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( sniff sniff... what's on them hope... despair... better be hope!! they have powers, komaeda can sense that little hope. )

Were you able to fix whatever your bad idea was? There's a reason bad things happen, so good things are built from it... at the time, hope was made because you learned something, and now you can perfect it, and who knows... for others it may have given them a chance to realize that they're capable of something. You are a cultist... so I can only imagine what you did that made you so excited...

( let him think... hmmm... )

Brought back someone from the dead?

...nah. If I could do that, I'd have done that already.

[ They would have brought Clamor back the moment they found out what happened to him. They would have brought back ...a lot of people, who were important to them in the past. People they miss with all their heart and soul but have not seen, will never see, no matter how long they stay here and wait. ]

Are you interested in that sort of thing? Do you know how?

It's not my profession, but how far would you go to bring someone back, Goto-kun?

( in a way, the only resurrection that komaeda has taken part of is molding a person into the deceased — where he ensured that a girl would become the second enoshima because he equally loved and hated her. there's other means, but the chance to obtain their consciousness and upload it into a simulation is lost upon them — they need to be alive first, but to bring them strictly back from the dead... komaeda has never dabbled in the means. )

You must have an inkling of how to start, but... normally you have to give a piece of yourself to obtain a part of them.

( he's not an occult teacher, and he isn't as well-versed in the field as clamor or lucifer, but as he thinks about it, would hikaru be able to even attempt? depending on how strong their hope is, something could be born — )

It comes down to your hope, though, if you'd be able to manage it. Are you weak, Goto-kun?

Haha... what a question to ask someone.

[ Are they weak? ... There are things they've done that they wouldn't have imagined possible otherwise, but whether that makes them strong or weak, they don't know. ]

I think the person I was in the past would have definitely done anything they could to make it happen. But now... I have friends. I have Lucifer-senpai. I'm not so desperate, anymore.

...So do you believe that you in the past was strong or weak, how do you define it now?

( he could ask if they — friends, lucifer-senpai — are their hope, and that would be an answer that komaeda's willing to settle with for the moment. he doesn't, though, instead he watches hikaru to read their expression as he wonders was the question difficult, or do they have all the answers? )

Being desperate... is a strength, the most desperate have always chased after what they wanted, do the unimaginable...

( he thinks, one person comes to mind, and he sighs with a small smile. )

[ They seem to have to think about it, with different definitions of strength on ends with one another. Desperation, however strong, is a double edged sword, wild and unpredictable and one they don't want to wield anymore. ]

The person I was in the past is... different. I wouldn't be able to say strong or weak. I feel a lot stronger now, though! Being able to move and focus on the future made things a lot better.

Hm...

( like he's thinking about it himself, is it a suitable answer? in a way, it's an answer, but to komaeda's knowledge it's... )

Heh... It's fine, Goto-kun, you'll show off what you can do now. Come on, you're holding up what we have planned today... if Lucifer-kun will take awhile, do you want to go to the forest?

( he looks towards the exit of the kitchen to show he's ready to go, and he'll take them along as well. )

To catch fireflies?

[ It's quite a bit too early for fireflies to be out, or for them to make a campfire or roast yams or do any of those fun summer camp things, but a walk in the woods isn't the worst way to spend an afternoon either. ]

Okay! I'm going to pack these up for lunch, and then we can go! Let me know if you want to bring anything else!

( it's way too early to catch them, but there's normally less than a few that'll blink everywhere — maybe they'll get lucky. dragonflies are also an option if they happen to see them, and komaeda recalls how to catch them if they have string and a few rocks. )

Alright, don't lag behind, though... hm... fireflies, dragonflies... if you bring one jar, you could grow your own butterfly.

( or fuzzy moth... where do we find those worms at. )

I'm hurrying, I'm hurrying! A butterfly won't be able to live in a jar, though, you know?

[ Maybe a caterpillar, but they also don't know about capturing butterflies in a far to raise ]

I've tried, I was younger... I got my own jar, found a caterpillar, and cut open the top so it'd have air to breathe... It went pretty well.

( while they're getting ready, komaeda will look for two jars, and also two tops to put on so that they can equally have one. maybe hinata would like a little gift. )

You can trust me, I have a basic understanding.

Hmm... Alright! It'd be really cool if we could find one. And maybe we can keep it in our dorm when it hatches! Just until winter's over!

[ Because it would be cruel to turn a newly hatched butterfly out into the cold, or something. Anyways, getting ready doesn't take long, and they bound out of the door first, eager to go. ]

You could ask Hinata-kun and Add-kun to look over it when you're gone, too, I believe they can make a friend out of it.

