yogen | npc contact.2

[ ...lessens the pressure against Komaeda's mouth so he can talk but know that they will smother him again if they don't agree with what he says ]

—-pany with Akehoshi-kun! I'm surprised, I didn't take you as the type to be easily embarrassed... considering Aratas normally take what they want, so to see you become so embarrassed by the idea of showing an apparent crush on someone who lacks talent [...]

( yep. )

[ smothers him again ]

I'm not embarrassed! You're just being embarrassing! And Subaru's plenty talented!

— !!

( muffle, muffle... mutter mutter.

muffle, mutter.

remove your hands! )

[ ............removes their hands, against all better judgement ]

—en you're stuffed within his warm embrace, since you're enthusiastic about hugs, there's no way you're willing to let him go... extending the time you hold onto him. The sort of romance you found yourself in, to think it can be done properly by someone as you who caters their personality to those you meet. To show your true feelings and emotions to someone is a sort of trust, I don't understand such a sentiment, but given that you're so young, you should be mindful who y[...]

( ... )

[ Yeah, this time it isn't their hands that shut him up, it's the entire pillow they throw on top of his face and then goes ahead and lies on it themselves. ]

Stop it! I'm not— I don't cater!

[ They do, but like... everybody likes their shopkeep personality, it's very charming. Komaeda is the person they yell at the most, and they have to wonder if that means they trust him the most.

Not in times like this, though. ]

We're talking about you, anyways, not me! Let's talk about your love life instead.

[ Gush to them about your Ultimates, they're good at zoning out and nodding ]

( he flinches when the pillow is thrown, and it makes it easier for him to lay onto his back so that he's tucked properly away in the corner of the bed. don't smother him with the pillow! he uses one hand to push at the softness of it so that he can breathe, but he's well aware of how they cater.

besides, komaeda thinks they've made a fake personality for themselves to be loved by others. )

...I love hope, and every Ultimate here... isn't it obvious? Hm... I guess the same could be said about your feelings too, obviously so when you don't want to be called out on them.

( are they? he could be saying that to get a rise out of npckun, and yes, he is. that's their more honest side, right, better than the personality he's met with when they want to do a sale. )

There's not one Ultimate that I don't love... and it's because their hope is that overwhelming, I can't help but be swept up in it...

[ Whatever works...

npckun puffs their cheeks at being called out but doesn't say anything, because this isn't about them.

... ]

You're hopeful, then? That everything will turn out okay? [ ... ] What do you think will happen at the end of all this?

( talking about love and hope with komaeda, this isn't even about him either... it's about the others, the hopes that he wants to help...

...

he can even admit this easily. )

That this love will stay unrequited? I've always known that, that I'd love them, and they'd despise me to their very core. It's fine, I don't mind it at all!

( hopeful... yeah, he is. )

[ What hope is this?? there is something to be said about unrequited love, but nothing npckun wants to touch upon, rolling over to curl up in what little space the bed offers to rest their cheek on Komaeda's chest. ]

Tarou-nii doesn't despise you. The three of us are going to the beach for real someday.

...But he doesn't love me either, and that means he despises me. He understands that he can use me, and that's fine! I play by his whims, even if he doesn't understand.

( of course, the beach sounds... nice, how many times has komaeda been, how long has he heard the waves crash in his head every day at jabberwock island. those were simpler times, even when he woke up from the simulation, and returned to the real world — he had forgotten how much he enjoyed the blue sky compared to its red, and now he admires the one he finds here at yogen.

...

but the skies at a beach are different, a breath of fresh air for him... )

Will you be comfortable?

Lack of love doesn't mean hatred...

[ Like, for as absent as their dad was in their life, they know in their heart of hearts he did not actually hate them. ]

Comfortable, with the two of you? Yeah.

From an Ultimate, it means everything... if they don't love me, they hate me... but it's fine. As long as I love them, it's fine.

( ouma disliked komaeda, but komaeda still loved him above all of that, and the same goes for every other ultimate who found him intense. they want to stay away from him because he's like that, but... )

Hm? No. Don't you suffer from a body dysmorphic disorder? You didn't want me looking at you change at all.

( blink, blink. )

What? No, I'm not going to change. I'm perfect as I am.

[ What is he talking about... they're thinking like, transitioning or something. ]

( komaeda and npckun are on two different wavelengths but making conversation. )

...? Is that so, then how will you get in the water?

( are they going to get in the water with their clothes on? )

...? I'm not getting in the water.

[ They're going to stay on dry sand and task Komaeda and Amami to bring bucketfulls of water over to them from the ocean ]

...? Why?

( they're not going to stay dry because they have to get in the water? )

Rip currents kill hundreds of people world wide every year.

[ It's self-preservation ]

Don't worry, the whales will protect you.

( the whales are there for a reason to slow down the currents. )

Is it because you're scared of showing your body to others?

No way, I'm cute! [ their face is cute, and so what if they like soft baggy sweaters, they're comfortable ]

And whales spend most of their time in the deepest parts of the ocean to feed. By the time I get deep enough for them to notice, I'll already be dead.

Edited (nms out here giving me nightmares one moment and saving my life in the next) 2021-09-30 00:55 (UTC)

( who is giving us the box? )

They'll come up to breathe, and you'll be lucky to see one... I bet we all could see one. What cute swim trunks will we get you...

( hinata has a pair... with a sun on the crotch. )

[ does he really, it's hinata's swim trunks coming at us with the box ]

From a boat, maybe, but not from the beach. A boat might be okay... I can wear normal clothes on a boat.

( the man was wet inside the box, and he probably had them on... never know. )

Wearing outfits is the best part of the beach, don't you think so? You can learn a lot about the person from what they prefer, you can even wear a jacket!

( like he does, then they could match. )

I already have one in mind... we can go shopping together.

[ Oh... they do like to be matchies ]

Okay... What do you have in mind?

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