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[ Hm? Oh... Their hands feel cold without Subaru's in them, and they're quick to get up too to stick by his side, not unlike how a hungry child would stick by their mother's side while she's prepping dinner. ]

...What sort of readings does he do?

[ When they think of fortune telling, they think of telling the future. And for them, even if it's fake and just for fun, they find that the prospect makes them nervous. ]

[please... you are Such a ducking, keigo....]

Fortune, future, romance -- pretty much any divination you can think of he does, specializing in tarot cards and crystal balls... He even gives general trouble advice. The way he plays is kinda shady, but Natsume's a really good guy.

[...]

Suuuuuper scary when he's mad though. ☆

[ I'm glad you understand why Rokkun gave them that nickname

But ohh... fortune is something that catches their attention, but do they really want to ask Natsume whether they make it or not? No, because they're not going to let something like fate color their actions. ]

I don't really know what I would ask...

[ Lots of things they're worried about, but nothing they would ask. ]

But yeah! I know how scary he can get!

[the minute i thought about it enh put it on the miro board we were so proud of ourselves. how rokkun names his siblings after birds is so cute. let them fly away.]

It's terrifying! He always has a smile on, no matter how angry he gets! [...........] How would you know though, Keigo?

[spill the beans... does he need to punish his bff....]

[ ............ ]

I've been staying hanging out in the common room, and you know how people are.

[ Completely off their rocker. Natsume being smiley angry is very reasonable, hopefully. [

[hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

take your curry.]

Natsume doesn't get mad like that too often, though... Usually when he's worried about someone. But if you don't wanna tell me the truth, that's fine -- I'll let you lie about the little things.

[sorry..... subaru knows his best friend too well to be sold on that, but he isn't holding it against keigo any. as long as it's nothing important, subaru'll take a lie -- as long as keigo tells him the truth when it matters, it's fine.]

Who'd you room with while Ama-chan and I were gone? Maddy? I'll bet he appreciated it a lot, he's a lonely person too.

[ Mmm... npckun at least looks guilty when they're called out on the lie, pulling the plate of curry towards them because hunger still overrides guilt. ]

Yeah. I forced him to sleep with me.

I don't think it's forced if it's him. Maddy's a surprisingly kind guy~, after all! ♪

[they've shared parts of themselves with each others... that's how he knows. he'll get his own.

wait. he'll scoop some up and hold it out to keigo.]

Is it surprising?

[ npckun holds their plate up like Subaru is offering them an extra portion ]

[oh my god... he'll move it past their plate carefully and stop in front of their mouth.]

Say ah~h. [there that should do it.] And yeah! You see a different kind of Maddy, probably, but a lot of people think he's sorta...

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Not very nice!

[ Oh. ]

Ahh~

[ They chew thoughtfully, staring up at the ceiling. Do they see a different Komaeda? It's hard for them to tell one way or another, given that people see a different them depending on who they are and what they're doing. That just seems like the way of the world. ]

Is he nice to you? I'll yell at him if he's not.

[is komaeda nice to him........ that is certainly a question. subaru gets a bite for himself, wiggling the spoon in his mouth thoughtfully.

... it'd be pretty funny to see keigo yell at komaeda, but... hmmmmm.... is he nice to him........

... ... ...]

We have an interesting friendship. I dunno if I'd say he's nice to me, but he's not... not nice? I guess? But, [with a wave of his spoon,] I kind prefer that anyway, 'cause I don't really like being treated too different~.

[there's a story behind thaaaaaat]

I'm going to yell at him next time I see him.

[UGH he's gonna steal some of their food. punishment for cuteness.]

Keigo~, don't do that! Maddy won't change how he treats me, probably, but also if you do let me watch 'cause I think it'd be fun to see how he'd react.

[ NO they're going to eat out of his plate, in that case. It's a communal plate now. ]

...I've yelled at him before. He does what Tarou-nii does: he smiles and laughs and tries to make me feel better.

[ Why can't you guys cry like normal people ]

[oh my god why can't you be cute and feed him back!!!!]

Oh, that's probably 'cause they're used to being yelled at. When you've had enough people shouting stuff at you, you sorta learn to smile and deal with it.

[...]