( oh, they really are the first one out, okay, he's coming (trying not to drop the glass jars) as he follows behind hikaru, exiting out the door behind them so he can keep up. )

...I'm unsure what butterflies are normally out this season. That means the type of caterpillar we find will be at random.

( do they come in poisonous. )

[ ?? Is that "when you're gone" referring to when Hikaru is inevitably killed off, or does he just mean when they're in class or something and not around. ]

I only know the big squishy green ones, but those were on fruit trees, not in a forest like this. I've seen butterflies there, though, so there's got to be some, somewhere.

Maybe a Blue Morpho caterpillar would be easy to come by...

( why do you use komaeda for evil, obviously when komaeda and hikaru are gone on a field trip!! )

I haven't been to the forest here... what's the best route we can take to get there?

( as for caterpillars, i tried to google the ones that makes the cute fuzzy moths but i can't find them, i hope they find those... they mean so much to me. )

[ stronger than me, I google image searched black fuzzy caterpillar and then tabbed out after two seconds ]

The campus is surrounded by forest, so really, we can go however we want. Just behind the dorms works just fine.

[ And they'll be able to walk straight out into the tree line, turning back around to see if Komaeda's keeping up. He can get as far as that before blacking out. ]

I'll trust you, Goto-kun... we have to get as many caterpillars as we can bring back, okay?

( let me tell you i get so scared, i can't even google spiders, if i see sumn w more than 2 legs i am OUT!

he's listening, because he'll be willing to go with hikaru to the forest, thinking they're a good luck charm until...

...

...

you're telling me he just faints right then and there? well, he's hikaru's problem now... is he still holding the glass jars? he's probably going to stab himself on impact, but you know what...

...

... )

[ He faints right then and there and the last thing he remembers is a stabbing pain in his hand.

Komaeda opens his eyes to find himself lying at the base of the wisteria tree, surrounded by spider lilies with a wet towel placed over his forehead. Hikaru is sitting next to him eating lunch, because there's nothing else for them to do so they're just going to work on this. ]

( not his hand... okay, that hurts... he's not going to move it, rather... he can feel a sharp pain, and what's this... bad luck, he guesses.

komaeda closes his eyes, returning to the darkness just so he can open them again to see if hikaru's one, which they're not, and it's a surprise to him. his vision feels lightly blurry when there's a sea or red wrapped around him, but he'll take a deep breath and just lay there. )

...

( he parts his mouth open to speak, it's like he forgot his words for a moment, and he closes his mouth again trying to register the situation. why is he here, and he even looks up at the wisteria petals... which one is his dead friends... okay, maybe he can say something worth while. )

...Goto-kun?

-—You're awake!

[ They set the food aside and turn to face Komaeda, ready to help him sit up or stare blankly at him if he decides to keep laying down. ]

How are you feeling? I turned around and you were on the ground.

( komaeda will take the help sitting up, but his hand hurts once again, almost like deja vu... aside from that, he smiles softly as he looks at the other. so he just passed out, that seems... like what normally happens. )

We get a little further every month, ah... I'm sorry, Goto-kun... I guess I can't go to the forest with you...

( he clears his throat, shaking his head. )

...I'm feeling disappointed.

No... don't be disappointed. It's still pretty hot in the afternoons, and you're not outside much, right? I mostly see you haunting the school, and a lot of my friends are the same way.

[ aka they'd be dying in their black robes if they stayed too long outside, and Hikaru's own is laid over their shoulders instead of with their arms properly through the sleeves. ]

...Haunting?

( he has a headache at the moment, and he lifts one hand to rub at his temples... he doesn't understand why, but he's never been the type to be in the sun. so that's right because he... burns easily. )

...I always wanted to have darker skin, but the sun is really bad for my complexion. I didn't mean to cause problems for you.

( he feels bad... )

[ ? is that not what he does ]

It's no problem! Really, it's not. It's not quite camping out in the forest, but we have a tree here and a picnic [ sort of, it's partially eaten, but sort of ] and the shade feels nice, doesn't it?

Is that it, are you the type that's able to rest easy under a bunch of dead souls? Hm, they say the cries of them makes one rest even peaceful.

( because they'd take up pieces of the deceased, and that happens to be their so called "peaceful" expression when asleep. now he doesn't know if that's how it works for hikaru, but considering they're part of the cult, and should know about this already makes komaeda wonder. )

It's perfect, though.

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