yogen | npc contact.2

[ A small smile appears on their face, spreading wide, warm, happy. Even if it isn't exactly word for word what they asked for, words are just words in the end, but being shown it, them believing in it...

They really do love him. Want to be near him as much as they can, want to make him as happy as he makes them, would do anything he asks if it's in their power to do so. ]

Me too.

[ ... ]

Aniki.

[ Rokuro is dead, he doesn't need this title anymore ]

( he'd stay in place if it wasn't for what he feels to be... this aura of what? hopefulness, just a feeling that makes his own chest tight as he stands properly to look down at them, catch the warm smile on their face. does something like that make them happy?

he watches them for a moment, waiting, and the title that slips from their mouth makes him chuckle a bit. he's never been called it to his face, but he doesn't even know that monaca does it as well. he pauses.

thoughtful.

he can't be someone like that, and considering who that person is... who komaeda is aware is looking for their sibling every day. )

Call me otousan... ah, papa works too! Dad works too... Origin is also a proper synonym...

( he'll smile himself, not one he's capable of often, but a smile that'll stay here between them, and no one else. lost in time in the room that they reside in, and directed at npckun only. )

Because you're going to be with Aniki again one day... and I'll be there to see it.

[ The suggestions make them laugh, because it would be weird to call Komaeda papa, like there is some obligation attached to parent and child that doesn't exist with brothers. ]

...I know. Thank you.

[ Their brother is dead. And when they die, properly die, they hope they can be with him again too. ]

That won't be for a while, but I know it'll happen. I think you'd like him! He probably wouldn't like you at first, but you'll grow on him, so it'll work out.

( otousan is cuter, and he would respond to it, but it is silly... asking for certain titles, but they just come as time goes. whatever place he finds himself in, he'll have to accept it, but it doesn't matter considering he'll be something like family — that luxury can be taken away so easily, and he knows, but that's why it makes him want to give the other what he didn't have. his first attempt was his time in despair, and this time, he's not as bad... but would this be a proper chance? no, the first time was just as proper... as long as the kids had someone.

hm... )

When you're ready... it'll be that day. As long as you have hope... he's within your reach.

( up a flight of stairs, turn a corner, and it takes three knocks on a certain door. )

...I wonder. ( he claps his hands together gently as he thinks about it, and then he laughs. ) He wouldn't have time to think about me... he'd be too concerned over you, isn't that how family works? ...Hm, he'd want to hug you all the time, probably wouldn't let you go... that's how I see it!

[ They can only hope so, to realize that silly daydream they've played over and over again, of opening the door on that day to find him standing there and pulling them into a hug so that they're both wet with snow. And they would hug him back, and they won't ever let him go. ]

Hehe... I hope so. But he'll get to see how much I've grown up! I can show him how smart I am, and everything I've learned how to do, and he wouldn't have to take care of me, because I can take care of myself now! He wouldn't have to work so hard, or do so much... he can be happy again, and that'll make me happy, and the three of us can play together.

( that sort of life... is that of the mundane, a normal, boring, and scripted life — but that's the life npckun must want more than the world. it's nothing komaeda could handle, not when his life is filled with too much always happening — something terrible here, something miraculous there — he doesn't quite fit in, but he finds himself smiling as the other explains their ideal. he doesn't think their brother would give up at all, no matter how big their sibling have grown.

he thinks that rokuro would make up for lost time, that he'd do whatever has to be done so that npckun doesn't think they were unloved that entire time he was gone. )

...

( hm... what would he do, he thinks. )

As long as he's with you, people are... happy, right? As long as you have one another, that hope... bleeds through, and it runs until every last drop is used up, and even after... you still have what's important.

( greedy, taking more than they should, but that's what makes them... them. ) What would you like to do first the moment we find him together? ( "together," so it's like komaeda didn't lie to them all this time. ) And we'll do just that.

[ As long as they get their brother back... yeah, they think so. They'll be happy, at least, like what very little they remember of the time when he was still in their life. The flipside, though... ... They can only hope. ]

What should we do...? Hm...

[ ... ]

Group hug!

...Hm.

( a group hug is simple enough, at this point he doesn't even know why he asked. he looks down at npckun, and he makes a mental note to remember that should be the first thing they do when they're all together.

... )

I remember now, guess what...

[ A group 48 minute hug...... ]

What?

( that is not realistic!? )

I love you.

[ OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHH THEY'RE WINNING TODAY ]

I love you too! Say it again! And again!!

( HE HAS A COOLDOWN NOW!! he's thinking about it, contemplating his next move and...

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...Only if you say it first!

( call him it, call him it!!! )

[ they already said it! ]

I love you! Now it's your turn!

[ what else does he want to hear!!! ]

( he wants to be dad, let him!! )

Mmm...

( hugs them tightly so they can't escape. )

I love... your hope, and you too. Your turn.

[ oh—- it's their hugging tactic used against them, and they find that they don't mind it ]

I love your hope too? And also you.

Nope... I don't believe it.

( sniffle... )

Tell me I'm your favorite parent... and that you love me no matter what.

[ ...

gives Komaeda an Extra tight hug to make up for the silence ]

I love you no matter what.

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You hate me... I'm not good enough... it's because I'm trash...

Noooooooooooo...

[ ): ]

I love you no matter what, but I love dad and mama too. How can I choose a favorite? They're different sorts of love.

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Choose me...

( because he's standing here right now, and he couldn't imagine how hard this decision is... probably because he didn't love his own parents. )

I can love you as much as them... but I can't replace them.

I need you to love me more than them.

[ please, the amount of love they get from their dad alone,,, ]

And I know you can't replace them... and that's fine. I love you for you, not because you're a stand in for my dad, or my brother, or anybody else. It's all different sorts of love, and this love is for you.

If there are others around, I'll direct their love so they love you a lot. When we're alone, I can make up for what I didn't give at the time... I want you loved by the masses.

( even if it doesn't make them happy. )

...And this love I have is for you, too.

( it's different from what he felt with... someone else, but he guesses this is love regardless. it reminds him of... the old days. )

[ I mean... yeah... other people's love is nice, but too much from too many and they start to feel uneasy at the idea. ]

Direct their love... to my wares. So they can buy things.

[ anyways my brain just stopped I'm tapping out good night ]

( it's okay, get some sleep and komaeda will just hug npckun until you come back.

hugs in silence... )

[ hugs in silence...

for the next 48 minutes... ]

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