yogen | npc contact.2

[ Will npckun break Subaru's heart?

...

Most definitely, they think, in the end. But they're going to try very hard not to. ]

I know what love is like... I loved Aniki.

[ So much so, that they chased his shadow years after he was already dead. Chased him all the way here, died so they could reach him. It's a different sort of love, one that borderlines obsession, but love is love. ]

Loved?

( what happened to loving him as of now, oh, that's something, but he doesn't comment. instead, he leans back against whatever's behind him now, removing his weight off npckun. )

Akehoshi-kun isn't "Aniki", he's someone entirely different... that love is different.

( but that love is also the same love, that want to be with a person, but this hits a different level, this isn't something that can be compared to their brotherly love. then again, komaeda can't tell what they like or what they love when it comes to subaru in general — an affectionately starved idiot who only chased after npckun because of a mere touch and that they were cute, there was no actual strong feelings behind it other than "notice me," a sad... start. )

Unless you like Akehoshi-kun... then that's also something else. I just want to know if you're sure about... this choice.

[ ... ]

I like him.

[ It's fine... Even if it turns out to be a passionate heat-of-the-moment that'll get snuffed out at a moment's notice, they only have this moment in time left now anyways, so they're going to do what they want, take what they want, love who they want. ]

I love him. Don't tell me I'm wrong.

It's not wrong to.

( it's never been wrong to love, npckun can love someone as basic, someone as generic, lack of talent that subaru akehoshi is, because they're all in the same pool — it's like how ultimates and ultimates can be together, the same goes for those who aren't ultimates. )

You only have so much time, so I understand wanting somebody's love before it's too late.

( lifting his organic hand, he stares at the lines as a normal response to his words, just so he can see this, and not see the expression on npckun's face. )

[ npckun stares at Komaeda's hand too

then does why my dog does which is physically insert themselves between Komaeda's face and his hand, look at them instead ]

Are you jealous?

Ahaha, nope, I don't understand the concept of jealousy... ( well, when it comes to ultimate's it's full throttle. ) Instead, you can say I'm worried about you.

( kisses npckun's forehead. )

If you hurt yourself, you'll recede into your shell, you'll regret... Your strength was to act alone, but now you have others... if you return to such a solitary life, you'll die alone...

( oh, maybe he is jealous, he wants to die too. )

[ ...oh

npckun looks up at him ]

Wait, do that again.

( oh, he gets it. )

Ahaha, nope, I don't understand the concept of jealousy... ( repeats himself ) Instead, you can say I'm worried about you.

If you hurt yourself, you'll recede into your shell, you'll regret... Your strength was to act alone, but now you have others... if you return to such a solitary life, you'll die alone...

( he sounds proud actually when he says this. )

[ wha- ]

No!! I mean kiss me again so I don't get hurt and recede and return to a solitary life and die alone!

That's what you meant...

( aratas are so obsessed with kisses... )

Close your eyes.

[ npckun obediently closes their eyes and stands a little taller in anticipation, do NOT run away ]

( stares at them closing their eyes, and he could run, HE COULD, but he stays where he is...

kisses their forehead, ruffles hair...

combination. )

[ no............... not how this turned out cute despite my apprehensions

npckun still jumps a little when Komaeda touches the top of their head, but it doesn't happen with the forehead kiss and they keep their eyes closed after because you're not supposed to open your eyes unless the other person says so and they look sooooooo happy, like they've forgotten whatever they had wanted to talk about, that doesn't matter anymore, they're winning ]

( where's the faith in him.........................

they jump, but komaeda keeps his hand there, thinking he can probably ease them into it if he does this. everything little touch on the head, komaeda will press a kiss on their forehead — that's how wholesome conditioning works. )

What are you smiling like that for?

( he teases, even though he wears a smile himself, that doesn't mean he's any less worried. )

[ wholesome conditioning... gotta wholesome condition myself to write cute threads without the growing apprehension ]

Because my hope isn't up there, so that means you're kissing me! That means you love me!

[ Them!! Not their hope!! That they harbor! ]

( yes... komaeda is being good, he's terrorizing others.... so your npcs are free for awhile... cute threads!! )

...? You still don't get it, but it's fine... you'll learn sooner or later.

( because komaeda's body is trash, so whatever it does doesn't matter as long as it dies for hope. )

To write that sort of narration on me... don't you think it's unfair. Now, do you want to see something interesting?

It's not unfair because it's the truth.

[ npckun said it and so it must be right. ]

What is it?

Akehoshi-kun is asking for advice on how to date you, do you want to see?

( cat's out of the bag... )

[ where is his pda, grabby hands for his pda ]

Ah, ah... ah!

( what are they looking for? stop that... )

Where are your manners?

[ fine ]

I want to see, Abba! Pleeeeeeaase!

Ah! You called me that again, so better than that... I'll read it aloud to you.

( he pulls out his pda, going to this post specifically where he stands up so that npckun can't take the device. )

"Help! A friend of mine recently got into their very first relationship!" ( he feigns as gasp, looking over to npckun. ) "and they're too scared to ask the forums for advice themselves, so they're making me do it!" ...Ah, poor Denko being the one to explain the news to everyone on the network.

( he laughs, shaking his head. ) What do you think so far?

[ Wow, tall people suck, he'd better not be changing any words ]

Denko? Who? And tell Subaru I'm not scared!

[ Subaru's the one posting this asking for advice supposedly on their behalf?? this is what he's making it sound like ]

It was a face that resembled a college girl, and it was the love story of her, and her stalker.

( he'll pass the pda over to npckun, now they're able to read everything. )

I believe... he's scared, of loving you properly, of hurting you, and so he asked for advice.

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