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( YES i couldn't remember.................... leave me alone, thinking about the movie don't blink now... )

...Why would he save you from that? Saihara-kun wouldn't be bothered by something so simple, there has to be something else.

( because... )

...He was kind. He wanted to help others so you must be in need.

[ ... ]

Yeah, he was kind. I don't really get what I needed saving from, but I'm grateful that he asked. It's been fun. Everybody here is so weird, so it's been fun to watch. I'd rather stay at school forever, than go home.

...I wonder.

( no matter how many times he stares at hikaru, he doesn't see anything. yet, saihare saw something in them, and that's where komaeda fails because there's nothing aside from... that little fragment of hope. )

Your hope is... not even a fraction to his, but... why.

( he knows... saihara didn't die for them though, he knows... that hikaru's probably all that's left of saihara's generosity to another. he frowns at the thought before sitting down, and when komaeda thinks about it... he misses him. last time he missed saihara, he stabbed him to force him back, to make him see him, and now... what?

hm.

komaeda can't just stab himself, or maybe he can... but will that bring him back? probably not. )

Are you good at seances?

Oh. No, I'm not allowed to summon things without supervision anymore.

[ And... it wouldn't be any good to try and bring Shuichi back, no matter how much Komaeda hurts and pines for him. It's nothing something they like to mess with— pulling people over to this side just to see them, to have them relive their memories, to ask them questions.

If they're patient, their loved ones will come back to them. In a dream, sometimes. In person, others, although it may not be the same person, but still you can tell. And so they wait. ]

( "anymore" sitting here thinking to myself don't tell me this the one that summoned the imps, don't tell me hikaru summoned the i— )

...What happened last time that made you need supervision?

( because that means it went wrong, and if they did it flawlessly, then it should be fine for them to do whatever they want. his thoughts were more, maybe he could talk to him about what he should do considering saihara had a... certain thought process that no one could match. it's not like he's in love or anything! he doesn't like anyone, it's just what do you say when the light of your life becomes extinguished like that. to not get that chance...

hm. hm. )

Um.

[ Several dozen people got hurt, but they can't just say that. ]

Things sort of got out of hand... But it's alright! Everything turned out okay!

( yeah, don't let komaeda know about that!!! )

Really? Come on, you have to tell, you know hope is brought from the cruelest despair.

( whatever got out of hand, people were able to overcome it, right? he's staring directly at hikaru like waiting for them to give the answer. ) I want to know the state of your hope, too, how did you feel during it?

Not despairing...

[ They know despair. Been there, done that, twice now actually but this was sort of the opposite. ]

I guess I was kind of proud at the time, because I've never done anything like that before. My friends and I were all so excited, you know? Like our hard work's finally paid off, and we could show Lucifer-senpai how much we've learned, and it turned out it was a bad idea!

( sniff sniff... what's on them hope... despair... better be hope!! they have powers, komaeda can sense that little hope. )

Were you able to fix whatever your bad idea was? There's a reason bad things happen, so good things are built from it... at the time, hope was made because you learned something, and now you can perfect it, and who knows... for others it may have given them a chance to realize that they're capable of something. You are a cultist... so I can only imagine what you did that made you so excited...

( let him think... hmmm... )

Brought back someone from the dead?

...nah. If I could do that, I'd have done that already.

[ They would have brought Clamor back the moment they found out what happened to him. They would have brought back ...a lot of people, who were important to them in the past. People they miss with all their heart and soul but have not seen, will never see, no matter how long they stay here and wait. ]

Are you interested in that sort of thing? Do you know how?

It's not my profession, but how far would you go to bring someone back, Goto-kun?

( in a way, the only resurrection that komaeda has taken part of is molding a person into the deceased — where he ensured that a girl would become the second enoshima because he equally loved and hated her. there's other means, but the chance to obtain their consciousness and upload it into a simulation is lost upon them — they need to be alive first, but to bring them strictly back from the dead... komaeda has never dabbled in the means. )

You must have an inkling of how to start, but... normally you have to give a piece of yourself to obtain a part of them.

( he's not an occult teacher, and he isn't as well-versed in the field as clamor or lucifer, but as he thinks about it, would hikaru be able to even attempt? depending on how strong their hope is, something could be born — )

It comes down to your hope, though, if you'd be able to manage it. Are you weak, Goto-kun?

Haha... what a question to ask someone.

[ Are they weak? ... There are things they've done that they wouldn't have imagined possible otherwise, but whether that makes them strong or weak, they don't know. ]

I think the person I was in the past would have definitely done anything they could to make it happen. But now... I have friends. I have Lucifer-senpai. I'm not so desperate, anymore.

