rest back, shaking a bit. who would've thought... wind chimes...]

In Lanling, there were was a vendor who had a lot of 'em for sale... They reminded me of you, to the point I wanted to get some as souvenirs, so I can definitely say that I love them a lot! I think they're a great idea, they'll sound so nice at night~. No matter how dark it is, they'll always be there to guide us right back to each other!

[ooh... lena might like them too... pleasant noises for a pleasant writer... his hands can't stay idly though, so they're tracing constellations against keigo's side i'm sorry]

What sorta chimes would you do? Wooden ones? They have a pleasant knocking sound~, but metal ones are the ones that sound like bells... Oh, but I like glass the best, they're like stars.

[he got his fill of all kinds in lanling,]

[ I hope Natsume told Maya when and where to meet because otherwise she's not going to show up until noon, and if she doesn't run into Natsume on the way, then she's going to head towards the music room to wait and assume Natsume will eventually check there.

This is Sunday's cold casual and this can be today's Deemo song ]

[ They nod, it's sturdy enough to hold a grown man's weight, because Aratas tend to enjoy sitting on top of furniture and so they have to keep it in mind. ]

I can draw trees and stuff, but... fill our room with plants?

[ When they've claimed time and time again to be no good with living things, and can't remember if Amami said he has much experience in gardening either. They do live near gardening club members so it's not as if they'll be on their own, but still...

It would be nice, to be a little closer to those trees outside. They have the river right here, solid underneath their hands. ]

...We'll get pothos. They're supposed to be easy to grow, and do best in indirect sunlight, and propagation is super simple: you can even place the cuttings in a vase of water with liquid fertilizer and it'll root and grow— no need for soil.

[ It's also known as the money plant. If it's this plant maybe they won't be too opposed to the idea. ]

[ Sometimes you get mauled by a bear and fall off a cliff and break your spine; the whole experience was long and torturous but hazy enough that there isn't really anything for him to fixate upon if he thinks back on it.

...well. As long as Hinata can smile, however sad and brief, Rokkun can take up the mantle and smile in his stead, if only for a little reassurance. ]

I already know where they are. I'm going to graduate, and I'm going to go home, and I'm going to take Kogamo away with me. We'll go get my sister, too.

[ And then... he'll figure out what comes next, like he always does. But he is so so convinced that graduating means getting his second chance, means going back to the split where he went left instead of right and never ran into that bear, was able to make it home in time for supper, gave his dad the ultimatum of needing to choose between his work and his family. This is what needs to happen, because otherwise, it'll all be pointless. ]

[ whispers back ] I don't! He'll see this— [ gives the collar a tug ] —and think it's funny.

[ Rokkun will not help him, he knows this. He doesn't need the guy's praise.

... ]

Did he notice us?

It looks nice on you, though...

( the collar, but rokkun's like a boy who missed out on his childhood, so of course, he'd think someone on a leash and collar is funny. though, komaeda's wore his fair share, so he doesn't seen anything funny about it. )

...He's not talking to us, but you know how he is.

( peeeeeeeeks, squints. whisper whisper... )

Hm, it's like... I think he's thinking about something, and he got upset, mad maybe...

( amami amami amami amami amami amami amami amami )

[ both of them like Wakamatsu in GSNK referencing shoujos ]

Yeah! When somebody smiles and I know I'm the reason, that feels soooo warm!

[ It makes them feel like they're doing a good job. They're getting a good grade in making people happy or however the meme goes

but it really does feel like that, for them who is always seeking love and affection, and to make somebody genuinely smile from the bottom of their heart is one of the clearest signs of love. ]

( oh perfect, then he can make himself comfortable; honourary arata status.

but when kamo-kun, despite the doubtfulness in their voice, and their aversion to caring for plants, agrees? suggests something for them to take care of together of their own accord? amami's face lights up a little, eyes shining with interest, and you know, maybe he's letting himself get a little bit excited. he can have a little something to look forward to, despite the way things have been, and the way they'll continue to be. )

Pothos... Do they get big?

( he wants them to get really big if they can... )

I'll do most of the caring for them. I learned a little trick recently, and maybe I can find some good books on gardening too, but we'll have to get them when I get back, 'kay? Wouldn't want to have you babysitting more than one plant.

( because, yeah, he does remember their insistence about living things. )

Well I doubt it's anything that'll hurt me, seeing as you're eating them too.

( is there a reason he should not have? well, aside from— )

I can see why people might not want to get along with the guy who speaks mostly to murderers, though.

