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( he's silent for a moment, lifting himself up at those words as he stares off into the distance, and it's without a doubt that he peeks over to where rokkun lays. )

Why?

( he wants to see the hope that rokkun is sure of wanting, but that doesn't mean there aren't alternate ways in getting him to speak — it's finding the reasons behind what makes that question one posed to him. he should already know how much hope means to komaeda, and that he'd do anything to see the strongest hope victorious, even if it means eating away the weakest of it. to see a strong hope go against another strong hope, that's mostly entertaining. )

What do you hope to accomplish by that means?

( this is about you, rokkun, and komaeda willing to listen to every part of him to embrace how he works. he didn't lie to him a long time ago when he said that rokkun's hope was something he wanted to see, he'd do what was needed for it to come to fruition. )

So he doesn't have to see his Aniki become a murderer.

[ It's not his hope that's forwarded by this action; he's just trying to protect his brother's, who believes him to be somebody who takes care of others, who works hard to meet their needs, indominable and infallible. Mass murder is kind of the opposite of all that.

It's still something he has to do, though. So he'll save face, and go through with the plan. ]

You don't want to let them down.

( because everything changes when you lose that shining spot in a loved one's eyes, and who knows how many times rokkun has been replaced for someone else. family isn't replaceable, if it was, npckun wouldn't have been so attached to the prospect of an older brother — they missed him, it was obvious, and even komaeda could see that. rokkun played the role of a brother, and a father, so there's so much weight on his shoulders of not wanting to disappoint them. )

...So you meant it, that you wanted to kill every person in this school? ...How will you go about it?

( is that part of dismantling the school? the part where he didn't care where the leftover souls went. he'd be doing them favor, they are just stuck here, but komaeda's shifts where he's resting, and he's going to lay his head on rokkun's chest. listen to his heart beat. ) Even if you know they want to live, that won't stop you... will it?

[ There's a twist of his lips, because that much should be obvious. For as much responsibility as he had for his brother in the past, they're more than a decade apart now and in that time, he's sure he's been elevated to nothing more than a concept, a big brother to look up to, who can do no wrong, an unrealistic expectation he had no choice but to meet.

Sorry, Kogamo. Your big brother spend his afterlife dying every two months.

But now, it's everybody else's turn. ]

It won't. I'm killing everybody so they'll have the chance to live— their own lives, in their own homes, with their own family. I'm sending them all back. Just wait and see.

( the way i have to go backwards because i ain't expect kouji to open the love letter. anyway, you know, komaeda knows rokkun always says one thing and means another which always brings difficulty in parsing his words. he wouldn't necessarily call this killing, but he wouldn't necessarily call this saving their lives so they can have a chance to live. he wouldn't call it a lot of things, but when he says it like that — even better — it improves everything, but komaeda does kind of wish he really meant a little bloodshed as a treat. )

Wait and see...? You're not serious are you?

( he lifts up, looking at the other like he's insane, blinking slow like... the idea to just look forward to it isn't really there. )

I told you, I was going to join you... were you not listening at the start of this?

( going to pinch his nose because that's a little annoying on rokkun's behalf, but it's fine, he's trying. )

[ scrunches his nose, stop it ]

Joining me doesn't mean doing the exact same thing as me. I already told you what your job was.

[ Presumably. And if he didn't, it was supposed to be something about Komaeda going around talking to people and getting them all riled up over hope. ]

Let me do the same exact thing as you... come on... tell me...

( he'll take his hand back, maybe pinch one more time, and then pull away. )

Tell me everything, Rokkun... you want to use... ( his luck, and he loathes it actually, but he's just as low as anyone else here that doesn't have a talent... so it's not like his luck is special. ) ...which plays in some way...

( unless. )

...Tell me all about your planning, what made you decide this... I want to hear everything...

[ ... ]

Nope.

[ Let him have his secrets. Curiosity is how you keep people coming back, the same tactic npckun uses, but Rokkun's case is more... Yeah, he doesn't want to say. ]

I got tired of dying. I'm not going to let this place have its way with me anymore, that's all.

[ He's going to destroy the place because it pisses him off. It wasn't that hard of a decision. ]

Nope?

( curiosity isn't even what keeps komaeda here, what keeps him here is the other's hope, that one aspect that always draws him closer. it's a make or break deal, and always has been. to learn why rokkun does what he does is a plus, and besides... this is supposed to be about him anyway. )

...Rokkun, you know you can tell me things, don't you... ( how long did it take to even get him to talk about what's on his mind, he's so guarded... there's a reason for it, but even komaeda wants to stick his fingers in the wound to see him bleed. )

How do we dismantle it, I mean it when I say I want to help you... but sitting by idly isn't my thing... let's blow up the tree.

( ...he could also kill himself, listen, he has to be active or he just doesn't care anymore. )

Oh, I've tried. I don't know what happened, but it was still there when I woke up next.

[ He died, he thinks. Sometimes an invisible gardener will come out of nowhere and slaughter you for even considering it. ]

( komaeda's starting to think rokkun has no plan, and maybe he can hear how disappointed he is when he sighs. )

So we have to do something you've never done before...

( it's hard when he doesn't know all that the other has done, or what he should know if komaeda's periodically appeared in this school in the past or whatever. )

Maybe you could have placed influence through the student council... you should have tried for it.