...So do you believe that you in the past was strong or weak, how do you define it now?

( he could ask if they — friends, lucifer-senpai — are their hope, and that would be an answer that komaeda's willing to settle with for the moment. he doesn't, though, instead he watches hikaru to read their expression as he wonders was the question difficult, or do they have all the answers? )

Being desperate... is a strength, the most desperate have always chased after what they wanted, do the unimaginable...

( he thinks, one person comes to mind, and he sighs with a small smile. )

[ They seem to have to think about it, with different definitions of strength on ends with one another. Desperation, however strong, is a double edged sword, wild and unpredictable and one they don't want to wield anymore. ]

The person I was in the past is... different. I wouldn't be able to say strong or weak. I feel a lot stronger now, though! Being able to move and focus on the future made things a lot better.

Hm...

( like he's thinking about it himself, is it a suitable answer? in a way, it's an answer, but to komaeda's knowledge it's... )

Heh... It's fine, Goto-kun, you'll show off what you can do now. Come on, you're holding up what we have planned today... if Lucifer-kun will take awhile, do you want to go to the forest?

( he looks towards the exit of the kitchen to show he's ready to go, and he'll take them along as well. )

To catch fireflies?

[ It's quite a bit too early for fireflies to be out, or for them to make a campfire or roast yams or do any of those fun summer camp things, but a walk in the woods isn't the worst way to spend an afternoon either. ]

Okay! I'm going to pack these up for lunch, and then we can go! Let me know if you want to bring anything else!

( it's way too early to catch them, but there's normally less than a few that'll blink everywhere — maybe they'll get lucky. dragonflies are also an option if they happen to see them, and komaeda recalls how to catch them if they have string and a few rocks. )

Alright, don't lag behind, though... hm... fireflies, dragonflies... if you bring one jar, you could grow your own butterfly.

( or fuzzy moth... where do we find those worms at. )

I'm hurrying, I'm hurrying! A butterfly won't be able to live in a jar, though, you know?

[ Maybe a caterpillar, but they also don't know about capturing butterflies in a far to raise ]

I've tried, I was younger... I got my own jar, found a caterpillar, and cut open the top so it'd have air to breathe... It went pretty well.

( while they're getting ready, komaeda will look for two jars, and also two tops to put on so that they can equally have one. maybe hinata would like a little gift. )

You can trust me, I have a basic understanding.

Hmm... Alright! It'd be really cool if we could find one. And maybe we can keep it in our dorm when it hatches! Just until winter's over!

[ Because it would be cruel to turn a newly hatched butterfly out into the cold, or something. Anyways, getting ready doesn't take long, and they bound out of the door first, eager to go. ]

You could ask Hinata-kun and Add-kun to look over it when you're gone, too, I believe they can make a friend out of it.

( oh, they really are the first one out, okay, he's coming (trying not to drop the glass jars) as he follows behind hikaru, exiting out the door behind them so he can keep up. )

...I'm unsure what butterflies are normally out this season. That means the type of caterpillar we find will be at random.

( do they come in poisonous. )

[ ?? Is that "when you're gone" referring to when Hikaru is inevitably killed off, or does he just mean when they're in class or something and not around. ]

I only know the big squishy green ones, but those were on fruit trees, not in a forest like this. I've seen butterflies there, though, so there's got to be some, somewhere.

Maybe a Blue Morpho caterpillar would be easy to come by...

( why do you use komaeda for evil, obviously when komaeda and hikaru are gone on a field trip!! )

I haven't been to the forest here... what's the best route we can take to get there?

( as for caterpillars, i tried to google the ones that makes the cute fuzzy moths but i can't find them, i hope they find those... they mean so much to me. )

[ stronger than me, I google image searched black fuzzy caterpillar and then tabbed out after two seconds ]

The campus is surrounded by forest, so really, we can go however we want. Just behind the dorms works just fine.

[ And they'll be able to walk straight out into the tree line, turning back around to see if Komaeda's keeping up. He can get as far as that before blacking out. ]

I'll trust you, Goto-kun... we have to get as many caterpillars as we can bring back, okay?

( let me tell you i get so scared, i can't even google spiders, if i see sumn w more than 2 legs i am OUT!

he's listening, because he'll be willing to go with hikaru to the forest, thinking they're a good luck charm until...

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...

you're telling me he just faints right then and there? well, he's hikaru's problem now... is he still holding the glass jars? he's probably going to stab himself on impact, but you know what...

...

... )

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