npc contact.2
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komaeda's never felt that before, so that warm feeling that wrapped over him like a blanket, to be in their blinding radiance, it was at that moment he gave himself to another, even if they didn't realize it. it was a love that komaeda would give everything for, even his life, that's the sort of love that he expects. it doesn't hurt, no, not to him because he's a masochist for it, and so the pain continues pushing him forward, because there's nothing wrong with unrequited, there's nothing wrong with loving and the other doesn't love you back — there's a strength in that, that sort of commitment is beyond the words he wrote on this paper, but npckun is scared, they must not be able to live a life where they love, and that love isn't returned, because they want to be loved. love me, love you, love them. it's always been about them doing their best to be loved, they crave it, they'll fit any personality to have it.
they shouldn't have to do that for this, not for love they desire just from anyone. )
What's wrong, are you afraid of love, now?
( even as he says that, he flips the dots and boxes paper back over to lean against npckun so they can hide even more. it's funny, komaeda thinks about love, and he wonders where he's misplaced his... and thinking about it makes him bite his tongue, he pauses, thinking of how to proceed. )
Can you stomach if this love isn't the ideal, that there's consequences that may come from it? Are you prepared, because throwing yourself in without thought... not just anyone can save you, not even him. Only you can save you.
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When they lift their face from Komaeda's side, their eyes are dry, downcast.
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He won't dare break my heart. I told him already, I'll super mad if he does.
[ And nobody wants to see them mad /: they cry when they're mad, and nobody wants to deal with that ]
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( he won't break their heart? fine, then what of his heart, will npckun break it instead? or will they dash that gold over something previously broken, but shines so that people focus on the outside than the inside? komaeda cares, and he worries, he isn't able to wipe away those feelings because they're a part of him — all he can do is watch people from behind a glass window, and when he reaches out, that invisible barrier stops him. )
Will you be mad at yourself?
( maybe he shouldn't appear so... empty about it, but he leans up against them with a small sigh. )
I don't want you to like, or love like normal people... I want you to like, and love that's stronger than what people normally give. Do you know what love is also like?
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Most definitely, they think, in the end. But they're going to try very hard not to. ]
I know what love is like... I loved Aniki.
[ So much so, that they chased his shadow years after he was already dead. Chased him all the way here, died so they could reach him. It's a different sort of love, one that borderlines obsession, but love is love. ]
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( what happened to loving him as of now, oh, that's something, but he doesn't comment. instead, he leans back against whatever's behind him now, removing his weight off npckun. )
Akehoshi-kun isn't "Aniki", he's someone entirely different... that love is different.
( but that love is also the same love, that want to be with a person, but this hits a different level, this isn't something that can be compared to their brotherly love. then again, komaeda can't tell what they like or what they love when it comes to subaru in general — an affectionately starved idiot who only chased after npckun because of a mere touch and that they were cute, there was no actual strong feelings behind it other than "notice me," a sad... start. )
Unless you like Akehoshi-kun... then that's also something else. I just want to know if you're sure about... this choice.
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I like him.
[ It's fine... Even if it turns out to be a passionate heat-of-the-moment that'll get snuffed out at a moment's notice, they only have this moment in time left now anyways, so they're going to do what they want, take what they want, love who they want. ]
I love him. Don't tell me I'm wrong.
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( it's never been wrong to love, npckun can love someone as basic, someone as generic, lack of talent that subaru akehoshi is, because they're all in the same pool — it's like how ultimates and ultimates can be together, the same goes for those who aren't ultimates. )
You only have so much time, so I understand wanting somebody's love before it's too late.
( lifting his organic hand, he stares at the lines as a normal response to his words, just so he can see this, and not see the expression on npckun's face. )
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then does why my dog does which is physically insert themselves between Komaeda's face and his hand, look at them instead ]
Are you jealous?
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( kisses npckun's forehead. )
If you hurt yourself, you'll recede into your shell, you'll regret... Your strength was to act alone, but now you have others... if you return to such a solitary life, you'll die alone...
( oh, maybe he is jealous, he wants to die too. )
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npckun looks up at him ]
Wait, do that again.
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Ahaha, nope, I don't understand the concept of jealousy... ( repeats himself ) Instead, you can say I'm worried about you.
If you hurt yourself, you'll recede into your shell, you'll regret... Your strength was to act alone, but now you have others... if you return to such a solitary life, you'll die alone...
( he sounds proud actually when he says this. )
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No!! I mean kiss me again so I don't get hurt and recede and return to a solitary life and die alone!
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( aratas are so obsessed with kisses... )
Close your eyes.
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kisses their forehead, ruffles hair...
combination. )
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npckun still jumps a little when Komaeda touches the top of their head, but it doesn't happen with the forehead kiss and they keep their eyes closed after because you're not supposed to open your eyes unless the other person says so and they look sooooooo happy, like they've forgotten whatever they had wanted to talk about, that doesn't matter anymore, they're winning ]
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they jump, but komaeda keeps his hand there, thinking he can probably ease them into it if he does this. everything little touch on the head, komaeda will press a kiss on their forehead — that's how wholesome conditioning works. )
What are you smiling like that for?
( he teases, even though he wears a smile himself, that doesn't mean he's any less worried. )
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Because my hope isn't up there, so that means you're kissing me! That means you love me!
[ Them!! Not their hope!! That they harbor! ]
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...? You still don't get it, but it's fine... you'll learn sooner or later.
( because komaeda's body is trash, so whatever it does doesn't matter as long as it dies for hope. )
To write that sort of narration on me... don't you think it's unfair. Now, do you want to see something interesting?
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[ npckun said it and so it must be right. ]
What is it?
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( cat's out of the bag... )
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( what are they looking for? stop that... )
Where are your manners?
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I want to see, Abba! Pleeeeeeaase!
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