[ The plan is mass murder. It doesn't have to be something intricate. ]

No way. Never again. I can't stand being in that room.

( "never again" DO YOU MEAN HE USED TO BE THERE!?!??!?!?! )

I didn't know you were on the team, Rokkun... you don't look like the type. ( kinder, ) Did you hate the authority, or lack thereof?

( he's curious!! )

Wow.

[ Excuse him? he's a model student to those who don't know better, thank you. ]

I was the authority, and then I got offed and I wasn't anymore.

[ It was a very brief reign, before somebody Aiko'd him. ]

...What did you think about what happened to the student council president this year?

( whoo, let komaeda crawl up above rokkun so he can sit like... behind his head, and that way he can look down at him. )

Why does it seem like that group has a lot going on...

( is that why rokkun said the student council was cursed like months ago? aside from that, komaeda's going to reach out and drag his index finger along the curve of rokkun's neck at the mention of being "offed"... hm. )

[ Something about kinship, maybe, with how quickly she died and how inconsequential it felt, but Rokkun doesn't mention it for the implications and also because of who caused her murder.

He catches Komaeda's hand and his punishment for being weird is that Rokkun's going to hold it. ]

Student council places a target on your back, and it really isn't worth the trouble. Did you want to join? There's a lot of paperwork.

Hm... tell me about it, you have so much experience.

( he'd rather not have a target on his back, which may also seem odd, but the thing is he doesn't want to die hopelessly, and being part of the council seems that way —

as rokkun holds his hand, he states at it like he's confused by it. )

...You signed a contract, didn't you? What was yours like?

( since they're talking about paperwork, and komaeda will just try and lace his fingers with rokkun's own. )

[ He doesn't have that much experience; he literally got offed in the first several weeks. ]

It was something like... oh, it was a long time ago. "If I survive to the end of the school year, you will let me blow up the school." Something like that.

[ It didn't happen. ]

( what in the FUCK WHO HATED HIMMMMMM... as for komaeda, he seems unsatisfied with the answer from how he keeps quiet after his statement. )

...To be part of the student council as the leader, you're given a wish... basically, and the school sees that contract through?

( it... sounds like one for example, and he lost it by dying, but komaeda wonders if that was really is since it was a long time ago... has his attempts been messy before this school year? )

I want you to think Rokkun, and I'll reward you... do you recall Okane-san's contract, and would you know Arisu-san's?

( he'll lean forward a bit, licking his own bottom lip like he's willing to risk it all right now. )

[ me ]

Sort of... It has to be about the school in some way, or the students.

[ So not a selfish wish. "I want everybody to escape this hell school and go home back to their exact same life before their death" is kind of skirting the line, but the price would be a lot heftier than Rokkun's wish for destruction. Or maybe whoever he contracted with just had no faith he'd survive more than a month and let him propose whatever he wanted. ]

Usually the presidents aren't able to disclose their contracts, or it's void. You get to know the contract for whoever you replaced, so Maya would know Aiko's, at least.

( that sounds about right. )

...Hm, well, then a wish is pushing it if... it's shackle to the school in general, sighs... I wonder what it would have been like to see you succeed.

( he looks up now, leaning up like he's gained his answer, but since it's not what he wanted, he doesn't feel the need to risk it all. though, he can't be too disappointed, rokkun is working with him on this, and he'll bring the other's hand up to his cheek, leaning it against his cold skin like a reward for talking. )

What was the contract like before you?

[ If he had succeeded, there would be no school. They'd all have to kill each other while sleeping on rubble, because at that point in time he hadn't given thought about how to get out of here once there's no school, as if the building itself is what makes this place what it is.

Also he's feeling very much like a dog getting petted for doing a trick and he's not sure how to feel about that. ]

Something about ensuring all surviving third years are able to graduate, I think... I don't remember what the price was, but she ended up failing.

( does he have something against dogs? if he doesn't like it, he can take his hand back, and komaeda won't stop him even though he likes how warm he is. he should probably let him go now, but he doesn't and instead he closes his eyes as he keeps his cheek pressed against rokkun's hand. )

...You've been here longer than most of us, do you believe Arisu-san has the students best interest in mind... considering what you want to do... kill them all for freedom... do you think she'll cause conflict with your goal?

( it's more of a do you think you and maya have the same ideals in line? then again, maybe if they did, they'd actually be friends, but komaeda distinctly remembers rokkun telling him to stay away from hiro, so you know. )

[ No, he's like a dog that'll hold on tighter if you try to take away its toy ]

Hm.

[ It's a "I trust her as far as I can throw her" hm, except he could probably make good distance. ]

I think she's trying to fix a system that's too far gone.

[ Like she believes she can change the rules, and make this place into the school it used to be. Rokkun just wants to demolish it completely. ]

What if she can do it, Rokkun? ...Underdogs are quite the type.

( that's interesting, how lucky, actually, who knew komaeda's actions brought about that type — it does remind him of when npckun mentioned that someone was a good leader for the school or something, and now komaeda really believes that was maya. considering no one wanted to vote for her. )

She's very well-liked among our peers, you know... would you want her to be successful?

( despite his goal is heavily different from hers. )

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