yogen | npc contact.2

[subaru's eyes almost open at the sudden thereness of keigo, but he's not done with his wish. it's hard to find just one thing to think about, so he's frankensteining one together with lots of run-on sentences...]

So it's that important of a wish, huh? [a man could die of curiosity.] I don't mind coming up here with you until it does, though~! I love spending time with you!

[it's fun and warm and lets him forget for a little bit that people around him are missing pieces and he can't do anything to stop it, that there's very much a tension as graduation looms ever closer for third years like himself, the possibility of death if one isn't careful...

and because he likes talking to keigo, too.]

I do too.

[ It's not a wish that can be fulfilled so easily, though, they think. That sort of impossible wish is the only sort they know to make on the stars; small wishes, reachable wishes, those are things they grab for themselves without putting their hopes in the sky.

... ]

Do you think it counts if you wish on the stars during the day? They're still there.

[ And it's bright out. The sun is right there. It should count and they wouldn't have to wander around after dark. ]

[... now there's a question.

subaru's quiet, tilting his head against theirs, and opens his eyes, done with his wish. he'd discarded the monster of one it'd become, and had decided on something simple. something that he wished for every time he looked up at the stars, and worked towards fulfilling himself.]

They are still there. And the sun's a star too, so if you can't remember where they were once they're gone you can make a wish on our warm neighbor... so I'm gonna say yes. ♪

[that way, they can wish anytime they want to...!]

Oh, good!

[ They're never going outside at night without supervision again. Good good good. ]

What, so you're throwing away our trysts beneath the night sky so easily now~? I'm hurt, I thought we were gonna stargaze together 'til our wishes came true~.

[nudge nudge... so cruel, so mean... and after making saying that promise-adjacent line...]

How're you gonna fix my lonely heart, huh? Keigo~. ♪

[ leans back stopppp ]

We can still go stargazing. But if I'm with you, I don't want to spend the entire time looking up at the sky.

Oh yeah? So what do you wanna do?

[he knows they have sleepovers planned... for example... but what else]

Hmm...

[ All that comes to mind are boring things, like business and math. What do people even do together? They don't know, they only interact with people long enough to make a transaction and then never seem them again. ]

I don't know... Nothing comes to mind. Just sitting like this together is nice.

You've gotta have an answer prepared if you're gonna refute watching the sky, Keigo, it's my... third favorite thing to do!

[yeah, third sounds right.]

The first's performing on stage and second's walking my dog, by the way~. I can't do either here though. [a sigh. let's say he's finished his sandwich so he can lay down, arms pillowing his head] So all I've got right now is stargazing.

[... that's a comfort from home, in a way. he tucks his chin down and glances at keigo though, and he wriggles his arm away to sort of. pinch their clothes, a little hold]

What'd you like doing before you came to school? Or... with that brother you mentioned? Before he, y'know.

[kicked it]

You can still perform...

[ Here, on the roof, for them. It's sort of like a stage, right? There needs to be a roof for proper acoustics, though, and there's not much in terms of seating, and

They look down at Subaru when he brings their mind back to the present, but it's still that quiet, thoughtful look on their face, because what did they like doing? What do they even remember of their brother...?

...

... ]

I was a lot younger, so all I really remember is following him around the house. There was this game I played by myself, where I'd try to stay in his shadow at all times... I guess I just wanted to stay close to him.

[ Was that fun? It was a game, it was something to do, because sometimes you're three and you have separation anxiety and this is how you cope. ]

["here, on the roof, for them" take that out of brackets and he will. without a second's hesitation.

anyway, a sense of... kinship, he thinks, the same he feels with makoto and his family situation, sweeps over subaru at the words. his smile lessens a bit, dims, and he breathes out softly as he looks at the stars. back home, his dad was among them, but here...?]

... I did something like that with my dad, too. He didn't come home a lot, 'cause he was always busy, but when he did I wanted to spend as much time as I could with him. Now that I'm older, I get why he was so busy all the time, but I...

[talking about this stuff always make him feel so

lonely. he doesn't like it, and he shifts against the concrete; when he speaks again his voice is loud and bright, free hand animated as he waves it around]

Anyway! I totally get that feeling~. It's nice being close to the people you love, right? Even if you use a little game like that to do it~. What kinda things do other people here do with you? Maybe we can steal some ideas for ourselves. ♪

[ They can't say it because it would kill the mood. That Subaru goes ahead and shatters anyways with his bright and cheerful anyway!! ]

Oh! That's a good idea. Sara and I are studying topology together. Helena's teaching me how to read Braille.

[so they can say it now..!!!!!]

What's topology? A study of spinners?

[ cries as i try to bring the topic back around ]

No, it's math but with squishy shapes. I'm going to win a million US dollars when I solve this one math problem.

[ So it's still a business thing in the end, and it makes their head hurt, and it's very not fun. It's something they and Sara do separately, for the most part, which sort of takes away from the hanging out thing.

...

takes another sandwich ]

What do people do with you?