[ It's a sympathetic look that crosses Kazuki's face, but there's pity in there too. Humans are fragile, quick to die, they are always begging for extra time when time brings them forward into death's open arms. ]

I cannot be certain this is the case with your friend, but virmutti, by definition, is to let go of all desire. If they have such a strong attachment here, perhaps they will be tethered, in the same way these souls are to this tree. But if they are willing to let go of all things, however hard it may be, you need to respect that decision, lad.

[ When that contract was made, they had nothing, nobody, they had already thrown away their own life and it would have been too easy to offer it up in exchange for one final wish. ]

No.

[ But they do not meet Komaeda's eyes. ]

It's like when you find a spider in your house and are kind of creeped out by it, but you take a sheet of paper and move it outside instead. He lives in the forest, doesn't he? I bet he'll be happier there.

That doesn't mean the spider can't come back to invade, but some people utilize the spider for it's children in order to kill the other creatures within the home...

( i couldn't do it because spiders scare the fuck out of me! that aside, komaeda notices they don't look at him, and he smiles like he's content with the choice they chose. )

I've always seen him here, taking care of this tree... he might not move much, I think he's trapped here... should we set him free?

[STOP THAT'S LITERALLY GOING TO BE THEM!!!! HOW ELSE ARE A PAIR OF FIRST TIMERS TO KNOW WHAT TO DO, ADVICE POSTS IN THIS SCHOOL ARE ABSOLUTE SHIT]

Exactly! You get it! It's so nice...☆

[they're a lot alike, in a lot of different ways, and not all of them good. but keigo is infinitely more honest than subaru, even if subaru tries not to do what amami and komaeda do when it counts, so

there's a lesson to be taken, and he'll try his best. he has to learn to give a little too, after all.]

The first time I got my mom to smile again, I felt amazing... I wanted to be able to do that over and over, so I did -- until she was able to smile without me having to do anything at all. Not a bad accomplishment for a kid, huh?

[ It's a claim that makes him laugh, deep and throaty. ]

You aren't wrong.

[ He does speak mostly to murderers. They're a lot of fun. ]

I have to do my job sometimes, you know. Murderers benefit most from guidance, and those who remain nothing but victims in this school, do you believe they will seek me out to talk?

[ Would they trust him at all? Even in normal society getting people to open their heart is like pulling teeth. Here, everybody has trust issues. Among a multitude of other issues. ]

Saying they're "nothing but victims" is simplifying things a bit, don't you think? They're people too, and there are others in this school who care... who cared about them. Even if the people who've died aren't around to talk to anymore, you could always talk to those around them.

( not that amami would've wanted to all that much, but it makes more sense to him than writing off anyone who doesn't have blood on their hands.

would make him come across as a little less shady than he does, too. maybe if he wasn't "the freak who only talks to murderers," it might contribute to building that trust factor. )

But yeah, either way, you could probably open up your appointments a bit more. ( he waves an absent hand, something dismissive. )

I've heard of at least one plan to frame someone for murder just so they could get in to talk with you; you're in high demand.

It wouldn't have worked. I'm fully aware of who does what.

[ He's the one who sends the invitations, after all. But he does look rather amused by how far some people would apparently go to speak to him, though it won't change his mind. ]

Counseling is a place where you learn more about yourself, Amami. If I entertained every walk-in, it would be conversations such as this.

[ Things about him, which are ultimately things unnecessary. ]

[ He can't ask Rokkun to make a choice and then disregard the choice, what

Having his birthday in the hospital's going to be kind of sad, he thinks. It'll be extra work on the staff to update all those paper charts with the correct age and stuff. At least it shouldn't take too long, he thinks... Pre-op, op, post-op, therapy... definitely doesn't want to go back to school but he'll have to. At least it won't be boring at school. ]

I will.

[ He leans into the hug, and returns it— it's a hug that starts off as a squeeze, then relaxes into something more comfortable, one he doesn't wish to ever end. ]

I'll come back to you, Nagito. And when I do, I'll be strong enough to lift you up, like you always do for me.

( oh, he doesn't think their conversation is interesting? amami shrugs, leans back against his chair with one elbow propped up on the armrest. )

I mean, I'm just answering your questions, but I think I've got a pretty good idea of who I am.

( if mizuki doesn't want to talk about himself, he can always ask questions that don't have to do with him. amami is perfectly happy to learn more about the other through how he responds to him. )

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