They don't want you to be upset with them, so they'll try what they can to make you feel better. ♪ It's how they show they care, s'all!

[ asfdlkjh because they only know how to take, not to give...

They do feel bad when Subaru phrases it like that, though it's hard to imagine people yelling a lot at Amami. Komaeda, maybe. But it's not like they're any different with the smile they wear and the way they act around people who make them nervous, like they have to preemptively head off any shouting that's going to happen by not giving them the chance. ]

It's not like I'll hate them forever... Even if I get mad, I could never not love them. It's the same with you, so it's okay if you don't smile.

[stop... we'll learn to give together. he'll teach keigo how to be a cute boyfriend. through examples that he's seen in mao's shoujo mangas. not the main love interests but like, the childhood friends who are very friendly and cute and left to the wayside which is such a shame because they are the the better option every time than the brooding jerk boy who has a heart of gold but only for you]

I won't smile if you yell at me, or pretend I'm okay with it or anything~. I'll still wanna make you feel better though, 'cause I want to be the reason you smile instead of the opposite. ♪ You're the same way, right?

[ both of them like Wakamatsu in GSNK referencing shoujos ]

Yeah! When somebody smiles and I know I'm the reason, that feels soooo warm!

[ It makes them feel like they're doing a good job. They're getting a good grade in making people happy or however the meme goes

but it really does feel like that, for them who is always seeking love and affection, and to make somebody genuinely smile from the bottom of their heart is one of the clearest signs of love. ]

[STOP THAT'S LITERALLY GOING TO BE THEM!!!! HOW ELSE ARE A PAIR OF FIRST TIMERS TO KNOW WHAT TO DO, ADVICE POSTS IN THIS SCHOOL ARE ABSOLUTE SHIT]

Exactly! You get it! It's so nice...☆

[they're a lot alike, in a lot of different ways, and not all of them good. but keigo is infinitely more honest than subaru, even if subaru tries not to do what amami and komaeda do when it counts, so

there's a lesson to be taken, and he'll try his best. he has to learn to give a little too, after all.]

The first time I got my mom to smile again, I felt amazing... I wanted to be able to do that over and over, so I did -- until she was able to smile without me having to do anything at all. Not a bad accomplishment for a kid, huh?

[ They're going to ask Komaeda and follow his advice maybe, we'll see how things turn out, it's tough when you try to crowdsource but it's the same pool of people ]

Yeah... [ ... ] Was she okay?

[please don't ask the romance novelist for advice]

She's okay now.

[his smile remains, but it's that same sort of one he had back during their first stargazing -- a little subdued, a little quiet. the same sort he had talking about "normal" memories in trade for a happy one.

...

a sheepish sort of grin, pushing their food around distractedly.]

Um~, I'm not really good at talking about stuff like this... [because it gets him feeling somber and lonely and sad and then that makes the other person somber and lonely and sad and he doesn't like that--] But you shared a little about your brother and all, so I wanna do the same. It's not fair that I keep asking so much about you and I don't give anything back, right?

[ "now" but not before... npckun thinks back on how they talked about their brother and it was only ever that he was 1) dead, and 2) loved. One is a simple fact and the other was all good things, so comparing the two wouldn't be fair. ]

...It's okay if you don't want to talk about it. There's plenty I never want to talk about. I think sharing the things you want to share is fine.

[it's fair enough to subaru, who's two things about his dad have been 1) busy and 2) loved, the first a simple fact and the rest good things. subaru wonders how to put it, then, his small desire...

... maybe just saying it outright is fine, since he's the same way about sharing laws anyway.]

I want you to ask me about stuff, though, even if I might not answer. I want you to want to learn about me as much as I want to learn about you, Keigo.

[so even if it isn't about "before" or anything like that... he wants keigo to be curious about things relating to him, even the things subaru doesn't want to talk about -- subaru's curious about more details on things keigo doesn't want to talk about too, after all, even if he won't ask.]

[ Hmm... mm... They're quiet, trying very hard to think of a question to ask Subaru, but it's hard to find a genuine one that isn't a leading question for a sales pitch.

...

... ]

I still want to hear about everything you did when you were gone.

[ Experiences and how they're retold tell a lot about a person, they think, and there's nothing wrong with starting from now and working one's way back. ]

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