[jdjdkdkd cries too dw i got you]

I like my topology better. [just so they know.

...]

A lotta stuff, I guess. Sort of like what we usually do though, just hang out and eat and do whatever we think of... There's a circle I go to the dog park with, I play basketball with my friend sometimes, we've got an arcade in town, I like watching movies with people, and window shopping's fun, too.

[a lot of stuff.

... there's more than just that, too, but at least some of this stuff is feasible.]

Here I mostly just bother people when they're doing something and make them let me join in. And listen to Macchi play piano, she's really good... Won't play the songs I wanna sing, but that's fine~☆ I sound good without music too. ♪

[ Oh... There's that unease in their chest again as they listen to Subaru, the same when they had listed to Amami recount all the amazing things he did and accomplished. Playing basketball with people, playing games, watching movies, going shopping... they're all such ordinary things that npckun recognizes how ridiculous it is to feel jealous of that, but they are. They'd probably be bad at basketball with how heavy the balls are, and movies rarely hold their interest for very long, but... still. Just having the opportunities would've been nice, even if they didn't end up taking them.

... ]

You sing a cappella? Sounds tough... You have to get the notes just right, without music to support you.

Oh, that's no problem at all! We practice that sort of thing in Yumenosaki from time to time, so even Natsume and Aira can do it~.

[some better than others, probably.]

It's important to know what you're singing incase there's ever an audio mess up, and it's also just fun. ☆ Wanna try? I'll sing with you, I love singing with other people!

[... truthfully, it wasn't so long ago when subaru felt the same unease that keigo feels in their chest now; he gets what it's like to be kept from those things, to be jealous of what others have, it's just that instead of ruminating on them he sorta kinda

stuffed his feelings away and pretended they didn't exist ☆

healthy coping and all. less serious jealously he whines about.]

Yeah? I'm good at singing!

[ probably? hard to judge when you're singing by yourself and your voice sounds good in the shower ]

What songs do you know?

[ ANYWAYS now that i've spent the past hour trying to figure out what npckun's voice would sound like, I settled on this ]

[thank you 1. this song is sick and 2. about the kind of voice i figured for them]

Songs that don't exist right now, and maybe songs that do!

[some of these hits might be ones that his mom and dad listened to when he was younger, considering he was just born in this year in canon,]

Ahaha, sounds kinda weird to put it like that, huh~? What about you? Got any in mind? I'm a quick learner too, so if you wanna teach me something I'm game~☆

[he just... loves singing ☆ he's even sitting up to beam at keigo!!!]

[ another song please listen to this one, I love this one ]

That makes no sense.

[ But there's a little huff of laughter at that. Don't make them choose, though; like when he asked what else they'd rather be doing, nothing immediately comes to mind. ]

I want to sing one of your songs that maybe does exist!

[ohhhhh ur taste is peak ori]

Mm...~ Then...

[... he leans against them, thinking. what sort of things did his mom and dad dance to? sing together? lift him high like he was part of the sky itself? he'd love to sing one of his dad's songs, but wouldn't it be depressing if he offered one of those and nothing registered?

well, not that they would after a point in history anyway. but that's about, if a little less, than a decade into the future.]

Mariya Takeuchi's a pretty big name, ring any bells to you?

[she got a resurgence of fans in 2010 which is the second reason she sticks out to him...☆ we do stan an iconic queen]

Nope!

[ please, they grew up in the middle of a forest or something, ]

I know stuff like... hm... Toryanse, and Kagome Kagome, and Teru Teru Bozu!

[ children's songs, you know, like the sort an older sibling would teach a younger one and then they're gone so you proceed to sing to yourself that and nothing else ]

[oh my god... child... when i get the chance to give u some grown up music... aira will let subaru borrow the cd he's giving him i'm sure and then keigo can become a trickstar stan too]

Man, I haven't sung those in ages~! Let's do it! Gimme your hands, we'll do... Furusato.

[it's another common one, though a little more sentimental than the nursery rhymes it's still very much taught... put your sandwich down friend he's demanding hands, he's even moving to sit more in front of keigo!!!!!!]

[ How are they supposed to eat if Subaru has their hands... There's the brief thought of stuffing the rest of it in their mouth and squirrel it away, but they can't sing like that, so, mm... ]

Okay, okay!

[ sets their sandwich aside, the things they do for Subaru

But in taking Subaru's hands, they make to stand up. ]

[sacrificing sandwiches for singing, truly noteworthy!!!!

subaru's got half a thought of making them pull him up the way they'd made him do the same back in the study hall, but the excitement of singing with someone wins out and he stands too, pulling keigo away from their little picnic area.

it's not close to the edge, so there's no worries there, just away so it doesn't feel so crowded by their feet. subaru'll keep holding their hands too, squeezing them excitedly.]

I'll start, you join in. [...] Ready? ♪

[because when they are, he'll start off, soft and sweet and yearning for a home he hasn't seen in a lot longer than just the few months he's been here... and yet smiling all the same, because that's what an idol does.]

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me, picky about translations now that i translate, taking an half an hour,